What happens when 2 people, both with Avoidant attachments, crossed hearts?

[Verse 1]   
You said you’d come over on Friday,
I thought we’d just stay in and watch TV.
But somehow we ended up making out.
I got scared,
’cause I knew I was falling for you.
And I swore,
you were falling for me too.

[Pre-Chorus]  
Thought I knew for sure,
when we blurred into each other.
So close, inside one another,
words lost all their meaning.
But I was wrong this time.

[Chorus]  
Did he seem reluctant to leave?
I tell myself — stop overthinking.
Watched him fade at Departures gate,
he’s flying home to his boyfriend.
Is this what love looks like, unbound?
To support, encourage, not limit.
All I know —
knowing hurts less than doubt.

[Verse 2]  
The hardest part is letting go.
Why do I still feel so far,
from someone who once let me in so close?
He was open and honest —
except about us.

[Chorus 2]  
Clarity only comes
when continents drift apart.
You never said you missed me,
never turned to me in sleep.
My mind’s gotta stop spinning these threads.

[Bridge]  
I gave you full access too soon
Then showed you constellations that you never asked for.  
How could I blame you  
when I didn’t manage my own expectations?  
My old habits — please,  
unstick from me.  

[Outro]  
Most people want our light,
but they run from our dark.
You couldn’t hold space for me,
you jumped ship when it got real.

Maybe only old souls stay —
long enough to learn that
Transparency 
isn’t 
Availability.

2025

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