私の心の平安

ambient

MHIE

Sad music

new track w/ @iamoneheart

stream https://kurate.lnk.to/DS034
released by @dreamscapeyt

snowfall w/ Øneheart

released by @dreamscapeyt.

stream / download: https://kurate.lnk.to/DS039

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visuals: https://youtu.be/J4RxO3lRsi0

this feeling

stream / download:
https://oneheart.lnk.to/watchingthestars

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released by @dreamscapeyt.

apathy

black ball pen line art by.. let me know if you know

From the Heart, It’s a Start, a Work of Art

Shinichi Atobe • Regret

stream / download:
https://oneheart.lnk.to/tapeloops

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way back home

stream / download:
https://oneheart.lnk.to/leaving

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leaving

all platforms: 
https://bfan.link/despair-8

socials:
https://www.instagram.com/mentallyiamhereforyou

despair

all platforms:
https://bfan.link/she-broke-my-heart

me:
https://www.instagram.com/mentallyiamhereforyou

she broke my heart

(don't) leave

playlist

no one wants to be themselves

loss of self

music video: https://youtu.be/T60fvfrXa3g
OLD song from october 29, 2022.
lyrics:
you're a mystery to me, to me
the way you see right thru me
two of you, and one of me..
my head is so so so empty
two of you, and one of me..
who am i suppose to be?

i couldn't not kiss you if tried,
im your "one and only"
acknowledge me please, im RIGHT here..
its just.. me...

music video

mystery

nothing is real, part 21.1

my head is empty

all songs like this

shadow of my former self

this song was written during treatment in a particularly bad time. right now things are worse, but this was different. whenever i get new lesions in my brain, they attempt to close them using a powerful steroid called "prednisone". no, not like steroids body builders use, these target cuts in my brain that form and essentially singe them closed. after 30+ lesions i stopped counting them and stopped asking. i don't even want to know how trashed my brain is at this point. but anyways, they give me a very high dose of this. usually 1250mg. all i can really say is, it feels like you just drank 10 cups and coffee and a couple redbulls in one sitting. it feels like your blood is made of battery acid. its pretty much impossible to sleep, and i have to take these dosages for several days. sometimes for 25 days straight, at 25 pills a day gradually reducing the dosage by 1 pill a day. anyways. in these times, my insomnia becomes much worse. i already cannot sleep, but during these treatments sleep is out of the question. ill go a bit insane from sleep deprivation. in these times im looking so desperately for a sense of calm. a sense of peace or serenity. all i could really do is try to make a calm or beautiful sounding song to give myself something. not something id already made, but just exactly what i needed to hear at that time, and i guess this was that song. i never released this one, but things have been especially bad lately again, and i heard this track again and realized it helps me just as much now as it did then. maybe its time to share it, and maybe someone out there will feel the peace i do, when listening <3 big love to you all. thank you for reading, and listening .

nothing is real, part XVI

album

prednisone song

easier, is not always better.

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

its just easier to be alone

instagram

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

who will save us

below the links is a long write up about this song. thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
about this song: i’ve felt that ambient has been very stale for a long time now. i never wanted to start making ambient music, but it felt like the only chance to get out there. my heart will always be in my “nothing is real” albums, and i can’t thank enough those of you that have begun to listen to them. i’m glad that sort of, simplifying my music - to ambient - ended up being how i came to know you all with “i was only temporary”, and was able to meet you all, but i think it’s time to expand this genre for myself, for my sanity! when i make simple ambient songs for me it feels like im shackling myself to a bunch of rules and restrictions. while i understand that simple music is often best for a lot of people, and i very much appreciate the way these simple calm songs can help others and myself, ive been trying to think of a way to bring just some of the complexities or experimental nature of “nothing is real” over. ambient used to just be sort of a small component of nothing is real, like a base layer, and often at the end of a 5 or 7, or sometimes even 9 minute long nothing is real song, i would try to sort of attach an extra ambient piece of music to the end of the song. not always ambient, just whatever felt right. 
i really liked doing acoustic versions of a song built right in to the song itself, so i think its time to bring this NIR idea to my ambient. i dont see the point in releasing 2 separate songs. to me just like many many times through the 21 “nothing is real” albums, i say.. “we’re already here listening to the song, just put the acoustic version in this song too!!l i’m excited to explore this concept in my ambient now too, and not just the NIR series, and i hope you guys will find it as refreshing as it is for me. it sort of helps me feel better about making simple music that a lot of you enjoy, when personally my heart will always be with making those really complex nir songs !! anyways if you read this far, thanks so much. and if you have listened to any of the NIR albums, i wish i could shake your hand and tell you how much it means to me.

i (don't) deserve forgiveness

when i'm a ghost
i'll follow you everywhere
when you need me the most
i'll already be there

when u need me the most

from the upcoming "nothing is real, part XXII" 
<3
lyrics:
my heart stops beating
my life's completed
is this how it ends?
make up for lost time
how do i rewind?
i can feel the void
calling me
it's calling me

nothing is real, part XXII

im the dirt

‎‎creator of the "nothing is real" album series. (2018-present)
hello. my brain is killing me from a disease called multiple sclerosis. i am making as much music as i can before inevitability i wake up one day unable to function.  i wouldn't wish this on anybody. thanks for listening.
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