guitar by @hiraethsry

// chorus (geist)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake

// verse (geist)
and it’s cold tonight
won’t you hold me underneath
and stare with your golden eyes
tell me what you see
cause i’ve, lost my light
somewhere in the seams
oh is it over i,
cant seem to believe

// chorus (geist & envy)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake
now the skies gray
rainclouds follow me right off the highway
you said that we're fine well why the sad face
oh love just spare a smile can’t take the heartbreak
the heartbreak

// verse (envy)
you promised me that you would fucking call again
it's always something i never did or said
my breath is finally leaving this is how it ends
cause i just keep competing with myself
my mind is empty and i'm losing control
the thoughts they come and they go
i'm fighting ghosts yeah i know
i'm fucking comatose
oh you said it yourself
i'm always somebody else
i'm only poor mental health
let's fucking call this hell

and i can't even change myself the more that i get used too
the thought of you not being here i question do i miss you
and all this fucking time i wasted, oh i wish that i knew
everything single day i'm holding on, oh what did i do

// chorus (geist & envy)
what a bad day,
constant overthinking i’m not okay
don’t know what you want love is it headspace
cause lately I’ve been feeling like a mistake
now the skies gray
rainclouds follow me right off the highway
you said that we're fine well why the sad face
oh love just spare a smile can’t take the heartbreak
the heartbreak

Spotify

rainclouds w/ notenvy

Flipped Switches (ft. CARTERTOMORROW) prod. Ushankaboy

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

i hope i don't slip.

Intro
"𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘥.
𝘏𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘴, 𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧𝘧!
𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵, 𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘢𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘥!
𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘕𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘙!"

lyrics...
Lately I’ve been having trouble waking up
Tryna work on my life man this shit is dangerous 
Gaslighting myself “yeah that’s just life to everyone”
Think I’m getting better maybe not surly can’t say for sure
And ironically I’m fucking tired of it
Patience is my biggest burden I can’t rely on it
This future shit is tough it’s got my weary eyes falling
I need a pick me up I can’t finish a single fucking thing I put my mind to
Right now I don’t even have someone to lie to
egos crumbling not even my façade is prideful
In the morning I can’t help but feel this fucking time loop
Is the work of an invisible being a hateful Kaiju
I need something to blame ill just be mad at the world
Wielding undesirableness undermining my worth
Just to hide from my emotions never learn how to grow
But shit I got all of this time I just turned eighteen years old 

Tryna kick my bad habits 
Cause honestly man I’ve had it
I fucked up trying to fix up my life
Just to cause it more damage
By overworking my practice
And stress induced by my standards
It was my selfish endeavors 
That were just to much to handle 
I’ve learned a lot from the background
The word of mouth when you’re silent
Peaks through the speakers the loudest
And pierces ears oh so violent
Too many things and components
I never understood about people
And by the time that its crucial 
They’re already gone from the moment

I’m always out of time
And it’s always shit I should have said I'd always write
And that’s always the area that I’ll fucking never like
And it’s always working always tryna chase a better life
And it’s always shitty but I promise that we’ll be alright
And if you don’t relate then I hope that you never might
Ever try and continue to live like you might never die
Its always “you wouldn’t understand” well you fucking got me there
But I'm only eighteen right why the fuck would I care

Hateful Kaiju (prod. falak)

Panic control (prod. sorrow bringer)

Money's Harmony

I wake up to the crash of my snare,
Fingers torn but I still don’t care.
Every beat’s a wound I can’t erase,
Chasing ghosts in the drummer’s race.

Sold my sleep for a flawless time,
My blood keeps marking every line.

Tempo, tempo, faster, more,
Bleed the beat into my core.
I can’t stop, I can’t escape,
Love and pain in perfect shape.

Teacher’s eyes cut sharp as steel,
Silence screams, and the pain feels real.
Every measure’s a war I fight,
For one pure note in the dying light.

Traded love for the crash and roar,
Lost my soul, but I want more.

Tempo, tempo, faster, more,
Bleed the beat into my core.
I can’t stop, I can’t escape,
Love and pain in perfect shape.

The lights are blind, the crowd’s long gone,
But the beat still drags me on and on.
If this is life, then let me sign,
My pulse, my pain, my final line.

The tempo’s louder than my mind,
In my cage of sound, I’m confined.

Tempo, tempo, faster, more, 
Bleed the beat into my core.
I can’t stop, I can’t escape,
Love and pain in perfect shape.

