A rare occurence when two avoidants fall into each other’s orbit. The song lives in that quiet tension between wanting to be held and needing to disappear where love stops being safety and starts being a mirror.
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[Verse 1]  
You said you’d come over on Friday,
I thought we’d just stay in and watch TV.
But somehow we ended up making out.
I got scared,
’cause I knew I was falling for you.
And I swore,
you were falling for me too.

[Pre-Chorus]
Thought I knew for sure,
when we blurred into each other.
So close, inside one another,
words lost all their meaning.
But I was wrong this time.

[Chorus]
Did he seem reluctant to leave?
I tell myself — stop overthinking.
Watched him fade at Departures gate,
he’s flying home to his boyfriend.
Is this what love looks like, unbound?
To support, encourage, not limit.
All I know —
knowing hurts less than doubt.

[Verse 2]
The hardest part is letting go.
Why do I still feel so far,
from someone who once let me in so close?
He was open and honest —
except about us.

[Chorus 2]
Clarity only comes
when continents drift apart.
You never said you missed me,
never turned to me in sleep.
My mind’s gotta stop spinning these threads.

[Bridge]
I gave you full access too soon
Then showed you constellations that you never asked for.
How could I blame you
when I didn’t manage my own expectations?
My old habits — please,
unstick from me.

[Outro]
Most people want our light,
but they run from our dark.
You couldn’t hold space for me,
you jumped ship when it got real.

Maybe only old souls stay —
long enough to learn that
Transparency
isn’t Availability.

(Remastered) onlytomas - Except About Us

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(Remastered) onlytomas - Except About Us

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