Your 2023 Playback

foolish「shinju + taylor morgan」

9TAILS - after party (𝙎𝙡𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙙 + 𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙗)

18th birthday dropp & alsoo thxx 4 the support <33
been havn fun w music

1st prod
@ayykidtaylor
@meesuu

2nd prod
@1ello5k
@prodmichael

lyricss

i’m tryin my best give it all tht i got
when will it evr be enough? ://
i’m losing my head, all these thoughts i 4got
i’m tryin but yk it gets tough… (｡•́︿•̀｡)

to tell u the truth, i’ve been lookin 4you&
everything tht u do is hurtn me more than u
i tried to tell you, i’m not the one to run to
dnt wanna hear ur excuse
it’s hurting me more than u x3
dnt wanna hear ur excuse

i’m tryin my best give it all tht i got
when will it evr be enough? ://
i’m losing my head, all these thoughts i 4got
i’m tryin but yk it gets tough… (｡•́︿•̀｡)

to tell you the truth, i never needed u
& idc wht u do, it hurt you, well me2
if only u knew,
put any1 b4 you, you were my only go-to ),:
uhh, uhh, now i dnt even kno youuu..

4fun -
yea they wanna see me down but im always goin upp
i been w my bros, double 0, throwing up
why they wishing they was me, when i rlly am just none
ask me why i do it, i do it all 4fun
i cant talk gotta run, i been on my ownn
yea i dnt got no1, its jst you & @00clique (spira me reference LOL)
told her u wanna go? she said anywhere but home
she cant leave me alone, always spammin on my phone

now i feel painless, ill stay less
yea everything has changed since
ill make it, dont fake kick
im no longer changing

now i feel painless, ill stay less
yea everything has changed since
ill make it, dont fake kick
gave u my heart dont break it
dont fake itt

truth hurts (taylor meesuu) / 4fun (ello michaelwarren)

lyrics:

Life changed when Id written all these notebook scraps
 Even if I wanted I could not go back
On the road doing nights in this Chevrolet van
10th time I been thinking bout the talk we had
If I blow up baby dont get erased from the blast
When u  blow up fake friends come back from the past
I dont make up with the people that had held me back
I was laid up in the ER way way down bad

Maybe it was me maybe it was just the hand I was dealt
When u with me I feel a way I think id never felt
The Kush I breathe got the eyes upon my face on melt
If u need me u could find me on the astroid belt
Ice in my veins turn my body to a freezer
If u laid back not going out me neither
She flirt a lot at first then ghost me she a teaser
Pay to play shit if u rich u could lease her
I dont wanna come off too strongly
But I been in my head about 
How we could of been writing our story
But now this shits dead and I
dug my grave and im laying in it right now
Kush horse tranq how it put me in a time out
3 grams in the woods like im tryna say timber
I was tryna smoke away what I remembered

Life changed when Id written all these notebook scraps
 Even if I wanted I could not go back
On the road doing nights in this Chevrolet van
10th time I been thinking bout the talk we had
If I blow up baby dont get erased from the blast
When u  blow up fake friends come back from the past
I dont make up with the people that had held me back
I was laid up in the ER way way down bad

When u let me out of the grasp I was trapped in
I was free but the warmth turned to cold wind slapping
Regret in the form of an empty old mattress
I would take pain over what had came after
Pages got burned but I kept the cinder
Anything to bring back that September
3 grams in the woods like im tryna say timber
I was tryna smoke away what I remembered
But it never worked
All these blunts back to back make my chest hurt
Its like cardiac arrest from the pressure
That I blow from my lungs into the weather around me
I dont wanna come off too strongly
But I been in my head about 
How we could of been writing our story
But now this shits dead and I

Life changed when Id written all these notebook scraps
 Even if I wanted I could not go back
On the road doing nights in this Chevrolet van
10th time I been thinking bout the talk we had
If I blow up baby dont get erased from the blast
When u  blow up fake friends come back from the past
I dont make up with the people that had held me back
I was laid up in the ER way way down bad

Sanfran Nites (jabarionthebeat x vvsmelody)

prod. 5v & shinju

shoutout shinju his serum bank is fire

lyrics upload pending....

will > way   ok!   (prod. 5v)

somewhere safe ft. mint + nosgov

limelight ft. sebii「cozin + senses」

addicted! [prod. warheart]

