@closr18

because idk if ill make it
dk if ill change it
just give me time
I wont stay behind
I only feel it idk if I need it
if u tell me that ur leaving ill come right back to u
cuz wen ur hands run thru my arm
I don't wanna fall apart
u wont tell me why
u wont tell me why anymore

cuz I don't wanna break it
I don't wanna fake it
I don't wanna change anymore

can u tell me if its even fair
I don't wanna stop and go nowhere
I know I waste my time
dk if you'll be mine
like it was all for nothing
still tryna hold on to something now
feel ur heart while I still figure it out

stay behind (closr)

Big thanks to @1kidsora and @victxrw for featuring. It’s really crazy that i can have a song with people who inspire me and i listen to everyday. Also shout out @kuriyai443 for the fire beat.

recorded in feb 2024

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(chorus: me)
its night outside
and u shine the brightest
dancing in the moonlight
but u broke my heart
it hurt so bad
im falling to pieces
wish it only was a dream
but its real we cannot be
and i wish you was here with me
because my chest its gonna bleed

(verse: me)
love of my live
falling thru my hands
u left me all alone
cannot understand
we went different ways
hope u doing okay
blinded by your love
like some kind of spell
memories of u stuck inside my brain
wish we could go and relive them again
baby close your eyes let the wind blow
in the end yeah wish it was a real love

(verse: kid sora)
I don't know if this is real love
you've been acting strange so I think imma close the seal up
ah-haa! that mean you aint getting near us
I lead by example, I don't want them all to fear us- yuh, yuh-
like, it really aint that deep girl
better prove your worth before you gain the right to see worlds
better prove yourself before you gain the right to see pearls
thought she was the one, it turns out that girl just an e-girl- fuck

(verse: victxrw)
yea yea, i just need get out
i tried to scream but theres no sound coming out my mouth
no no, i just need get out
im stuck in bed im just stuck inside this jail house
I pray that i can make it up
nd everyday, ive had enough
ik that u just hate my guts
ill never be enough

im never enough
im coughing up blood
im never enough

(chorus: me)
its night outside
and u shine the brightest
dancing in the moonlight
but u broke my heart
it hurt so bad
im falling to pieces
wish it only was a dream
but its real we cannot be
and i wish you was here with me
because my chest its gonna bleed

art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/19920821

wish

Spotify✨

wish + kid sora & victxrw (kuriyai)

<3
prod @prod_promise

lyrics:

you're what regulates my heart
i hope that

slowly, i hope we'll talk more closely
dont act like you dont know me
like acetylcholine 
you're what regulates my heart

i feel like ive gone too far
i dont know where you are
lets just take it to the start
i know we could do this differently
the hindsight made that clear to see
dont think ill ever understand
how it felt when i would hold your hand
to do that all again
to do it all again
its too cold when you're not here
cant hold on, all i feel is fear
wont you appear again for me
for me

ill find my way back to you
(back to you)
i dont care what i have to do
(ill do anything)

you're what regulates my heart
i hope that

slowly, i hope we'll talk more closely
dont act like you dont know me
like acetylcholine 
you're what regulates my heart

slowly, i hope we'll talk more closely
dont act like you dont know me
like acetylcholine 
you're what regulates my heart

chemical

chemical (promise)

huge thanks to @1akura and @hartfxlt they are really the goats no cap
produced by @aerelin

recorded in feb 2024 
spotify next week 
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me:
you could have leave but i still have feelings for you
you said you wanna be together but who would have knew
guess that how the story ends
wish our paths will cross again
it was love at the first sight
was it fate? yeah
wish i could rewind the time to the day we met
to try again and try again
just to make things work

@1akura:
can you listen to my heart?
all the words are just tearing me apart
every single day i just wonder where you are
every single day im just looking at the stars
every single day ye its getting kinda hard
wonder where you are, i wonder where u go
baby wheres the love, i swear it never shows
listen to my heart
i wanna hold you close
i don't know where you are
i want you to come home

@hartfxlt:
thinking thru my choices
I regret letting you go
hear your voice and 
turn around, its nothing but snow
I can't avoid it
all these thoughts keeping me cold
its so annoying because I tried letting you know 
so run home, back to me 
I lost control, whats happening
all the things I hate is what ill be 
thought of you today, have you thought of me?

me: 
you could have leave but i still have feelings for you
you said you wanna be together but who would have knew
guess that how the story ends
wish our paths will cross again
it was love at the first sight
was it fate? yeah
wish i could rewind the time to the day we met
to try again and try again
just to make things work

art by www.pixiv.net/en/users/81852718

try again + akura & hartfxlt (aerelin)

@prodkirian @kyoakyo ^_^
amv! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSfzd9EE4ng&pp=ygUGYml0ZWtp

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

(i miss u more than youll ever know but this loves a tragedy)
(js know ill be here when ur feeling down even though its not meant 2 be)
(oooh ohhhh ohhhh x2)

listen 2 my heart
all my pain is real can u see all my scars
tryna better myself everyday but dunno where 2 start
i miss ur hand on minee
just tell me everythings okay jus look me in my eyes
yea its getting hard
i cant do this alone
i really trusted u i cant believe u left me cold
i really really loved u more than u will ever know
its such a shame
its down the drain
now i sit n i cryyyy

cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rot
cause i
cant decideee
if i really need ur love or not
this loves a tragedy
ill let it rottt

tragedy (kirian, kyoa)

"i guess thats how things go"
shoutout april showers 
and big thanks goats
@remiliaxd @kyxtsnxwy
@prodarisu @oiwassupp

