havent heard you do this kind of mixing before, i fw it tho

I don’t know if I can keep this “Charade Called Breathing” up…

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

Don't know what I did so wrong
That would make you fucking think that apart we're better off
Cause it's only been a week and I promise that I'm not
Any better than I was when I thought you were the one

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

I can't let this happen but we don't have to go there
Don't tell me you're moving on or you ain't going no where
Promised you would never leave, I won't let you break that
You say I'm the problem well you gone have to face that

Don't say "we should slow down"
I can't let you go now
You've dug way too deep
I won't ever let another get as close as you to me

I wanna know what I did to make you hate me
I wanna know why you thought you had to break me
Don't wanna know where you been as of lately
Because girl, because baby...

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

without me. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I don't wanna hear that
I just wanna tell you
If I could go years back
I would never tell you...

You're all that I needed but I am not what you wanted
Why'd you run away from me? I thought I was important
Everything you did to me and I still never folded
I made one mistake and you made me feel fucking horrid

You're still in my head, I don't wanna let go
I lay in my bed, I just watch the time go
I been losing sleep cause I know you ain't here with me
And I know you don't fucking care at all but why'd you ever leave?

Why'd you ever have to go and leave?
I would wait for you forever, you wouldn't wait for me
Now I'm wondering why you lead me on
I'm done with it, I ain't got no one

You think cause you're gone that I don't keep up with you?
You're so fucking wrong, bitch I could show up to you
I know that I'm sick and I don't wanna get better
You're all that I wanted, I wish you would want it

Don't know where I'm going
Everything is boring
Frander is a poet
I just wanna load it

I don't wanna hear that
I just wanna tell you
If I could go years back
I would never tell you...

You're all that I needed but I am not what you wanted
Why'd you run away from me? I thought I was important
Everything you did to me and I still never folded
I made one mistake and you made me feel fucking horrid

You're still in my head, I don't wanna let go
I lay in my bed, I just watch the time go
I been losing sleep cause I know you ain't here with me
And I know you don't fucking care at all but why'd you ever leave?

dewy. | Produced by ezy

fading out the memories
im writing my own melodies
i cut down too deep and now im draining out my energy 

a piece of me is broken
you cant fix it 
leave it open

i’m a wound
i’m fucking hopeless
i’m so rude but they don’t notice

i just wanna die at the right time
need to come up with a good lie

doing anything to ruin my life
maybe i should just do it tonight

maybe i can’t finish the fight
scratch and bite cus i dont mind
recklessly control my life

i just wanna feel
something not painful 
but it all feels the same
carve it out until it feels numb
am i insane

can't fix it [hero]

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Tear me apart, beat me down, then tell me you love me
Fuck up my heart, scream at me loud, that you don't deserve me
Tell me I'm too good for what you are, compare me to your ex
Fail me over and over, tell me you're gonna get better

Confuse me till my head hurts, change like the weather
Don't know why I let her make me regret her
I don't wanna do this no fucking more bitch
You leave me morbid, I swear that she so gorgeous

Confuse me till I'm clueless, play dumb till I feel stupid
Stress me out till I lose it, hurt my heart till you bruise it
Step on me till I'm broken, put me down till I'm worthless
Make you my only purpose, let me know that I'm not perfect

That's the closest I will get to knowing true love
I been broken, soul in the abyss, need a new one
Been stuck inside my stupid head for fucking too long
I don't wanna move on, I don't wanna do nothing

tear me apart then tell me you love me.

Huge shout out to my brother @halfhearted for his verse.

If you enjoyed listening, we would appreciate any support on the song, thank you all :)

**lyrics**

So tell me how you lost your feelings in such a quick matter of time
I could lose sleep over who you’ve been texting, but those arent matters of mine

Breaking my spine just so you can survive, and Id do it again if it gave me more time
Just to ask how you’ve been, if you’re feeling all right
I get too attached now there’s nowhere to hide

So was I important to you-
Or is that just a thought in my head?
Am I more than a fool for believing in things that we said? 

Maybe if I could change the structure of all that I am,
It wouldn’t be so hard for me to let go of your hand.

(Halfie)
I could lose my sleep over things that don’t matter, like how my tears splattered on the bedspread
I been sevenfeet with my fear and I’m drowning
Don’t tell me there’s a chance it’ll go right to my head 

She’s the monster deep inside my closet 
Can’t call her, she’s only talking nonsense
I don’t feel alive anymore, but I’ll digress
(Yeah I’ll digress, yeah I’ll digress)

Cause you know, I’m happy to walk around in circles
just avoiding the blame or any people
I’m scared i know, i gotta be a better man but my eyes are closed
im just waiting for your hand

ashed w/ halfhearted (everest)

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:
i guess this is goodbye
have you ate, or do you try?
i wish you well, so please don’t cry
cuz i’ll be here no matter if ur not mine ♡
so i guess this is goodbye
but how’s june, does he still fight?
is he calmer now, or does he bite?
and does he still leave the house at night?

