Lyrics

I been away for too long
Nobody knows where I've gone
I spent 6 months tryna figure out life
And I still feel I'm living it wrong

I feel the smoke in my lungs
I never did it for fun
I did it because if I didn't
I'd flip the fuck out and blow up like a bomb

Lost in the broken pieces
Life is a bitch I don't think that I need this
I do not get why I cannot keep it together
I might just be fucking like this forever

God where in the fuck was you at
Everynight when I lied wide awake in my bed?
Tellin' you save me cause if you didn't
Then I might just go put it straight to my head

You'll never know what the fuck I been through
You'll never know what the fuck I can do
Until it's too late, until I'm too far
I'm on my 6'th year, still making new bars

You coulda been here, you coulda seen me
Stupid fuck but you decided to leave me
I'm not alive, I don't think that I'm breathing
I'll never find what the fuck I am needing

Blood, tears, I've seen it all I don't have any fear
Death's near, don't be surprised if I go disappear
Shivers and goosebumps all through my body from head to toe
Figures, I'm too fucked, detmer kept telling me not to let go

6mths. | Produced by puhf x 5head

Lyrics

Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

The American Dream turned into an American nightmare
All these meaningless things that I got
when I don't even like here
I don't need anything, all I need is inside
I can't even start to think about when I learned the lie

Was it when they told me what they thought was right, thought was wrong?
When I should of taught myself what was right all along?
I'm the only one that's gotta live with all my fucking thoughts
So fuck did I even care you what you thought?

Bout what I should do, bout the way I live
Bout what makes me blue, bout what makes me livid
There's a fucking difference between breathing and alive
What's the fucking mission? Am I only here to die

Have I lost my mind? Have I found it all?
I can't draw a line, it's too close to call
Building all these bricks, just to fucking fall
Don't give a fuck bout being rich, I might burn it all

Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

the american nightmare. | Produced by wxrst

again and again

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

lyrics:
i dont know whats real anymore and i dont know if i care
and i know i dont mean nothing, im just silence in the air
while i lay and sleep and im thankful that youre there
while you ebb and flow like the tide at which i stare

i keep getting lost in my dreams
i panic and choke and i break at the seams
i need to speak up, i got no mouth to scream
i got tape on my lips, i got nails through my teeth

and they got your hands tied while they put me to sleep
i just want to wake up but im up already
so ill go back to sleep in the hope that i dream
im finally safe, in the morning we'll see

used to sleep on the floor, stare the ceiling on my back
im a fiend for the chores thatll get me back on track
its a blur, now im here, got no money left to stack
im a lonely bedroom person, man thank god i lost my mac-9

fuck you mean? im just me, for the last time
let me be, in the depths got a landmine
if you keep adding weight, its a landslide
im not here, im a ghost, man what am i

every night im drowning in the trap that i have made
pinned down to the floor its like a vat of melted brain
better call me Jigsaw way i engineer this pain
but its all just toward myself im strapping up and taking aim

im tying my hands, im priming the gears
the door is locked shut, im facing my fears
a bag on my head, i can only hear
the sound of myself, the scream in my ear

the smell of the corpses, my previous lives
my body's a vessel, get drained everytime
i ran out of blood, im getting dry
my enemy is me inside

Reverse John Kramer

reverse john kramer (prod midnightblueeyes)

curse.

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I could do this or do that, I'm still gone be fucking wrong
No one can get where I'm at, I know I'm fucking alone
I got some weight on my back, I'ma put some on this song
I'm lost, I can't find my way back, your life would be better if I was just gone

I never know what to do with the shit on my chest, that's why I'm fucking depressed
Wish I could care but ain't got any left, I only know how to mess up
What I have, I ain't ever the best, that's why I get fucking stressed
I try my hardest but it doesn't matter, no matter what I do, I'll just make her madder

I know that I suck
I know that I'll never get back to the person I was
I know that you don't give a fuck about me, not at all
All that I wanted was love

But all that you gave me was pain
All that you gave me was only to make me insane
Cause it's been years since we we're together
Somehow I still think when I'm with you I'm better

Without you I'm bitter
Without you I'm not nothing more than a loser and quitter
Without you it's been getting dimmer
Cause you were my fire and now I'm not even a simmer

Not even an ember of what once was
All that I wanted was love
All that I wanted was you
All you wanted was him, I know that I'll never be enough

I wish you would love me
I just wanna hold you
Why'd you ever hold me
Just to tell me "fuck you"?

You call me an asshole
At least I'm fucking faithful
I could save your life
And I know you wouldn't be grateful

wrong.

Produced by Jacob Lincoln x Steve Crabtree

Lyrics

An arsonist
My heart is burning in
This hell I've made a home
It's getting harder
It's making me think that I 
Am not worth all I know
And I can see the light
It's not so hard to go

I feel a darkness ahead
How can I turn back so far?
Will life make sense when I'm dead?
Do I play only a part?

I fought so hard to get here
But now it's all breaking down
Did all my love disappear?
I think I'll die in this town

I need to get out before
It's all too late for my soul
I see that silver between
It's not enough, I need more

No one else saw what I seen
No one else felt what I feel
I'm sick of all of these dreams
I only want what is real

But I can't tell cause everything I see is never what it seems
I'm stuck in hell but I don't have a seat, I think I'm in the lead
I hear the bells once it gets to three
I'll open up to see
The last thing that I ever will, then I guess I'll leave

An arsonist
My heart is burning in
This hell I've made a home
It's getting harder
It's making me think that I 
Am not worth all I know
And I can see the light
It's not so hard to go

my heart is an arsonist.

Lyrics

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

Wanna hold her, need a shoulder
You were supposed to bring me up, you pushed me lower
It's okay though, I forgive you, and I always will cause I miss you
And I hope for the day that you come back
Don't wanna start over again, I want your love back
Staring at my phone, I'm waiting for you to call back
I lost who I was, I know I won't get it all back

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

my heart is an arsonist.

unknxwn.

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