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I walked her home, for the last time

remastered 9.21.17

thank you so much for 100k plays

Sample: Turnover - Disintegration

street lights

Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone


Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD


NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins


The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank, 


 why cant It just end? 
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!


pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME



I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE, 
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.


Original beat, Aestral- Miran

Pain (prod. aestral)

Thank you Hk <3
Cover art: @pytn.d on instagram

Lyrics- 

I don't really care
you were never there
Said you had my back
you just never cared
Said I never loved but that shit ain't fair

claiming that you love me but you don't mean shit 
Claiming that you had me but you never did yeah x2
Always wanted somewhere there but you pushed me away
You want me in your bed but I don't want to stay x2

pretty heartbroken


You hit my line,
We're just wasting time
Always on your phone, 
You were never mine
Talking bout your ex almost all the time,
Yeah talking bout your ex he was on your mind

ON SPOTIFY <3

I waited on you, you never came. (Prod. HKfiftyone)

prod @notmorgn

chasin shit is so old to me 
but i could only fuckin breathe when you're close to me
and when im gone just remember im sorry
if i had a choice i would stop it in a heartbeat
but i cannot change this the way im created
yeah im livin off hatred at least i am creative
put my stacks in the bank when i die
i dont really feel like sharing bitch im selfish inside 
please come over don't ask me if im sober
cus i already told you im feeling bipolar 
some days im gucci other days im not
where'd the other days go I took too many shots

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

you're taking no hint from my actions
when u snap chat me i always hit back then
and when you're feeling down don't cry
i'd let u lay up on my body till the sunrise 
or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

and i would do anything for your love
why don't you believe that?
whatever bitch im dead soon 
whatever imma go to bed soon

or till the sun dies look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me because soon im gonna die
6 feet under maggots crawling 
on my body and my bones
its quite weird that when im dead 
thats when i feel most at home

anything for your love

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

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i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

@xam @itsyungvan @lilrodger

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1c9HI3TRRmxnR0nafNgs6i
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/im-sorry-feat-yung-van-single/1464245907
YouTube: https://youtu.be/gcre0V8UAhU

[Intro]
I’ve been thinking why i keep waking up
I wanna sleep i’ve had enough
I don’t wanna do this anymore

[Verse 1: XAM]
Stuck inside this mind of mine
There is no escaping this
Am I wasting my time?
What do I live for, why am I alive?

I’m lonely but I’m not alone
Don’t worry when I’m on my own
I’m not gonna lock the door
I don’t do that no more
One day I wanna grow old

I’m sorry
From the bottom of heart
I should kill myself today
And come back to life
And start again

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

[Bridge]
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry

[Verse 2: Yung Van]
You've got me feeling like a lost cause
For everything I said
I'd rather hang inside my living room
Because I'm better off dead

And now I know why
You had to leave me all alone again
Because I didn't know how
To treat you like a queen and not a friend

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m sorry for the choices that I’ve made
I hate myself and I’m ashamed
I’m sorry for the things that I have said
It wasn't me, it was the voices in my head

I'M SORRY (feat. Yung Van) [Prod. RODGER]

i will forever regret the life you gave

listen to my friend @le_play </3

shaun, for you

yøu used tø be my little angel (ft. le play) [prød. cøzy]

if i die baby (prod. reaper)

It's Whatever

Lyrics: You said one day it would work out 🏋️‍♀️ 
I guess I feel a little worse now
I Won’t stay in bed she won’t come out
Okay I feel a little worse now 

I thought you were unattainable 
But we’re just unsustainable 
I barely made it through summer..
These days our days are numbered 

Cause winter’s cold and I am weak 
But I won’t call so we won’t speak 
Cause I don’t care if you can’t sleep 
And you don’t care at all

Cause I won’t break and you won’t bend 
Or even try to let me in 
So you get high and I pretend 
We’ll make it through the fall 

 I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
Got, everything I wanted but nothing that I need

You said one day it would work out 
I hope one day you get let down 
To crash the car with no seatbelt 
So you know exactly how I felt 
This cul de sac has got memories 
I hate the way that you see me 
 10/17 I will confess
I FUCKED UP AGAIN, WHAT I DO BEST 

CAUSE YOU WONT TEACH AND I WONT LEARN 
AND YOU’VE GOT NOWHERE ELSE TO TURN
So LIGHT THIS BRIDGE AND WATCH IT BURN 
LIKE IT WAS NEVER THERE 

 Then FIND YOUR NEXT AND I’LL FIND MINE
I HEAR HIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
LIVE YOUR LIFE AND I’LL BE FINE 
I’ll ACT LIKE I DONT CARE


I quit talking bout my old life left it in my dreams ,
Now Everything is perfect I’m where I want to be 
Why does it always feel like the joke is still on me?
You’re everything I wanted but nothing that I need 
 
I mean.. honestly the way you feel about music is the way i feel about alcohol..

It’s whatever... 
whatever...

Make It Through Fall

prod. @notmorgn

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

sometimes i care
i know it doesn’t seem like
i give a fuck about the
next thing but
i could show you
we can grow too
i should’ve told you
it’s better when i hold you
you’re cold but I’m much colder
life sucks when we grow older
not as simple as it used to be
i’m not as happy as i used to seem like
maybe I’m just kind of messy in the head
kinda crooked like the sheets on my bed
i need a rest
can’t focus right
you should hold me tight
cause the next time we
meet ill be a poltergeist

can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight
can you not see i’m haunted by my shadow
can you not see im hanging from the gallows
set me free tonight i’ll do what you please tonight

these days i couldn’t care less
better off dead words better unsaid
growing up sucks and i’m losing my friends
don’t wanna be here if i’m on the edge
i’m tryna make sense of this
like maybe i’m not meant for this
growing up sucks and it builds more stress
if i take 2 more i won’t feel my legs

these days

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-too-much-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Too Much (feat. guccihighwaters)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

lyrics
--------
i don't think i've
ever been this fucking stressed in my life
creature part two isn't finished i lied
just to get them off my back though i tried
i can't create when i'm dying inside
moving this weekend i wish i could fly
don't have my car but i still gotta drive
pack up the uhaul and tell my mom bye
hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

am i like this
i don't like this
all my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
losing sleep i drive all week and raise my mileage
guardin cut his fucking hair now i don't like him
depression take me by 25
fuck going out i'll just stay inside
this isn't you i say to myself every night lately i contemplate suicide
oh but you're famous online so your life must be great they say but that's a fucking lie
crawl into bed around seven a.m. and the headaches come full force i wanna die

hey holywood would your people ever like me?
misunderstood is all i ever might be

i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

unknxwn.

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