Just a love song to my family. 

LYRICS*
*Probably incorrect... Oh well. You can hear. 

Check my vital signs 
Looks like I’m still alive. 
Looks like I’m doing fine from the outside
But I’d lying if I said it’s all going swimmingly and I am done lying. 
Love looks like another dead line.
But that’s fine I’m sick of watching all of my flames die. 
I’ve perfected a way of smothering me 
Let go of all the bad energy with this cutting technique 
that’s fine ain’t it? 
I’m in the sweet spot for reflecting, creating. 
Isn’t it such a pretty picture that I’ve been painting?
My mother thinks that I’m going crazy from all the drugs that I’ve been taking. 
She’s got a point I guess. I can’t confess that I’ve been doing too good, 
man my head’s a mess. 
With very little progress but it’s alright I guess since this world is just a stop on our quest. 

To the father, the son and the Holy Ghost. 
Where were you when I needed you most ?
To the father, the son and the Holy Ghost. 
Where are you? Cause I’m losing hope. 

The rotten apple of the family tree. 
Oh boy I guess that must be.
Cause  I’ve absorbed all your shit that’s surrounded me. 
So bite deeply. Soon you’ll see what I mean 
Learn to be just like me. 
El Pollo Loco! I’m bat shit crazy. 
You want to be part of the family tree 
Them grab me, scream and attack me 
That’s how we function: dysfunctionally. 
Repeat after me. 
This year of reflection made me see
It’s not just me it’s my entire family that’s insane.
Cover up affection with aggression. 
Never mention all the hurtful things we said the night before the next day. 
And you wonder why I’m going insane? 
Your forked words are still in my thoughts and it hurts 
My little sister’s sat in my dad’s blood stains. 

To the father the son and the Holy Ghost. 
Where were you when I needed you most? 
So my father, it’s your son, I’m the Holy Ghost. 
And I’m losing hope. 
You’re wrapping this rope round my throat.

Demo EP XIX

Holy Water Ought To Sort Ya

This is a track about basically being a waste man.

Drugs & Lies

This track is about the endless cycle of having depression and an addictive personality. 
You hit a low. Climb back out. Peak. Drop to the bottom again and repeat. 
It never seems to end but you just have to learn to manage it and understand it. 
If you do that kind of thing then please always give yourself the time to climb back up again, you're not alone and know that the darkest days aren't forever. 
It's tough and it may always be this repeating cycle but there are positives from it if you look for them: 
You can be creative and reflective
You learn about your weaknesses
You become stronger each time
The good days are even better when you get to them
You probably struggle because you care or are aware of things more than other people
You can help others when they drop too by using your experience

Don't let the dark days win. Just ride the wave with them and climb again no matter how many times you slip up. 

LT

SadswimmerS

Slip Again

Made a start on new thing today, got some rough ideas to throw out there

New track rough ideas

Sup chickins and chickouts. 

Sorry I've been quite. My asshole friend put her boney ass knee through my Mac and it is now deceased. So I had a few months saving for a new computer and no real way of working on tunes for all 3 or 4 of you who listen to my depressing emo mating calls. 
 
Nowhere near finished with any of these ideas but I thought I'd post what I've been working on so far this year just to see if anybody has feedback, hates something, loves something and hopefully it'll help me pick out which songs I want to prioritise finishing and which are a wet bag of dog shit or something along those kind of lines. 

LT - MMXXI

Hit List (verse)

Heart Shaped Spaces

All I've Ever Known

Shines

Daylight Again

Metal Track 1 Mastered

Just writing what I’m feeling. 
Totally no clue where I’m heading. 

Simply creating. 

It’s all kinda sad...

L⚡️T

@troublesoftenant

Slip Again

TenanT