I used to put so much effort into past relationships because I realized I never felt good enough… or deserving… or having much value. I thought by “doing enough” I could “be enough,” so the effort and the struggle continued for years. I did not recognize that mentally trying to come up with solutions to my perceived shortcomings was keeping me stuck in a merry-go round of pain as an adult. I was thinking about this recently as I was walking and wondered, “Wow, did I EVER feel good enough?”

This belief stemmed from not feeling accepted as a child (something I recognized in hindsight), which pushed me to mentally be somebody else… somebody who I thought would be accepted and deserving of love and attention. I met the demands of others instead of doing what I felt inside. It took considerable effort to be someone else, which carried over into my adult relationships. I thought that’s what I had to do to be accepted; it was my pattern. So I ended up in relationships where I got little to no attention, took on all the burdens, played the martyr and the victim, because that’s what I knew. I would then put forth a lot of effort, which of course got me nowhere, resulting in me beating myself up for not doing enough. I lived in a constant state of self-punishment and need for validation. See how easily this cycle perpetuates itself?   

When you have an internal feeling of lack, there’s an urge to overcompensate. You feel you need to do, do, do instead of just be. And unless you recognize this comes from something inside you, you will continue attracting partners who don’t give you what you need, making you feel like you have to work for their love, then feeling like a failure when it doesn’t work. It’s time you look inside yourself to identify the old beliefs that are running the show so you don’t pass up someone who requires nothing more of you than simply being… you.

Journey Of Attachment: Not Being Good Enough

A lot of us live in our head, disconnected from our feelings and intuition. This podcast touches on releasing insecure attachment, accepting your authentic self and getting “unstuck” by connecting to how you FEEL instead of how you THINK. I’ve been there, and discuss sensitive subjects using my own experiences with a lot of laughs and even more empathy… because we’re all flawed humans.

Journey Of Attachment: Not Being Good Enough

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