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me
all the things that i been thru
wake up another day, feeling brand new
i gave you my heart, you tore it to pieces
and i couldn't believe it, but
i guess thats how things go
thought i had you, you slipped out of my hand
and all the time we spent, went to waste
i can't recall the things, that i said
and its all my fault, that how it is

@remiliaxd
that's how it is, falling to pieces
falling to my own thoughts, it hurts
yeah i said "i don't need it," but i still need it
and i guess that's how it is again
i hold you close, now i'm falling to pieces again
again, let my heart go
to think i'd lose it all again

@kyxtsnxwy
imma lose it all again
demons in my head
i know they wont let me live, i know
you held so many pain, now you’re cold
i’ll keep reminding you, i wont go away
i will take away your pain
no matter how things go, im always here to stay
if ever you need space, i’ll wait anyway
i know i live in hell, but i’ll take you to holy place

me + @remiliaxd
all the things that i been thru
wake up another day, feeling brand new
i gave you my heart, you tore it to pieces
and i couldn't believe it, but
i guess thats how things go

how things go
heart froze
heart hurts and it's frozen like the snow
let go
i know
i know that my heart is set in stone

art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/27354041

Spotify

how things go + remilia & kyxtsnxwy (arisu oiwa)

featuring @kyxtsnxwy x @1kidsora x @muieternal
prod. @tores x @jichuuu

@akasukii
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without u
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own
tell me where did we go wrong?
how did we fall apart?
was it something i did something i said?
or was it written from the start?
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without you
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own

@kyxtsnxwy
i dont wanna be on my own
left me in the snow, its freezing and its cold
i know
please hold me tight closely
im right here by my lonely
it feels like u disowned me
im right here at the start again

lets please start again
all that im feeling is the feeling of dread
bullet be straight to my head
feeling like nothing im better off dead
all of the things that u said
hurting my soul, baby, im falling apart
take out my heart
baby its nothing its just all scars

@1kidsora
all i ever needed was presence
all i ever needed was essence
i know im learning lessons
but, im still overthinking blessings
im trynna geek & i'm posted with Jayy
all that she care about is what i make
so- imma just pray
i dont know how much more i'll take
of this- of this
she bid me farewell
with a silent kiss
of this- of this-
u all know i cant miss-

@muieternal
i think ive had enough
u said u'd have our love
the distance in ur touch
i'd never hate so much 

u promised on ur word
now i cant make this alone
ruminating this thought
leave this love in a knot

pretend w/kishi, kid sora + mui [tores x jichu]

hey im back, again :D
@k4rson, @yashio20k, @neohnq <33

lyrics:

and i got so much trust i dont know what else
these feelings fake i dont know myself
my heart break drugs i cant play pretend
unblock my love
i gave all that i have
x2

@k4rson
i gave all that i can
i never thought that it would end 
do u think we could pretend 
i wanna be more than friends 
i wanna be more than friends
but you let me on when you said it'd never end 
so dont act so surprised when im gone i meant what i said
i dont wanna miss you 
dont know what's the issue 
i think i cld fix you 
i dont wanna hit you up 
girl i miss you, fuck
imma come around by 8 
n i'll pick u up

@luvpika
and i thought we was forever
but it just feels im being lied to
thought you fucking ment it
cant believe i even tried to
crying in my face all the time
i couldnt even say goodbye
im running fast out of time
this time i never felt alive

(bridge)
i can say so much but i keep quiet
its like i never been myself anyway
and i dont care what you say
i try my best everyday

@k4rson
(outro)
i dont wanna miss you
dont know what the issue
i think i can fix you
i dont wanna hit you up
girl i miss you, fuck
i will come around by 8
n ill pick u up

trust w/ karson (yashio, neohn)

w/ @tores prod me

Lyrics:

I feel like I’m calling out to the dark
I’m way too far
I can’t reach you

I’m still hoping
There’s something more to this
I’m still choking
On words that I can’t dismiss

I’m falling to the floor
These things that I can’t restore
This can’t be alright
I just wanted more

our love will never last, time will never wait
i'm scared i'll forget everything you ever said yeah
i'm so sad yeah, i'm scared i will forget you
oh baby close your eyes, let me hold your hand
let's just run away, to the fairy land 
every night in my dreams i see you
that's the most beautiful view

your love it was all pretend
got me crying in my room again
again and again, again
time will pass, love will stop
memories fade away into the dark
i know you know, i want you back
i wish i could just see you one more time

I’m still hoping
There’s something more to this
I’m still choking
On words that I can’t dismiss

I’m falling to the floor
These things that I can’t restore
This can’t be alright
I just wanted more

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choking w/ tores (me)

sample: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jslXH90KMMo
I, cant let it go
cuz ik Id miss u moree,,
I,,, cant let u know 
everytime I feel ignored :/
give u the most n u just want more//
its never enough! just the same as before.. 
tried picking u up , but im dragging u down 
it all plays out how it sounds </3
u make my head spin, cuz knowing ur intentions,, 
Idk how Im not dead...? 
how am I not 6ft under.....
so used to just pretendin, ur the one ill be dead with
I hope u get the message...

@1akura -
sick to my stomach when ur calling me
its a struggle everyday i cant fall asleep
tell me - tell me is it gonna end
need u - need u right by my side but ik u cant
but i need u so bad
but ikk that we wont lasttt
js know that i miss u morreee

miss u moreee (decago)

https://youtu.be/kqLkLfX6Igw?si=xFC3MjBxbPKGbmgb

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