[fall 2024]

prod @yumenikki

i could never do wrong
didnt think id really fuck up
i would never get lost
lay awake till the suns up
i was falling out of love
didnt really mean to hurt you
but you took so much
watched my wings slowly turn black

i will never get my soul back
now im walking down the wrong path
i lost friends i wont get back
i lost friends i wont get back
i wish i could just forget you
i wish i could take it all back
now im ruined cuz i let you
all my fault, yea i know that

i just get left on read
make me feel lesser than
fake life i play pretend
fake thoughts inside my head
i like to cut myself
try to get lost again
i dont need any help
rock bottom is in my bed

rock bottom is nodding off
so hard i lose my breath
unconscious almost dead
wake up and see your face
youll look so terrified
ill feel so dead inside
pinpoint dots in my eyes
but ill still want to be high

pinpoint eyes prod. dollmaker

cant make this right (lb66 + skoolio)

prod me, written in spring 2025.

LYRICS:
i dont work alone  
wont it just fall apart like it always did
always six deep everywhere i fuckin go
know i said im sorry im not sorry when i split

gotta try so fkin hard to exist  
i was poppin pharma shit i couldnt resist
i cant really swim without you in the fkin mix
tired of opiates tired of waking up sick

really tired of that really sick of this
i cannot go back, i just really miss 
want it so bad, want it like a fix
feel like this forever, i need always bliss

want it to be over i want it to end
i dont wanna write i just wanna go to bed
really really try but i cant make us connect
laying in the dark reminiscing in my head

six deep

prod @lilac

lyrics:

in the fog i can’t see where i’m going
i’ll follow you baby even if it’s pouring
told em “catch up” we flew off in foreigns
a lucky life but i think that it’s boring
i don’t need money when i’m rotting in my bed
i burnt all my bridges just to get a little rest
wake up everyday just to go right back to bed
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
everyday i do nothing 
so i go back to sleep to end the suffering 
frozen in time my bodys frosted
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

guided by the blind
broken clocks won’t tell the time
out of sight it’s out of mind
all the times you crossed the line

love me love me
i know this is wonderland but things are getting ugly
bloody bloody
this is do or die baby i hope you can trust me
trust me i wanna get off it
severed arms i can’t stop it
sit in my room and watch the clock tick
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?
walking on stilts as we blossom
why did you make me your monster?
rotting heart in a coffin
can’t you tell i’m exhausted?

exhausted (lilac)

produced by Dawid, Artysta @goatlaurent
featuring Nosgov @820

this song is a dream come true for me :)

still fucked up, i can’t get enough of it
i misjudged and i can hardly stomach it
i leak blood
i wonder where the life will drip
i cough blood, searching for the relevance
don’t ask me why
because i barely understand my own name
you’re searching wide
damn i wonder how you tuned out the stains
i get by, getting too close to the flame
you feel alive?
wish that i feel the same
and the bow represents it
it’s a living-room
screaming, cant stop, wont stop
it’s the living truth
if you were me
and you were you
you would kill me too
if i wasn’t me, this shit is just living proof

still here (feat. Nosgov) +Dawid, Artysta

prod me:)
ft @creepybuggirl

inssekt:
let me sleep here for a while
let me chase my dreams
promise that i'll smile
whenever you see me
cus i would give it all up
just for your love
needing your light
crying alone
testing my love
do you want me or not??
crying alone
crying out for your love

creepybuggirl:
my vision went black
i was hiding in the back
cus i thought i heard your voice and i couldn’t face it
but that’s never been the point
what it really is, the avoidance of goodbye
i don’t wna know what the last time is
so don’t tell me, don’t take a breath
i’ll be holding out, all the words unsaid
all the messages i’ll end up leaving unread
cus i get scaredd like i wanna forget
you don’t understand the way you fill me up with dreadd
i pour it out cus i try to be my best
then you wna crawl back like why do you do that

i won’t be going out ill be staying in
take the other street so I don’t pass where you live
i’ll never check the time ill let everything go by
until i wake up
revived by the new sun
feel it for the moment
savor it and hold it
cus when the night comes it’ll all be gone


crying alone +creepybuggirl

vialit-
i know im not the one
u chose another thats alright
not a secnd spent with u i consider wasted time
how u feel abt me
u cn change ur mind
but i hope u know right now that i am dying
forgive me
right now im just trying to forget u
how cld i forget u
how cld i jus pretend like u dont exist when ur perfect for me?
if i ask u nicely wld u leae ur purpose for me
jus stay with me please stay is iit not worth it for me
is it not?
is it not worth it tell me pls is it not?
are u not certain i am and this is love?
r u god u may think u are but ur not
r u lost the way home u have not forgot

nosgov-
and now you're mad
that you can no longer wear me down
as i reroute
feel free to believe the words u said, outloud
im so over the past
how'd i think it would last
couldn't come to my sense

but i know
i'll be alright
like an arrow to my knee, i ripped it out
didn't know it could get any better, how suprising
to find out, it was all a lie & playing for time
i'm not blind
but i'm done
i walked out
never looking back

if i ask u nicely w/nosgov (heartshapedbed)

take a soma
now my bones stuck
im alone bruh
throw my phone yuh  

i dont know what
im supposed to
i dont feel liek
im supposed to

in a coma
im like so what
im like so gone
im like so fucked

think its ova
pinpoint eyes see the world a lil slowa
wanna die put a pill in my soda

bitch im bleeding
take a pill and now im dreaming
molly rock got me rolling on the ceiling
i forgot that people care about my feelings
i dont really wanna stay so im leaving

i dont wanna be alive but im breathing
i dont wanna be awake so im sleeping
you fuck with my feelings
so intense so insane but its fleeting

i dont wanna be like this
i dont wanna feel like this
take a pic cuz i forget
wake up in pain i just get dressed

drag my nails across my flesh
never more and always less
feelings i cannot confess
nodding off i feel so dead

i will never try my best
i will always fuck it up
get a check i fuck it up
fuck a bill im buying drugs

i feel bad i get fucked up
take a oxy i get stuck
take a oxy dont throw up
but it still is not enough



SOMA ft. CDGIRL prod. CDGIRL [OG VERSION]

im the best shawty feel like molly sex
took me out i took her home and gave her neck
21 i was poppin skater decks
fuck the rest i go to sleep and wake up dead

i cant ever go home and show my face again
feel it in my stomach when i know its boutta end
always make it back so ion care how much i spend
real spazzholics we're the only ones left

i feel so alone
need you, call my phone
breathin hella slow
i got weed for low
girl pull up to my show
withdrawling im so cold
hate when you go home
ill turn into a ghost

ill turn into the goat
west feel just like home
shawty love me so
kiss me thru the phone

memory so gone its shit ill never even know
last year really fucked me up yea i know

if i ask u nicely w/nosgov (heartshapedbed)

ultravialit