https://open.spotify.com/track/5QTBwgAkE6HuG3wxwe5zFt?si=320d9379b8a1403e

locked inside my room again
thinking about u again
is this really how its gonna end 
i wish u'd b my girlfriend

i trust u never once worried
thought i was rushing things i didnt wanna hurry
u wanna keep me safe i dont want u to hurt me too 
but its impossible if i just really love u 

and i do
and i do 
i rlly do 
and i do
2x

im awaiting
will this go 
how im thinking

i have faith in god 
cuz this is no mistake
almost gave up but i had to stop
cuz i know my love isnt fake
just be urself please
i'll be pleased
i'd do it all for u 
to make u happy 
im not the dirty type 
but lets get zappy
i love ur selfies
and ur body 
its not over cuz i like u 
u could reject me its ok dont be scared to 

thought i lost then, i just didnt know
its not the end yea i have hope 
so stressed im sweating bury me in snow
clipping my nails with my teeth i wanna slit my throat

waitingwaiting Prod bloodsekai

prod @alphieafterlife

lovecupid
she was the girl i met in winter 
she had pretty black hair
she was cold as the winter
she knew god could not save her
how does it feel to be alone
dont take that pill might overdose
 dont be a bitch dont be a pussyy
it cant be that bad at home
your walk home all alone 
dont let your life be that bad

you said your life going bad way well i believe you
just look at yourself 
we both know you need your mental heath
you so fucking degusting
i know i cant help you
just look at me and look at you two broken parallels 


how does it feel to be alone
dont take that pill might overdose
 dont be a bitch dont be a pussyy
it cant be that bad at home
your walk home all alone 
dont let your life be that bad



alphie

im so scared of you
you want me to be better but what can i do
up all the night and sleep all the day
no sleep for the weak
up all the night and sleep all the day
no sleep for the weak
im so scared of you
you want me to be better but what can i do
up all the night and sleep all the day
no sleep for the weak
up all the night and sleep all the day
no sleep for the weak

girl i met in winter w/ alphie

i feel disgusting 
i dont feel human
my body fumbling its rumbilng cause i dont know
what takes come back home  to you
i wanna say that i love you
i have feeling i cant forgive you i cant love you
i have a feeling i cant not trust you i cant not love you
i think your words going butcher 
it makes me sick to my stomache i cant even eat
this cant be heathy 2x

i have a feeling

XD ur such a nub
yea ill eat ur body up
i dont giv a single fuk
an im such a sissy sub

can u be my little slut
ill fuck u till u cum
an ill fuck u till theres blud 
and ill fill u up w love

yea ill fill u up w luv 
cz ur such a stupid slut
and ill use u till i cum
and ill use u till u cum
and ill use u till im done 
yea ill use u till im done x3

XD ur such a nub
yea ill eat ur body up
i dont giv a single fuk
an im such a sissy sub
sissy sub sissy sub
yea im such a sissy sub
no i do not give a fuck
mommy im ur little slut

xDxDxD

hi im back very short song 
prod me
ft. @odihu

im so damn lonely
u call my name
i get ecstatic
only u understand me
when im manic
im just waiting
for the day to end
so i can play pretend
act like im a movie star
then life wont be so hard

im so lonely please hold my hand
im not used to romance
glad that i can be ur man
cause you gave me a chance
i dont know whats wrong
with the thoughts inside my head
but i know that if you left me
there i would end up dead

im so damn lonely
u call my name
i get ecstatic
only u understand me
when im manic
im just waiting
for the day to end
so i can play pretend
act like im a movie star
then life wont be so hard

im so lonely!! (ft. odihu)

@bloodsekai

bites on my neck
i'm coming home with bruises
parents wanna yell
i wanna be secluded
razor on the shelf
it's looking pretty useless
i'm already hurt enough
i'm just another nuisance
the silence in my room is way too loud
my thoughts come in and break me up and down
i'm just another nuisance
with her hands behind her back
all the confidence i lack
broke ur definition of "wack"
take me back to yesterday

bloodsekai - just another nuisance demo

so i dont want be alone but its okay
its alr
cause when im alone i have no one to consult to
cause i hope your alr cause 
i really drinking alone for so long
and that i dont want to know
every time breath my lungs still hurt
and then i over think about what i did wrong
its like cycle
that i cant forget
you said you wouldnt go away
ohmy god knows i cant have dat yet
girl go home girl dont leave me alone
girl don't leave alone
I'm obsess i just want to know if you love me

it will be okay

@akira3ksucks + @weejk cover prod me

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

i cant decide
if u should live or die
rot my brain everytime
ur never satisfied
if i say that i love u
would u say it back
my head is filled with fluoride
turn to a maniac

u decide if i should live or die
i cut my wrist while u look in my eyes
tell me lies until i feel alright
watch me die as u lay by my side

red eyes
i might die
u fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
u cut my name into ur thigh
bloodstains on ur dress
u left me here with nothing left
stab ur knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

so there's this girl (cover)

prod me

ooooh
i dont wanna choose
yea my brains so fried
its turned into juice and
iiiiii dont wanna
think abt the past
cus lifes movin too fast

when ur goin? idk
but winters comin with the snow
n i wont have anyone to hold
when i get sad or i get cold
like icicles
ill pierce ur heart with love
until ur high above
my angel from the snow

ooooh
i dont wanna choose
yea my brains so fried
its turned into juice and
iiiiii dont wanna
think abt the past
cus lifes movin too fast
x2

snow angel

instrumental: @bloodsekai & @odihu
featuring: @odihu (1st / chorus)

yes, it's the ksi song. shout-out shortstumpyengine for the inspiration/composition.

--- lyrics: ---

i've gotten so lost
i'm left inside the cold
nobody but me and myself, i'm alone
scars on my body that i will not show
there's no way to cope, guess i'll just grab the rope

woooaaah
i guess this is how the story goes
woooaaah
i guess this is how the story goes

loosen up ur neck
it looks like u might snap
looks like u might have a crush
well that might be too bad
i wanna make u sad
i'll ruin what u have
ur sobbing, well i'm glad
declaw u like a cat

i love the thrill of it
get a bloody nose
despair thru ur bones
ts feels like coke
spreading all the grief, time to put on a show 
sadness goes around as they cry out their woes 

i have no remorse
miss evil of course
so give me a tour
before the scythe hits ur door

i've gotten so lost
i'm left inside the cold
nobody but me and myself i'm alone
scars on my body that i will not show
there's no way to cope, guess i'll just grab the rope

woooaaah
i guess this is how the story goes
woooaaah
i guess this is how the story goes

thick of it thomas ksi remix

this is how the story goes (ft. odihu)

rushing running down the stairs
hoping that my cat is there
shes the one thats by my side
even when i start to cry

she so white and fluffy too
her fur just makes me comfortable

i know shes just a cat
but she means the world to meeeeeee

shes my only company
she give me lots of peace

id die if she ever leaves

i love my cat and she loves me too
everyday the world makes me feel blue
but my fluffy little cat helps me get through
in her empty little head she has no clue

my best friend is a little fuzz ball
when i wanna cry i know who to call
meows when she wants to play
then im on my way

come on lets go
my only friend
playtime with you is my medicine

she knows when im sad
shes the best friend ive ever had

xDxDxD

kana