i love how your music is relatably sad and mad at the same time, sometimes to extremes

heartless.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

stfu.

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Lyrics

Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

Oh no, where in the fuck do I go now?
Don't know, my heart is broken and cold now
I'm so over it, this shit is old now
You really think I would care if you like me? I don't even like myself now

Say what I feel, feel what I say
Wanted to die but I didn't wanna wait
Swear that I tried but I guess that it wasn't my fate
Shit I guess there's a lot more I can take

I guess I got some more pain to experience
Love is the cure and I'm sick of experiments
I ran away and it lead me back here again
But I bet that I won't give into that damn fear again

Holding on with broken arms
Lost, don't know how far I've gone
Every time I call you, you ignore it
Really thought that I was more important

But I guess I'm not and that's okay
Cause I know you'll be back one day
If you're wondering why I'm so certain
Cause she has to be or this shit wasn't worth it at all

Ask me if I care then, I don't, not at all
Every time I get a call
I look at the number to see if she callin' me back
If it's not then I'm turning it off

Turning it off, don't wanna talk
Headed to hell but I don't wanna stop
I wanna feel but I turned off my heart
I can't turn it back on, I don't know where to start

She told me, "Ken, I hate you"
I told that dumb bitch thank you
I do not know why she thought that would hurt me
Pain is all that I'm able to understand

I'm misunderstood
FR87, unstable
9 out of 10 won't understand that
But I swear that you real if able

love is the cure and i'm sick of experiments.

Produced by flower x 5head

Lyrics

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

Everything I touch, I kill
Waited for years and this feeling is still eating inside of me
Fucking anxiety, can't get away from it, why would you lie to me?
Why would you tell me you care but you don't?
Why would you tell me you'll call but you won't?
I'm fucking lonely, I feel so alone
I just wish you would tell me that you're coming home
But you won't cause your home is with him
And I thought this was real, you were playing pretend
Ain't no amount on how much you could hurt me
That would change the fact I would trust you again
So lie to me however much you please, however much you need
I'll accept anything keeping us tethered
'Cause I didn't lie when I said that I would never leave

"A lot of the things that I say aren't really what I'm trying to say, and as deep as you can relate to the things that I do say, I want you know that they're still fucking a thousand miles away from what I actually mean, so, do with that what you will."

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

as a dog returns to its vomit.

Produced by 2late!

Lyrics

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I'm always so sad
And I do not want to talk about that
Ask my mom, always been like that
Every time she wanted me to talk, I would close up
Now I'm an adult and my heart still froze up
For a moment it wasn't, for a moment I felt all the love
For a moment I felt so alive, for a moment I felt like enough
But that's all that it was, was a moment
'Cause that's all gone now and it won't come back
One day I'll be gone and I won't come back
Can you tell me that you love me before it comes to that?

I know that you won't though, baby girl, please don't go
Now I'm just so cold, I don't wanna do this no more
I'm all on my own, please don't tell me you know
What I'm feeling in my chest, I swear to God that you don't

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is ten times much worse than that
All these things I put in the open, I got so much more that's closed in
I got so much more you don't know and so much more you won't know

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Even though I tell you all this, I won't ever tell you that
I won't ever tell a soul, I tried once but not no more
All they could do was fucking hold me while I cried, that was pitiful

I won't ever let nobody see that again, felt love once, I won't feel it again
Guess it's time to accept that fact cause I tried so hard and it still ain't back
I gave her time and she still ain't back
Act like I'm fine but I'm not intact
Wish I could cry but I can't do that
'Cause I did for so long and I can't go back

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I just want you back

please don't ask me why all my songs are sad.

Produced by GAXILLIC

Lyrics

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

And I keep making these songs and I don't think that I'll stop
'Cause babe you're all that I need
I ain't say you could go, why the fuck did you leave?
Where the fuck are you now?
Sorry, I got pissed off
Can you tell me you love me? Don't care if it's false
Can you tell me you care? I don't care if you lie
Girl, I just need to hear it then I'll be just fine

Can you come back now?
Baby, you been gone long enough by my count
We can't keep this up if you keep bringing me down
I just want your love but you don't want me around
Why do you hate me now?
Why can't I let you go? even if I could, I wouldn't, you're all I know
I say that I hate you but you know that I don't
Will I ever move on? I don't wanna move on
So I guess that we know

okay, you can come back now...

Produced by swkillmeee

Lyrics

I don't know, I don't know why
Can you please, can you tell me?
Wish I could but I won't cry
Even if I did you wouldn't hear me (x3)

You could cut me open
And you still wouldn't see me
You could wrap your hands around my heart
And you still wouldn't feel me

You could tell me "fuck off"
And I still would be there
You could cut my legs off
And wherever you go, I still would get there

"ken, i fucking hate you"

BEAUTY & THE BEAST YOU'RE MY BELLE
WHY THE FUCK YOU HIDING?
KINDA FEEL LIKE 9TAILS
WTF IM CRYING

AND I KNOW THAT YOU HATE ME
AND YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU
SO I DON'T EVEN CARE IF YOU HURT ME
I JUST WANNA GET THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU

I DON'T KNOW, I DON'T KNOW WHY
CAN YOU PLEASE, CAN YOU TELL ME?
WISH I COULD BUT I WON'T CRY
EVEN IF I DID YOU WOULDN'T HEAR ME

belle.

This track is a gritty, atmospheric hip-hop or possibly dark trap piece with a deeply poetic vibe. The lyrics are steeped in the rawness of the streets, struggle, and a sense of inevitability, where "dirt" becomes not just a physical but a metaphorical symbol of life, roots, and resilience. Vivid imagery—soil, blood, rust, rats, crumbling bricks—paints a harsh, almost dystopian reality where survival demands embracing this "dirt" as part of oneself.

as a dog returns to its vomit.

unknxwn.

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