additional production by h3artch3rades

there wasn't too much to say
only thing that i could say
it's been a long time coming for me
god took one look and said you ain't where you supposed to be
another lost soul to keep the devil's men company
he stripped the halo and the wings from me yeah
trumpets and angels that were weeping over me
feeling the fires and the burning beneath (inside)
i heard the words that said you're right where you're supposed to be

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't keep going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't figure it out

trapped four walls and i'm closed in in silence
covered in clothes that hide signs of violence
nowhere to run to
nowhere to hide in
trapped in four corners of my mind don't tell nobody
what it was i experienced on the deep end
am i wrong for trying to find what i'm seeking
trying to hear the words i never heard before
trying to find out if i was even good for it

i know the lord's keeping secrets from me
but know i'm trying to try to keep the devil away from me
i don't know what it was that's keeping me peace inside
but i can't keep going knowing i'll never go
through the fires and trials and tribulations
through the hardships, heartbreaks, and the hard things
pressing my skull against the wall until i'm blacking out
moving in silence but i just can't

god took one look and said (prod.soma & dose)

okay i'm doing great
i'm doing better than probably anybody has ever seen
i got people lining up around the corner just to work with me
and people i talk to now treat me like a celebrity
everyone's trying to work with me now thinking i'm a hot commodity
it's a blessing really
everything in my life feels like it's destined for me
i stopped living in the past started living in the present lately
stopped carrying about what people thinks been good for my mental lately
when i'm in my head it's hard not to think about it
this way that way always in the worst ways
think about it often enough was fucking my headspace up
i'm cutting people quickly cutting the dead weight off
my actions speak louder than my words so i don't say much
i know my parents ain't that proud of me but i feel proud of me
i step out in some prada jeans i feel like i'm a prodigy
maison mihara yasuhiro always under my feet
i always keep my head in the clouds and nothing else under me
okay you know better than i know
i'll talk to you later i'm flying to a new time zone
all that glitter's not gold
balenciaga rhinestones
look like diamonds on me shining
make me feel i'm right at home
i'm only worried about things that i'll never get to do
never looked at me before but now i got something to prove
my only opinion is me i don't care if you approve
consistency quality only something i could do
ay ay ay ay
i just woke up thinking i'mma have a really good day
thanks for coming out to check my little life update
i'm just trying to make sure y'all are staying up to date
because my life is so interesting
and nothing is ever as it seems
i can't hold it inside to let you know this time
to get your life in order in order to get your life back
else karma comes around and gets you right back

all that glitters is rhinestones (prod.chrnic & neonn)

prod. neohn, kirian & mandem

always&forever

lyrics:
you can call me one last time
cause just for you i'd make it right
(and if you want me dead i'll die)
and i can't believe that you're now gone
you were just mine

like did you even cry?
like i did?
all of the nights
where i bled 

tell me you hate me 
i just wanna hear that
just as long as i hear it from you 
and would you save me
if i asked you to?

cause i don't wanna move on
but i'll walk out the door
got a feelin i'll die young
bleeding out on the floor

so fuck it i'm getting high again
i'm so fucking tired man
baby my head hurts 
and it never gets better

got me crying for you
got me crying out, yeah bitch you got me crying now
can you hear me now?
hear me when i scream in my room?
got me screaming now, yeah bitch you got me screaming loud
can you hear me now?

you can call me one last time
cause just for you i'd make it right
(and if you want me dead i'll die)
and i can't believe that you're now gone
you were just mine

like did you even cry?
like i did?
all of the nights
where i bled

cry (neohn kirian mandem)

@emotionals
prod me & @with3rxx
cover art by emotionals

meet me at the rap show
baby i can hold u close
say youll never let me go
won’t u meet me at the rap show
yea i swear that i am so gone
and these diamonds they be so cold
and youre knowin that i cant fold
yea wont u meet me at the rap show

emotionals - MEET ME AT THE RAP SHOW (sochi + with3r)

https://soundcloud.com/h3artch3rades
prod https://soundcloud.com/c4v

h3artch3rades - diary of a wimpy kid/dog days (c4pri)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6duodRL3rKqw3SEgLXuEbb

@decago @wintress13
next drop @ 900 followers then pushing for an ep at 1k...
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so ill be waiting right here,, right here
find my body leave my life here,, life here
when you leave me with nothing they,ll be dry tears
i came to u was struggling,, ur my one fear

leave me in the snow please
watch me fall apart
swear my bodys right here ,,,
but my mind is not
is this what u wanted cuz its all i got....
leave my body haunted,, let my body rot

when its all said,, and done 
will u take me along
i feel so ripped apart,,, but with  u i am one
try to trn the time back but my body so numb
i just miss you so bad girl 
ur all that i want  

