deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

stfu.

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I could tell you a million words and it still wouldn't make you pick me first
You could tell me a million lies and it still wouldn't change how I look in your eyes
I could write like a million lines and it still wouldn't say what I feel inside
You could leave me a million times but the moment you come back I'll be alright

Baby you're my drug and I been sober too long
I still hit you up cause I don't wanna move on
She don't want no memory of me, I keep her memory in these songs
Don't say you'll be here, I don't need you to be cause she's all I need but it's all gone

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

*auditory agony*

I'm worthless, I know this, you don't need to remind me
Girl, I just wanted to say that you're perfect, just in case you need reminding
Just in case he don't remind you, I lost her but I'ma find you
And I can't let you go, cause your heart, my heart's tied to

You told me that you cared, it turns out I was lied to
And you just left me there, I was alone with no one to cry to
I guess our love was a lie too, found out that your name was a lie too
I don't even know what to call you but I still wanna call you

I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines

I tried so hard for you and I failed every time

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

you're my drug and i've been sober for too long.

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Produced by smerxh x sorrow bringer

Lyrics

Love, love, everybody talk about love
But I don’t know if I knew what that was
I used to think that I did, but I learned that that girl just lied
Said I wouldn’t be here again, but it’s eating me up inside

I gave you my heart just to watch it break
Chased a dream that was never my fate
Told myself that I’d move along
But here I am, still writing these songs

Love ain’t what I thought it was
More than words and more than trust
If it’s real, why does it fade?
If it’s true, why does it break?

I gave it all but it wasn’t enough
Now I wonder, was it really love?
Now I wonder if it's really you?
I swear if it ain't I don't know what I'll do

I got so much to say but I can't get a word out
You were my fuse but I think we burnt out
All that love that I had really hurt now
Can't get memories back, they're gone now

Love, love, sounds so good when it’s new
But what’s left when it don’t turn out true?
I thought time would erase my pain
But I still see her name and I still hear her voice
I don't know how to stop this noise

Love, love, everybody talk about love
But I don’t know if I knew what that was
I used to think that I did, but I learned that that girl just lied
Said I wouldn’t be here again, but it’s eating me up inside

love, love.

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Complete the plan tonight, you don’t have to be a better man tonight
Everybody left so you should crash it right?
You’re not good enough, don’t why you still fight
You think you’re worthless, yeah?
25 and still don’t have a purpose, yeah?
When you die, it’ll probably be on purpose, yeah?
She don’t want you, and it’s simple, you’re not worth the effort
You will never become better, you will always keep on letting her worm her way into your mind even though you shouldn’t
One day you’ll be out of timе and all because you couldn’t get a fucking grip

You’rе so full of fucking shit
You won’t ever fucking win, you’ll end up back here again
You make progress sometimes but you’ll always fall back
Don’t you even try to lie and say you won’t do that
You won’t ever be fixed, you’ll be broken til the end
She don’t care about you now and she ain't care about you then
So can you shut the fuck up and quit that whining ass shit?
We don’t wanna hear you cry 'cause we don’t care about you Ken
No one ever really did, get that through your head
Once you accept that fact, then it won’t be so bad
Look at what you did, look at what you had
All that burned to ash and all that by your hand

Complete the plan tonight, you don’t have to be a better man tonight
Everybody left so you should crash it right?
You’re not good enough, don’t why you still fight
You think you’re worthless, yeah?
25 and still don’t have a purpose, yeah?
When you die, it’ll probably be on purpose, yeah?
She don’t want you, and it’s simple, you’re not worth the effort
You will never become better, you will always keep on letting her worm her way into your mind even though you shouldn’t
One day you’ll be out of timе and all because you couldn’t...

all to ash by your hand.

Frozen Nightmares

Y3 BoDilly - Bijan Robinson (Ran Outta Breath) prod. yungflavor

The instrumental was created by @mimofrl + @youforia called core.mp3 from mimofrl's latest ep archives: gang_folk

https://soundcloud.com/mimofrl/coremp3-mimofrl-youforia-2
koda black - purp (acapella)

I just put them together.