i was just boring u, how did i ever see love in u ???

hated spring

Back to the shit that I won't be missin'
Had advice to get out but I wouldnt listen
Guess that just wasn't ready
The point of it all was the piece that I was missin'
Now I get checks off shit I've written
Turned to the dark cause I was bitten
Wasnt on drugs but my head was flipping
Way out of line going through the distance
Used to look back on the shit I missed
But I turned to my back and the shit made sense
All I ever needed was right behind me
I ain't never need no one to find me
It's all right there just go and grab it
If you can believe, then you a have it
I became great when I ain't have shit
But the shit that I didn't wasnt what I was lackin'

What I was lackin' was better tactics
You don't really want me stop the cappin'
Don't even bark if you ain't bout the action
I'm about to spark and you gone think It's magic
It's all me, always was
Don't think about below cause what's above
Most people fold come push to shove
I'm here to grow, not here for love
Not here for cash, not here for chicks
Most chicks most use suckin' dick
Most like a sun seed, chew and spit
Don't think about it, you'll start to flip
Realization is a bitch
All you knew was total shit
What I know now is opening
All the doors I thought were closin' in

Closed in, I'm closed in
Stop all that shit you posing
Why try so hard to be what's not
Try your own skin and notice
Everyone you ever thought would be there never was
And you start feelin' like it don't matter to care
I promise that point in your life is the first where you truly can feel what it is to be scared

vampire.

Lyrics

I see shadows on the wall
She tripped me up, no I ain't fall
She don't even hit me up but all I want's a fucking call
I be sitting in my pain
Tryna get out of my brain
I don't have a fucking name
Why everybody just the same?
As that bitch I fucking hate
I say her name, sometimes I scream
I don't know what I should do
And I don't know who I should be
Making songs about some shit I went through fucking years ago
Man my heart so fucking cold I think I'm stuck inside the snow
Can't erase the shit I saw
She did me so fucking wrong
I can't get it out my head so I'ma make a fucking song
But it's so fucking fucked up
Now I'm listening to this
All I do is fucking cry and all I feel is fucking pissed
I been staring at the wall
Wanna throw my fist into it
Once again don't know what to do
Man I been fucking going through it

shadows. (unwritten/snippet) | Produced by greyskies

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

"Ken, I fucking hate you"
Guess I prolly made you
Fuck it, you a sheep
So you gone do whatever they do
I can't fucking shake you
Demon on my back
Feel like shutter, I'm attached
I'm still stuck with what I had
And it won't ever leave
This ain't the shit that I need
Weight bring me down to my knees
Begging to God to just go set me free
Leave me alone, I'm still stuck tryna cope
Tryna write another song using words that I ain't wrote
I'm such a bum, I be losing all my hope
I be fucking up my lungs every single time I smoke
I need to stop fucking up on like purpose
Is thеre a purpose?
Is it all worth it?
Or will I always forevеr feel worthless?
I'm fucking hopeless, this shit ain't working

Made you mine, almost lost my mind
Every word was a straight faced lie
Fucking bitch had me hate my life
Even though she fucking saved my life
Is that how it works?
I guess love has all the perks
I got the ones the ones that would hurt
My heart got put in the dirt
Blood on my shirt

pathetic aesthetic. (remix) | Produced by tundrabeats

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
--------
clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

happy halloween! thought i'd hit y'all with a fun one for the holidays!
s/o to @siemspark + @rjpasin for brining this to life!

lyrics
--------
wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

and i don't think that you're alright
it's the little things about you i've been noticing on site
you've been howling all night
inconsistencies will always be attached to your life
if you're running don't hide
cause the probability of getting caught is so high
oh and at least i fucking tried
a corrupt intervention when your truth is just a lie
so throw this away
flush it right down the drain
you've perfected your aim
looks like nothings changed
so maybe

wake up
get the crust out of your eyes
it's so late it's like 7:45
this whole place is asleep while i'm alive
i'm lonely but i guess that i'll survive
it's alright if you look me in the eyes
don't be afraid yeah i promise i won't bite
i'm not awake was asleep when you arrived
now i'm half baked & i don't think that i should drive

music video

half baked (prod. siem spark x rj pasin)

lyrics
--------
december left me cold
lying in the snow
you left me here alone
freezing through my coat
the ice inside my throat
ain't melting anymore
these bones of mine are old
and time will take it's toll

this story's mine to tell
and i'll tell it for forever
when the time comes
we can measure
how my pain is now your pleasure
and i know
nothing in this world will ever bring me back
from what you took can't take it back no more
can't take it back no more
can't take it back no more
cause i am not the man i was
i'm merely pantomiming him for show

warm wishes

Produced by staywoozy x owleeng

Lyrics

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

I don't wanna die, I want you to
You gon' lose your life if I'ma lose you
I know everywhere you ever moved too
I know every single fucking room too

Picture on the backdoor, flower on the counter
Top drawer passport, I like it around here
But there ain't enough room for the 3 of us
This world will be better off when it's free of us

I get hurt, that's usual
Putting me first unusual
You don't treat me a like person
I'm a tool, I'm useable

Here when you want me
Thrown to the side when you don't need me
You'll always haunt me
I just wanna cry but I don't want you to see me

Told you how I feel, you don't believe me
When it gets real, you're gonna leave me
Bitch I'm right here but you don't see me
Why does no one ever really need me?

I'm not that bad am I?
I just wanna smile, why can't I?
I guess I'm the bad guy
I only ever wanted to be your guy

Can you tell me why you left it all?
Did I ever mean anything at all?
I would still answer if you called
Answer when I call

I want you to know that I figured out
Every little lie you let out your mouth
I hope you don't think that I grew up and I'ma let it go
Everything feeling that I grew up, I'm bouta let it go

Can you help me?
Can you hold me?
Can you save me?
Can you love me?
Can you call me?
Can you want me?
Can you text me?
Can you tell me?

spotify.

anything at all. (extended remix)

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

bones. | Produced by septfree

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

anotherlife.

Lyrics

Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

lyrics:
you can take my 
you can take my
you can take my life
let me get by
let me get by
let me get by yo side
and i wanna die
and i wanna die
and i wanna die tonight

lemme me end my
lemme me end my
lemme me end my life
lemme end my life
lemme end my life
lemme end my life
lemme end my life

you can take my 
you can take my
you can take my life
let me get by
let me get by
let me get by yo side
and i wanna die
and i wanna die
and i wanna die tonight

lemme me end my
lemme me end my
lemme me end my life

forced to do a open 😃 😫0:34

Lyrics

So cold, no soul, oh baby
I don't really do this but I miss you on the daily
We not even close but fuck I'm trying so don't break me
I don't even know why I'm upset, I know you're fading

Just like everyone else
Fuck my heart, don't like what I felt
I know you need space but I do too
So how could I help?
Maybe I'm not a person you need
Maybe I'm just here cause I can, don't you agree?

Baby prove me wrong, baby prove me right now
Please don't me wrong, I might really flip out
Vent over a song, no one hears me out
Been alive too long, I might take me out

Ashamed of the shit that I feel
So if I really talk to you know that it's real
Cause I don't really like to fuck with people
They just fuckin' evil, had enough of people but I'm still

Tryna connect with a person that don't leave me stressed
Someone that doesn't leave me like the rest
I don't think this for the best but I'm lonely
You want me to stay? Well then fuck it, I guess

So cold, no soul, oh baby
I don't really do this but I miss you on the daily
We not even close but fuck I'm trying so don't break me
I don't even know why I'm upset, I know you're fading

fuck it, i guess. | Produced by capsctrl

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

bones. | Produced by septfree

unknxwn.

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