(yeah im so afraid for this 2 end
watch me fall apart again..(

mybodyisrighthere (decago + wintress)

PROD VIOLET
ART BY ODDY & BLXTY

GOT TOO MUCH ON MY PLATE THATS
HURTING BUT I DONT WANT TO GO GO GO GO
GO GO GO GO
TELL ME IF ITS TRUE IS IT FATE
BABY I FEEL NEW TO THIS PLACE
I DONT WANT MY TIME TO BE WASTED
WE'RE NOT FINE AND I HATE IT
WHEN I SAW YOU IT WAS GRACE
CAN YOU TELL ME IM NOT LATE OH
I CAN FEEL YOUR IMAGE ITS FADING
BLACKOUT WOKE UP ON THE PAVEMENT
TRANSPARENT BAE UR SEE THROUGH
DO YOU SEE ME HOW I SEE YOU
I BE GETTING GREEN BUT I FEEL BLUE
SHAWTY SAID IM COLD SHE SAID IM THE FLU
GO GO
ME OR HIM CANT HAVE US BOTH
GO GO
THIS WONT FLOAT GIRL UR ON A SINKING BOAT
WATCH FROM A DISTANCE I BEEN TAKING NOTES
I CANT SAY A THING ALL I DO IS CHOKE
TAKE ALL THIS ADVIL AND MY HEAD IT STILL HURTS
GOT ME TRAPPED IN YOUR SPELL BUT I SWEAR ITS A CURSE
IF THIS PART OF YOUR PLAN CAN U PLS DO THE WORST
TELL ME ALL UR PETTY LIES
TELL ME WHAT YOU KEEP INSIDE A BALL
AND YOU HIDE DEEP INSIDE
AND I SWEAR
WHEN IM BY YOUR SIDE I FEEL SO ALIVE
ALL I REALLY WANT IS JUST YOU AND I
PROMISE YOU WILL NOT LET ME GO GO GO GO

grace (violet)

PROD BY @MENTAL
ART BY @BLXTY

IS THERE EVEN ANY POINT
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA KNOW
GIRL I’M SORRY I KNOW THAT I DISAPPOINT YOU
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA GO 
GO AWAY I’M FEELING THIS PAIN ALL DAY
I’M POPPING WAY TOO MUCH TAGS DROPPING TOO MUCH BAGS IT’S NOT OK
MAKE ME FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY
SHE KNOW BLX, NOT MY REAL NAME
DONT NEED CHEATS I GOT REAL AIM
GOT REAL FRIENDS GOT REAL FAME
I MIGHT HURT MYSELF IF I’M NOT CAREFUL
SHE DID ME SO BAD IT’S FINE CAUSE I GOT MENTAL 
MAKE A LIVING CRYING OVER INSTRUMENTALS 
I CAN SHARE MY HEART, BUT BABY PLEASE BE GENTLE 
IDK WHY I WOULD LIE TO YOU
IF IM REAL I’D PROBABLY DIE FOR YOU
SPEND THESE NIGHTS ALWAYS FIGHTING YOU
WHATS THE POINT TELL ME WHATS THE POINT
WHATCHA WANNA UH-
WATCHA WANNA DO
WATCHA WANNA BE
BE WITH ME
BUY YOU JIMMY CHOO BUY YOU DOUBLE C
UGH
BAE HOP UP IN MY V
HOP UP IN MY RIDE LOOK AT THE STARS
SHE SAID IM A STAR WHERE DO I EVEN START OMG

I NEED YOUR LOVE BABY
I SELF DESTRUCT LATELY
KISSES AND TOUCH MADE ME FEEL LIKE IM STUCK LATELY
THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
I NEED A 180
CUT AFTER CUT MADE ME FEEL OUT OF LUCK LATELY

CAN YOU HOLD ME CLOSER THAN YOU DID?
I SAW STARS IN MY EYES AND I MADE A WISH
IT WAS BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, AND IT FELT LIKE BLISS
AND THERES NO OTHER FEELING THATS QUITE LIKE THIS

IM SO BROKEN, FIX ME, MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN
I NEED SOMETHING MORE THAN MEDICINE
I NEED YOUR LOVE SO SWEET AND ELEGANT
PRAYED 3 TIMES AND CLOSED MY EYES AGAIN
(X2)

h3artch3rades - diary of a wimpy kid/dog days (c4pri)

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