deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
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Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

out of reach.

Produced by fantom

Lyrics

Baby I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna fucking go
I wanna fucking smoke, God I feel so fucking low

If there's really a heaven right now I won't get in
I think I need a medic my chest is caving in
What's the point of living right? I won't make it out alive
I know one day it'll come but right now is not the time

I can't slow down now
It'd be wrong to hold back now
I'm not at that goal right now
But I see the fucking signs on the road right now

Got enough fuel, hit the fucking throttle
I know what to do when I'm at the bottom
Take a fucking bull mix it with bottle
Put me in type of mood I know will get me out of

That mindset where I cannot deal with my stress
In my head, I don't wanna see that text
"I think it's best if we just end this"
All I think about is death, I wanna fucking end it

But I can't and I won't
Say I do but I don't
What to do now? I don't know
I been feeling too down I might let it go

Baby I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna fucking go
I wanna fucking smoke, God I feel so fucking low

passion, obsession.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

You don't know what you did, you don't know what you did to my mind, I'm pissed
But I wish you did, you don't know how I feel, you don't know what I hid
My feelings I'm always in, I always lose, I ain't ever gone win
I lost that girl, I won't find her again, she was my world but she don't care bout that shit

You ain't that girl, I don't care about you bitch
I'll cut you off like I don't care about my wrist
Fuck all these streams, I don't care about no hit
I can make songs, I do not care to vent

I lost all my hope
Say that I care but I know that I don't
Say you'll be there but I know that you won't
Been so many years and I still ain't coped

Been so many years and my heart still broke, wish you would call but we still ain't spoke
Glad that I quit but I still wanna smoke, 3 in the morning and I'm still woke
3 years from now and I'll still be making these sad songs, that's just me
I don't care what you think cause I know what I need, If I ain't have this music would of died at 18

Don't give a fuck about blowing up, sick of this life I been throwing up
I got some pain I been storing up, If it ain't her, I'm ignoring her
If you ain't her then don't call me, if it ain't her voice it don't calm me
Her love's a void and I'm falling, I need to change but I'm stalling

You don't know what you did, you don't know what you did to my mind, I'm pissed
But I wish you did, you don't know how I feel, you don't know what I hid
My feelings I'm always in, I always lose, I ain't ever gone win
I lost that girl, I won't find her again, she was my world but she don't care bout that shit

i need to change but i'm stalling.

Produced by septfree x maestrowons

Lyrics

I don't want you to let me go, I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back
I wanna let you know, I'll be right here when you come back
Baby I know you will cause if you don't then my life won't be worth it
Bitch I won't ever be healed, you're what I need and I know I deserve it

Promise I'm not that guy, that girl is just perfect, I'll always believe it
She always made my life worth waking up everyday and not leaving
I ain't know where she went but I know where she is
You don't know how far I went just to find out what she did

Just to find out I ain't really mean shit
Just to find out what she said, she never meant
Love what I found but I hate what I hid
I won't hate when I die, I ain't love how I live

I don't want you to let me go, I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back
I wanna let you know, I'll be right here when you come back
Baby I know you will cause if you don't then my life won't be worth it
Bitch I won't ever be healed, you're what I need and I know I deserve it

Promise I'm not that guy...wait a minute, I might really be
Ain't no way I could see from that side unless at one point I was on that team
At some point I know I was the villain but I was just sick of feeling
Like everyone stepped on me, wanted a hole in my head, dolphin

Felt like a fish out of water, get it?
Every time that I called her, regret it
Ain't know what to say to that text when I read it
She know what to say to get me all upset, shit

I don't want you to let me go
I just wanted to let you know
That I'll be right here when you come back
I'm still hanging on hopes you'll come back

please come back soon, i miss you.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

wifi-in-saigon.mp3

My fit crazy - MakeUsRich4ever

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run