I've got the time, I could take yours

all spells will be broken
spellbreaker coming soon

#spellbreaker
#liferuinerEP

Written & Performed By teddybear
Produced, Mixed & Mastered By bleachh (@ih8bleachh)
Recorded at BLUEROOM
Artwork By Zac Lazar

@tddybrr
@ih8bleachh

Lyrics:

I still like the radio sometimes
To end a train of thinking
I take a drive at 5 am 
To steer away from sleep

I still like to call you up
And say hi in the way I used to
To see if I notice
A growing indifference in you 

Dismissal 
Expected
A missile
It’s seeking
Directed
I run to
The thistles
I see it
A field in
The distance
To bleed in
To feel this
I need this 

Every time I can take more
It just feels right
I’ve got the time we could make yours
And I could make some more tomorrow
It’s not fine can’t you see it’s forced 
Everything is temporary
But I’m set here
for the worst

Approval
I test it
Eternal
Regression
Its looping back
Assurance
What is that
I’m up to 
my kneecaps
I call out
To break the spell

Every time I can take more
It just feels nice
I’ve got the time I could take yours
And I could take some more tomorrow

LIFERUINER EP

LIFERUINER

LIFERUINER (PROD. BLEACHH)

@neohnq @yashio20k
Lyrics :

i give u my all u say it’s not enough 
heart wounded up
girl u left your mark
i guess i’ll give u back ur heart
but i js wanna talk
1 last time grl u left me in the darkk

no more said
ghosts and demons in my head
wake up & im thinking abt death
still in my head
dreams of your silhouette 
dying alone instead 

dreams of u & me
u bring me down,, with u 
down (i got nothing to losee)
its js uu
tell me is this what i get
i hope it’s all in my head

SPOTIFY

dreams of your silhouette (neohn & yashio)

____lyrics____
Honestly, im wishing you would talk to me
When it's hard to speak, you always know what i mean
Pray as i descend, don't know if i can mend
Break till i bend, just tell me it's alright
It's coming to an end, it's not making any sense
I don't have any defense, how much i can take

I don't even know why it's so easy to wait
Every moment pass me by im always coming late
Every tear that I cry you can count it on my face
I don’t wanna waste away but i’m too afraid to change
Just tell me it's okay
I don’t wanna wait this time
Let all of the hate combine
Until it makes something that I cannot face
This life is not mine i’ve
Been walking on a line why
I don’t wanna fight tonight
I think I might
Slide back I left it all open
I’ve been tryna fight back looking for my purpose
I keep going right back yeah its a nightmare
I said I really hate that yeah but it's not fair

Honestly, im wishing you would talk to me
When it's hard to speak, you always know what i mean
Pray as i descend, don't know if i can mend
Break till i bend, just tell me it's alright
It's coming to an end, it's not making any sense
I don't have any defense, I don't know how much i can take

talk to me

ceres +8485 (kimj)

thank u @sumther + @pw4prez <33

dnt think this a comeback
jst needed to cope

@zixdown

i tried to help u out,
u said that we'd be good :(
i tried to take u out
but u misunderstood
ur tellin evry1 lies
cant look u in the eye
i dnt wanna talk again 
until the day that i die...

i guess its my fault
i shouldn't have tried helpin u out </3
what i fall?
then whose gnna come n help me out :(
gave it all up 
all so u can hear me scream n shout
your name
i dnt wnt u to come back
youve been goin insane

insane,, put a bullet in my brain
to stop the pain i gain...
are u gnna keep tellin me
how u hate me again? :(
then blame me again
i did it for u
didnt want it to end <3

i guess its my fault
i shouldn't have tried helpin u out </3
what i fall?
then whose gnna come n help me out :(
gave it all up 
all so u can hear me scream n shout
your name
i dnt wnt u to come back
youve been goin insane

i cant even dream,,
i cant even think
cus u been on my mind
i had way 2many drinks //:

it went exactly how i thought
ughh
i knw u would leave
but i forgot
uhh
i cannot believe that ur gone

n i lost what i had
i lost you, my behalf,,
my arms cut in halves
n i cnt leave u in the past
ur gone now im sad :((
its ur fault,, not my bad
my eyes goin black,,
my hearts cut in halff

i dnt wnn hear frm u 
or hear frm anythin i do
u dnt wanna hear the truth,,
everything im tellin u
i dnt wanna talk 2u
for everything u put me thru
i cant evn dream at night
all i see is me & you

