hospital beds pt.I pt.II - Ethel Cain

This is an older one, either white silas era or early ethel era

Ethel Cain - Varnish

Ethel Cain - Scarlett Letter

Ethel Cain - Dog Days (Alt ver.)

ethel cain - death rattle

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth
And the earth was formless and void, and darkness hung over the surface of the deep
And the spirit of God hovered over the waters

And God said let there be light but no light came
And as we hung there in the darkness, I told you
Do not be afraid

And you asked me if God would protect us
No
But I will

God doesn't love you
Not like I do

And then the darknеss caught fire and we both went up in flamеs

White Silas ~ Arsony

ethel cain - great wide nowhere

Played during an Instagram live stream on November 8, 2021. I tried to polish it a bit to make it somewhat listenable and failed spectacularly. Anyway, here it is.

All music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - There's Something Wrong With Me / But He Doesn't Know It Yet (Full - LQ)

prepare to meet thy god
for he regrets giving you up
you have evaded her thus far
for 20 long years
but she has put the poison in your cup
your mother cries for you
she lies awake at night in tears
your father left a week right after you did
he still doesn’t know why you disappeared
i ran away into the woods to find you
and in the mouths of vultures I
found where you had been
i ran into the woods to find
a man who never loved me
and I came out a woman born again
i found you in the mouth of vultures
and I found you in the grip of cain
a found you in the mouth of vultures
and I found you in the grip of cain

vultures | ethel cain

(i think this was made under ethel cain but idk)

six weeks we’ve been taught
six weeks the phone’s been ringing 
and now the sheriff’s at the door
at two weeks my insides screamed
i was coughing up blood by three
by four my father couldn’t take it 
and hung himself in the yard from the oak tree
my mother said be patient
it’s what god said to her
get down on your knees and pray with me 
you won’t get blessings you don’t deserve
see how long 
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
the bedsheets stained with my sister’s waste
my brother’s eyes crusted shut
the dogs stopped crying weeks ago
with my hands digging deep inside their guts
i ache all over
i can’t get clean
my bones start to bend inside of me 
but god forbid i question what he asks me to do
i just hope he gets here soon
see how long 
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
i hold my mother she won’t hold me back
they cut down my father and his broken neck
they found the baby in a dirty cloth upstairs
while my brother and my sister just rot 
one takes me in his arms and then he runs outside
but they are too late now, i’m already in the light
i’m the only one jesus comes to take
as he takes my hand and i waste away

Ethel Cain - There's Something Wrong With Me / But He Doesn't Know It Yet (Full - LQ)

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