vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

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production practice #1

NEON MOONLIGHT (feat. ALIJA)

So I been having these lyrics for a bit, and I reworked them so many times, tried everything and I envision a sound, a sound I knew I couldn't make, or sing, because I'm not the best singer, nor did I have the style in which the song needed to be. So I set out, and came across some AI tools that allowed me to make the song how I always wanted, the first attempt was short and I needed more so I ventured out till I found something that was spot on which you hear now. I just took all three songs edited them together, did the screams you heard in parts and a little bit of my voice in the start of the song. I hope you all enjoy this, as much as I do. 

Mental Telepathy   

Dream today

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

My body is sinking into the water
Deeper than ever, yet no one bothers
Drowning myself, I pray for the slaughter
Hate in my heart, my love sent in martyr

It makes me wanna die
When you talk to other guys
Feel the knife sticking inside
Kill me now, I can’t survive

No I don’t think I’ll survive
Without my light at night
Now my chest pulling so tight
Need you here to say goodnight

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

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collapsing (prod. martensite)

@avageaspandungique

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

The creation of a star
No one sees from the start
An explosion from afar
Hard to see what’s in your heart

Imagine what we’ll see
Another reality
With their personalities
Switched showing who they’ll be

I think I lost my mind
Somewhere no one can find
We’re all one of a kind
Some brighter with their shine

She’ll never love what I want her to
Her stare goes through away to you

Guide me on my way
Seeking out a happy day
Forever floating away
In my life, no one will stay

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

And I feel the cold girl I’m frostbit
I can feel the flow of your soul from your soft lips 
And maybe me and you could be us 
Lately you ain’t really even there like a beat cut 
And I can see the visions in me dreams of a love that I been missing I been wishin' you to be 
Cut myself to ribbons you can see
Hard to keep myself together when splitting at the seams
Getting tougher as the years pass 
Bullet for my valentine I can feel your tears crash 
And I know that you can feel that 
Maybe we can make it to the point where you can heal back 
Put me back together like you namine 
Memories fading from my mind into the common space 
And I just hate this place 
I just want to die and escape this fate 
I need my mind erased 
I’ll give you the stars never mind some space 
Am I replaced 
A sea of damned, a tidal wave

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

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tidal wave - ft. savagegasp (prod. yondo)

take care of yourselves

You leave marks on your porcelain skin 
Down a few bottles numbing the state you’re in
You say is this how its always been? 
Replying back “you cannot let your mind win” 

I gotta say 
Its emotionally exhausting 
day in day out
I’m canvasing the green 
Show me the blue dream 
 cant get it out my head
I’d be better off dead 

Show me what you mean
Get me out this dream 
I'm constantly crying
Over your faults stop lying

I won’t say I miss you
Cause we're always fighting
My heart beats out my chest 
It skips fast like lightning 

And I 
Wouldn’t have it any other way

Since we lost meaning
I’ve been oversleeping
Lost track of my dreams since they turned to nightmares 

You were the best the world has known
The lights of are on but no one's home 
I feel it in my skin and bones
In my skin and bones

Just know I meant it 
the moment I said it
Tormenting my head
I should be in your bed 

I thought I would love this life
Different city every night
I miss you by my side 
cause love like this is hard to find

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porcelain [prod. irby & brody]

for granted

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

they tell me that I'm just a mess,
and I'm so depressed, yah I get it..
yah i get it..

she love me til my heart cant beat no more,
and I don't get it.. I don't get it..

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

brat (prod. rohff)

Nightmares and Daydreams produced by Matthew May!

Hope y'all enjoy :)

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Cover Art By: https://soundcloud.com/whosmerci

Thanks to everyone involved, new music soon!

Lyrics:

It's a new dawn baby
I'm a new man lately
Yeah pressure so strong it could crush my spine
As the lights dim down these thoughts unwind
I'm a little lost now but I'll be just fine
As I freeze I feel so alive
Don't make me scream as I fall behind
Those eyes seem to burn right through
Those cuts may bleed but they're not that deep
It's okay it's just a flesh wound

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

My time has come to pass
This life kinda feels like ass

The weather here is so harmless but I feel a storm begin to brew
I'm waiting here in this garden hope the rain brings me back to you
The song of the night's supposed to numb the pain
But nothing seems to help with these migraines
I finally get to bed but it doesn't feel true
All I dream about is you

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

THAT NIGHT ON THE COAST YOU HELD ME CLOSE AND WHISPERED IN MY EAR
SAID YOU LOVED ME THE MOST AND EVERYBODY KNOWS BUT YOU THINK I'M INSINCERE 
YOU KNOW I CARE I REALLY DO
WANNA SPEND TIME JUST ME AND YOU
WE WERE JUST DUMB KIDS DIDN'T HAVE A CLUE
WHAT WE MEANT BY I LOVE YOU

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

tidal wave - ft. savagegasp (prod. yondo)

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