prod by @madejinx

lyrics:

@peiflowy
I be falling through the ice,
I just wanna make this right,
My heart is a sacrifice,
Watch the angels in the sky,
Your so deluded, I'm fuming,
You said that your heart hurts,
Thats human..
Scars on our heart,
We've been bruising,
Things are better,
not losing..
I wanna leave now!
uhh what do i say now?
Yeah listen to words that I'm saying,
Walking through doors that be rainin,
oh...
thought i could do better than this,
oh...
thought they would never treat me like this..

@flojy
i dont have no hope
ye u know i tried my best
echoing in my soul
nah not again
our hearts r cold
i dont wanna leave u right away
give me one more call
give one more ca- (ig)
i have to move on
ignoring all these days
every time i pick up my phone
it hurts again
can we stop doing that shit
do u rly want to see me
suffering?
enough of this
im not rly up to it

ice - pei flowy + flojy (madejinx)

@wintress13 :O

i cant write back, not this time
its all a mess that i cant make right
im sorry for the stress of these times
im doing my best to make it right

but you still told me that
it couldnt get more bad
it gets harder to act
to keep this life that we still have

i saw us falling down
and the walls they're forcing me out
as the tide washes over our town
i pray to save us from our doubt

i saw your eyes going dark as the sun starts to set
are we all doomed to fall to this?
when its all said and done
we don’t have anywhere else to run
i’ll take everything we’ve done
to my memory of us

i cant write back, not this time
its all a mess that i cant make right
im sorry for the stress of these times
im doing my best to make it right

but you still told me that
it couldnt get more bad
it gets harder to act
to keep this life that we still have

i saw us falling down
and the walls they're forcing me out
as the tide washes over our town
i pray to save us from our doubt

amphoreus

amphoreus (wintress + xternalz)

prod @okmax

@haunted_sad
im a winner not a loser what u fuckin did
left me in the past yeah ill damn admit
yeah ur love in my brain was like poison 
im tryingtillidie but i think its #pointless
gun to my head wish i cld forget it all
all the times baby that u fkn did me wrong
think im ##hollow2thecore and all the words u said
put a bullet thru my head im wishin i was dead

yeah all the words tht u said to me
ringing in my head like a neverending melody 
im hollow2thecore like a ##shinigami baby
pop a pill when i crash so i jus frget u


@6cainhearts
and i saw them
seeds of my despair
takin root cz ur not there
guess u dnt care ..
so take care
lets forget abt tht time on ur rooftop
and its my bad
i shld js go
meant 2 b apart, we're not on the same road
it js never showed
i had enough of my heart
whippin out the SiG Sauer
lets try again
get a different start

@haunted_sad
i jus wanted love yeah that shit ill admit
u hurt my heart bby left me feelin low like shit
inhaling smoke in my lungs i think immaquit
i jus wanna try i jus wanna die.
without u bby by my side
i be cryin in my head another night
i jus want tht ##payback I WANNA TRY
lookin back 2 u when i could call u mine

u left me hollow baby to the core
see if i cared abt u anymore
i be low lately like evrynight
EVERYDAY I WANTED TO DIE

imhollow2thecore w/cainhearts (okmax + hazel)

aku xleh lepaskan
baby u my sun
baby tell my why u always on my mind
nape u biar aku last seen online
come and take my heart
you'll just throw it to me
left by broken promises is all i can see
girl u know the futures meant for u and me
don't u know that it just turns to energy
thats all that it means

what does it mean to you
is it a reminder to
what happens at the end
i think i lost it again

again again again
i take it that we're no more as friends
can't turn back time save this feeling inside
save this feeling inside

lepaskan prod.me

prod by @0shimamura

lyrics:

@peiflowy
This shit is feeling strange
I'm feeling hella pain
I'm calling out your name
Gotchu you stuck in my brain
Looking at your face
My eyes hit the floor
I think I'm giving hints
Pretty sure that you know
Think I loved you from the start
Gave you everything in my heart
Swear that I played my part
Hope that we go far

@trustohm
Now I'm lost in the dark
feelin' cold in my heart
you was there at the start
but you tearin' apart
Now I'm chillin' alone
staring down at my phone
hopin’ you hit my tone
but you left, now you gone

I was real, I was true
gave my time all to you
now I don’t know what to do
got me stuck in the blue

@haunted_sad
Yeah, yeahh 
I didn't know like what to do
Living in the past, all these #memoriesofu
Crystalized in my heart you just really gleamed
Remembein the past baby, it still haunts me
Yeah, baby, always knew I was the issue
You left me hollow to the core, yeah, I don't miss u
I can't remember the days where i felt alright
Loopin back in my head I think I wna die

gone - pei flowy + trustohm + haunted_sad (shimamura)

most recent clips!

this has been a hard month for me. thank you to all my amazing friends (some of whom are in these clips!) who have supported me and pushed me to go further. i love you all

if you want to use any of these, dm me!!