@sumther

always end up in a fight but i cant let you go
ive been searching for my meaning been trying to grow
i want to be by your side
dont care if it isnt right
risk it just to see you smile
youve gotten cold now, tell me why
i feel useless i cant even recognize the signs
im doing everything i could but u dont even try
got no one else ure my only pride
i need you here please dont leave my side

@zixdown

pls jst stay close
i been waiting on ur text
like “how’d your day go?” :(
if u dnt wanna hear from me
u could jst say so…
i think tht ur too good 4me
i feel like @ddayso
to much regrets in my head
i gotta lay low

i regret :( 
& everything u said 
is just spinning in my head //:
it happens once again 
i’m alone once again,,
& i can’t be surprise
this is always how it ends.

spotify

help me out ft. sumther [prod. sochi]

all black everything around me
sitting here in silence
put the cameras down please
be careful people die here
meaning of a short life
try not to avoid
the people
that surround you

im better now
maybe im just gettin out the house
i been getting down
but lately i been tryna make it out
can you hold me down
i just need something to hold on to
i just someone to come home to
make something out of this 

when im by your side
i evaporate
i get butterflies
when i look at ur face
we dont have to lie
dont let it dissipate
promise we’ll be fine
i know that this is fate

i hope we can make this worth
for moments that we had
every day is taken for granted
have you noticed all the things that we have
that we haveeee
i know that u want this to last
and ill always take you back
cherishing every day we have  

all black everything around me
sitting here in silence
put the cameras down please
be careful people die here
meaning of a short life
try not to avoid
the people
that surround you

we could watch the stars from inside the glass castle 
i felt your touch on my hand, then i felt it in my heart
we could do whatever we want to 
only thing that matters is that we’re together 

where u wanna go, i’ll  follow you 
whatever you need i’ll be there for you 
i'm just one text away, i'm just one call away 
i know you don’t feel like yourself, just know its gon b ok,

in the end I know
i’ve been there before 
and I made it out 
baby tell me now 
what you’re waiting for 
i’ll go with you if you want 

we could watch the stars from inside the glass castle 
i felt your touch on my hand, then i felt it in my heart
we could do whatever we want to 
only thing that matters is that we’re together

glass castle 2 +senses (yandere)

Deadmau5 - Brazil

produced by me!

lyrics:

wait one minute
this hotel got a bathroom in it
my heads spinning
made it home but i still hear music

feel so garbage
roll one up put the green stuff in it
smoking on green tea
smoking on spinach

u say that u wanna go
but baby u having a good time
vodka and cherry coke
20 degrees in the night time

tattoos in the ripped jeans
u lookin so fine
if u wanna go lets go
and have some alone time

why did i wait
swear i had it all made
but i dropped it all and she dont even see me in her free time

u didnt call me saturday
there go the plans that we made
i shouldnt care at all but frankly baby ur my only lifeline

what u mean u cant see me anymore
slow it down tell me what u yelling for
say to quit i think i might just roll some more
3 grams to a zig couldnt pack more

wait one minute
this hotel got a bathroom in it
my heads spinning
made it home but i still hear music

feel so garbage
roll one up put the green stuff in it
smoking on green tea
smoking on spinach

song sampled: Benjamin Francis Leftwich - Pictures

after party (prod. 9TAILS)

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Spotify

Tears Of Luv

lyrics: 

you were sitting next to me
with ash blond hair
and its distant but i know the feelings still there
and im sick of fucking filtering
i barely breath air
when its lights out
but i know that the fear is still there
i kept a quarter on the centrepiece for u to destress
3 in the morning and 4 at sunset
u know
everything is make believe inside of your chest
i got pieces i lost i can never get back

swim through the dark and i made it right back
nights on the porch smoking on some blue pack
31st to the 4th i could never change that
cough sounding horse felt my lungs turn black

turn from the door stepping on the fall leaves
everythings forever if u make urself believe
from the bong huolon blowing out a blueberry
every time im too gone it seem ur always calling me

come slow down its alright now
silent sounds baby quiet down
i told u its alright now
shame it broke down u cant hide now

tall green grass i need to lie down
days that stretch on past sundown
off of my chest i cant find out
if what we promised would still apply now

you were sitting next to me
with ash blond hair
and its distant but i know the feelings still there
and im sick of fucking filtering
i barely breath air
when its lights out
but i know that the fear is still there
i kept a quarter on the centrepiece for u to destress
3 in the morning and 4 at sunset
u know
everything is make believe inside of your chest
i got pieces i lost i can never get back

Your 2023 Playback

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