ʙᴜᴛ
ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ
ᴡᴀꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴜ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴇᴇ
ʟᴇᴛ’ꜱ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴘʀᴏᴍɪꜱᴇ
ᴜʀ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʟᴇᴀʀɴ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜɪꜱ
ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴏ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ
ᴊ ʏᴇꜱ ᴏʀ ɴᴏ

2023 we made a promise
it failed within a month and ill be honest
u couldn’t keep ur word so our loves tarnished now
oh no

so take away the both of us
cuz i know you hate it just as much
as me
the love of ur life is me

ᴅᴏ ᴜ ᴀɢʀᴇᴇ?

ᴊ

when ur heart begins to rot
and the things u always thought
won’t be the same
because one day you’ll fall in love
and then next you hate her guts
well nothing changed
even if you go and break
knowing you, you probably hate
how i was made
gotta make this life my best
and pray god will fill the rest
then i’ll be okay

love of my life

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I don't wanna go through
Life if I won't ever hold you
I been tryna show you
I was true with what I told you

But you don't care to know me
And you won't ever show me
That you feel what I feel
Guess I won't ever heal

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

ICLWY!

Produced by GAXILLIC & DreamUnion

Lyrics

I know what I did, please don't rub it in
I'm already beating myself up over it 
And I don't need you telling me what I already told myself
Couldn't care about you hating me, I loathe myself

I tired asking God to forgive what I did
I hurt so many people but that was not my intent
I was tryna heal my mind with a heart that was hurt
I would lie, lie, lie just to feel like I was worth

I wanna die, die, die, put my body in a hearse
I don't know why I feel I'm only getting worse
I can't get no better, fuck this, my head hurts
Won't wash that sweater, I can still smell her

You're not here and you won't be back
I'm so stressed and I can't relax
I send text's but you won't read that
You're the one that got away but I'm just your ex

I needed you but you didn't need me
You never told me that you were leaving
Girl I told you I'd be there for you
Told me I wasn't enough for you

I never know what to do and I'll never know what I did
All of the love that I want is in you but all of the love that you give is to him
What in the fuck did I do wrong? Baby just let me fix it
If we're not meant to be together then this ain't a life worth living

you're the one that got away but i'm just your ex.

Conan (prod_tgECKS)

ritz

Spotify

ｍｙ ａｐｏｌｏｇｉｅｓ ｗｏｎ＇ｔ ｂｅ ａｃｃｅｐｔｅｄ．

(w/ @ggravee)

[ggravee]
laying on the floor and my hands around my neck
i dont wanna feel i just want you out my head
getting hard to breath with this weight all on my chest
the sun is coming out i should probably go to bed

lips are getting dry and my bodies going numb
i try to call my friends but i really have no one
always feeling lost but i dont kno where to run
time is always slow i dont even know the month

hands are black blue match the holes all in my walls
dont know what to do or if i even should go on
dont wanna tie the noose, cause im scared ill slip and fall
i just wanna talk to you but i dont even try at all

i wish that i could move but im running out of time
farther im from you is when i start feeling blind
i dont wanna go cause i feel safer inside
i hope that i can grow and i can get this out my mind

[smalltalk]
we all gotta go its just a matter of time
you thought we should go, said it would be fine
i didn't wanna leave i had other plans in mind
knew i should have stayed inside

sign your name on my casket
like i got a cast in
and you can smoke my ashes

like a bad habit, feeling drastic
breathe me in with a passion
i know i got you feeling fantastic
do you feel me in your lungs, like its magic
do you hear me in the wind like i'm static
do you see me in your dreams like imagine

in a way its romantic, when its cold
light me up i'll keep you warm like a jacket
i'll keep you warm like a jacket
yeah my love, you can have it

running out of time (w/ ggravee) (prod. ʎpoqou)

@alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't why life so hard
I can't figure out why every thought so dark
I don't taste the love my heart so parched
I know I'll be okay but right now I'm not

I don't wanna see my face
I'm all the things I hate
I'm the crack that makes me break
Don't come back, you're far too late

Devil on my shoulder
Feel my heart grow colder
I wish I could hold her
But it's too bad that I'll never know her

She's in my dreams, she won't leave
Only in my sleep I'll find peace
But I stay up all night, just wasting time
I can't get out my mind

I built the cage I'm stuck in
Lost in a void of nothing
I'm just searching for something
Better yet someone that won't hurt me

I hurt myself though, what do I expect?
My life's a mess so I wanna be dead
I try so hard to not think that
But no matter where I run it just comes back

It just comes back
It just comes back
Always comes back
Over and over, again and again

back again. | Produced by Alex Seibel

What you see is what you get... I promise not to switch up  for the worse. Cross my broken 💔... 😉

dewy. | Produced by ezy

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