0:00 — date (sample from kimi no na wa) +@r1yy
1:14 — our sky +@rewind214
2:06 — flora +@jihyo39
3:20 — +@miriyami
4:08 — flutter +@jihyo39
5:05 — july 4th +@moz-103259352

##july25 (+riy +rewind +jihyo +miriyami +moz)

@takuoriswagga 
@negativecreeper

i guess u right im not wht u need
im not worth ur time, guess i gotta leave
n all of these pics ig ill delete
when i said its fine i lied thru my teeth
when i said its fine inside i was dyin
u let us die while i was still tryin
i spend every night cryin
dunno how im still surviving

oh damn the girl inside my dreams rlly threw me away
treat me like im nothing, either way ill still stay
im fucking stupid
nthn else but useless
how cud i b so foolish
why wud i ever do this

i cant move on, move on from u
u do me wrong, but id still come thru
even if u gave me up id give u my all
if theres anything u need jus gimme a call

ye ur always right im alwys wrong
we always fight cnt get along
i still wanted us to be 2gthr
it didnt have to be 4ever
but ig it doesnt even matter
since we r done now
where do i run now?

(got these thoughts in my brain
can u stop with these games
i might be going insane
this aint love this is pain
i should push u away
we both know that i cant
guess im stuck in my ways
ill pretend that its okay)

useless [+ takuori, negative.creeper]

Instrumental by the man, the myth, the legendary topping, 'Mozartrella'
@moz-103259352

[I don’t wanna go to sleep
You’re not by my side
You’re all I see
When I close my eyes]

I died the day that you left me
Closed my eyes, was never resurrected
I honestly thought that this would never even happen
But I thought wrong, I wish we could’ve circumvented

I lied the day that you left me
Said I’m fine, I wasn’t and I can’t be
I honestly hoped that we could’ve reconnected
But that’s in my mind, I do not expect it

I think of it many times
I’ve been losing myself
It’s just a wall that I can’t climb
I’m not doing too well
I lie awake like every night
And I said I’d give ‘em hell
But I’m steady stuck inside

Yeah, I lied
Through my teeth
Yeah, I’m not fine
When I sleep and my eyes close
Again, you stand right there
The same place and the same air
Again, you tell me you don’t care
And all I did was stop and stare

[I just wanna go and scream, but I’m too tongue-tied
Do I love or hate you? I can’t decide
And I’m honestly just coping, I just tell myself these lies
I was hoping we could just coincide]

the day that u left me (moz)

Thanka Anka for the amazing Beanka 
@lintukoto 
@r1yy

Baby you lied
You lied to my face
You lied to me all the time
I thought that you changed
But baby you never tried

Baby you lie
All the time
'till my head starts spinning
My mind and my body
They can't deal with this
I find it kind of funny how much my heart is still missing
-you, but you don't care
Who the fuck am I kidding?

Who the fuck am I kidding?
I sit in this boat all alone
And it's sinking
I can feel the weight of the ocean thicken
Everytime I speak
It's like nobody listens

I wanted to die
And I wanted it fast
Look at my life
Baby it's just a mess
You're the one I turned to whenever I'm upset
I just need some rest (baby I can't catch a breath)

baby you lied (anka + riy)

~lift my bangs~
@lintukoto

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4J4VN0ylZ8qFEuSrmgn2MZ?si=RSyCsQYsQYanhdB5CfxGlw

heyhihihi what's up ty for all of the love recently it's been really motivating.. (..kind of overwhelming too but in a good way) so let's all have a good upcoming autumn ૮ • ﻌ - ა

♡♡
would u tell me that u love me even if i'm kind of awkward?
it's so hard to say goodbye i don't wanna make this hurt that bad

u say i care too much?
well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

u 
like u never realized 
my true feelings
ig that's not ur fault cos

i'm just so terrified
scared of that look in ur eyes
promise me that you'll be alright
still.. i'm hoping to rely on the lies

so you sweep my bangs
& touch my forehead
cos i'm feeling kind of hot

so i rest my head
in both my, my palms
and admire from afar
admire from afar

it's so frustrating that u 
never just never just never just notice

but i'm too scared to say .. so
i'll just stay like this until u come home 

I've been in bed all day
overthinking every word i say
i'm sry, u just can't relate
just wna sit outside w/ the rain

u say i care too much
..well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

you called it bittersweet
there's no need for talk like that
just say it how it is
it'll hurt but i like it like that

u say i care too much
..well obv it wasn't enough
hoping u don't call my bluff
fuck it don't add no fluff 

so you sweep my bangs
& touch my forehead
cos i'm feeling kind of hot

so i rest my head
in both my, my palms
and admire from afar
admire from afar

it's so frustrating that u 
never just never just never just notice

but i'm too scared to say .. so
i'll just stay like this until u come home 
linktr.ee/elixioo

lift my bangs (anka)

this song was the first time i used my high pitch and damn it wrecked my throat 😭 
so yeah i ain’t singing like this again NO WAY!!!

feat by @1xene
prod by @0shimamura

Lyrics:

@trustohm
Stay, don’t go
Rain runs slow
Tears still fall
I lose it all

Cold, I wait
Dark, I break
Call your name
Not the same
2x

I don't know what you want
But I can do it for you
I want you to come back
If you hear me, I love you
love you, love you, love you

You left me alone
I don't know why
Why you hurt me
I don't know why
I'm sorry
I'm really sorry
But you go 

@1xene
Yeah the stars align, and you still don't care
You play these games, it's so unfair
Like, what do you wan't?
Do you want me to rot?
Do you want me to cry?
Do you want me to die?

It's hard to maintain things we wanna leave in the past
It can't remain, as the love we once used to have
Things are changing, I no longer reach for your hand
But I still think about the things that you said
Tell me, baby, if I'm overstepping
Tell me, baby, if I'm ever overreacting
All I ever got from you, were lessons
Tried my best
But I still fucked up

stay w/ xene (prod. shimamura)

trustohm