Tempo blood

Ma Adri Laish — Kuwaiti Cello Trap Soul (Emo Indie Rock)

I don’t know why…
but every time I hear that cello, I feel something.
It’s not loud — it’s deep, heavy, and real.
This isn’t just trap.
It’s Kuwaiti soul drowned in distortion.
Ma Adri Laish — dark, emotional, and honest.
#MaAdriLaish #CelloTrapSoul #EmoIndieRock #KuwaitiVibes #KATSLAY

Lyrics:

(Kuwaiti Dialect × Makassar Arabic × Indie Rock)

[Intro]
Ma adri laish,
kil ma asma3 sootik, qalbi yghair.
Ana mo min el nas elli y7ibboon,
bass feek shay ykhalli el ʿaql ygoom.


---

[Verse 1]
3yoonik yid7ikoon, bass ma yitgalloon,
ya3ni shlon afham el ma3na feek?
Ana cool, ana chill,
bass ma3ach, a9eer insane.
You talk easy, smile lazy,
ana dayman asheel el blame.


---

[Chorus]
Ma adri laish,
I keep thinkin’ of you.
Mo 3ada, mo game,
bas fee shay yjarrni elik.
Ma adri laish,
you feel like danger w salam.
Kelma mennik,
tghayyer el donya fi thamaniya kalimat.


---

[Verse 2]
Tadreen, ana mo min elli y9adgoon,
bass entay 5alaiteeni a3eesh el mawthoo3.
Ana dayman ʿaql, bass ma3ach 9irt 7iss,
madri laish el hawa ykoon ketha ghareeb.


---

[Bridge]
A7ib el tariqa elli titkallemeen feeha,
half Arabic, half dream.
W ana ma adri,
bas el donya ma3ach ykoon laha tone.


---

[Outro]
Ma adri laish,
bass enti el mawdoo3.
Ana mo lover,
bass enti el sabab el ykhalli el galb ysoot.

Ma Adri Laish (ما أدري ليش)

RiverKinn
"Descent"
Produced by RiverKinn

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It was over in a moment
When I thought we had it all
And I don't know where to go now
You were there to watch me fall
And my descent was complimented
By the thought of you and me
And all the pain I can't prevent
You won't believe the things I've seen

Did it mean nothing?
Did it mean nothing to you?
Did it mean nothing?
Did it mean nothing to you?

It was over in a moment
When I thought we had it all
And I don't know where to go now
You were there to watch me fall
And my descent was complimented
By the thought of you and me
And all the pain I can't prevent
You won't believe the things I've seen

Did it mean nothing?
Did it mean nothing to you?
Did it mean nothing?
Did it mean nothing to you?

It was over in a moment
When I thought we had it all
And I don't know where to go now
You were there to watch me fall
And my descent was complimented
By the thought of you and me
And all the pain I can't prevent
You won't believe the things I've seen
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@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXIX

Descent

@boyfifty

I never thought I wouldn’t see your face again
I think about it every day, it never ends
I know our only powers growing from within
But I’m stuck in every moment that it could have been

So I navigate through broken doors
Never finding place no more, 
Feel my body swollen sore
Happiness, I do implore

Hurting myself all the time
Hard to write a single rhyme
I hope we’ll be fine

If I knew that you were fighting for your life
I woulda been there every second, every night
Every single time I close my eyes
I know that somewhere else you’re still alive, that you’re still alive

But you’re not here
I dread that I can’t hold you near
Crazy how moments can disappear
Losing them now is my greatest fear

So many places I thought you’d be
None of them now, they’re all so empty
Say that it all leads to our destiny
But why the necessity

If I knew that you were fighting for your life
I woulda been there every second, every night
Every single time I close my eyes
I know that somewhere else you’re still alive, that you’re still alive

Every night, I pray in my mind, that you’re still alive, you’re still alive
Tears in my eyes, reveal the inside, I need you alive, I need you alive

youtube

somewhere else (prod. boyfifty)

produced by @metlast


broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that it's true
you say you want me i want you too
[x2]

baby come with me just take my hand
i can tell you really wanna dance
if only you could give me one more chance
cause you're the only one that understands me

as long as i have you i don't need no plan b
tell you i want you and you say that you want me
hold you so close when i'm feeling lonely
you're so sweet baby you remind me of candy

so sweet, you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down
[x2]

you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down
so sweet

broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that it's true
you say you want me i want you too
[x2]

somewhere else (prod. boyfifty)

two:22