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75526, I been too sick
Fuck a lifeline, true shit I'ma lose it
I am not fine, clueless what to do with all this fucking pain?
I'ma put it in the music

I am not high but I'm off my rocker
She say "hi" but I might just have to block her
I cannot fallback to the fuck shit
I don't wanna talk, please stfu bitch

I don't like my mind
I get so blind by all of the things that it tells me
I feel not alright but it's alright
Because on and on I'll carry

Nobody knows what I keep on the low
I'ma hide it forever, it never can show
Cause I do not think, you would accept me
If you could see all the things that affect me

Say you would but you cannot be sure
You would not feel the same if the shame all was yours
You don't know and you never will
I had a soul now I never will

I'm a fucked up piece of shit, I'm not decent
I cannot go up, I'ma descend
I am not enough, I know I'm not
I'm gone fuck shit up until I rot

Until I hit that grave I'm always gone fuck up anything in my favor
Fuck it, I just wanna get paper
Fell in love too fast now I hate her

Baby I don't know why you attached
I'm a fucked up excuse of a man
I got feelings that I'll never get back
Get back, I might leave you in the past

Went south and it all went bad
I'm fucked, why am I so sad?
Any game I play, I'ma end up last
I don't wanna stay, skip life like class

75526. | Produced by Fantom

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Used to think you were everything
Used to think about thoughts of a weeding ring
You are not who I thought you would truly be
I got lost, you don't know what you do to me

Where the men in black? Need to erase my thoughts
I cannot cope with that, it wanna make me off myself
From this fucking earth, I do not know what I'm worth
I do not like this hurt but at this point all that I know is the hurt

I cannot work without it, I built an empire of pain
Can I feel love? I doubt it, don't understand when I'm not in the rain
Lost that shit when I found it, already knew that it would leave a stain
I do not really wanna talk about it, I cannot breathe unless I'm drowning

Fuck my mind, I'm out it, you do not wanna see if I'm bout it
I'ma cross the line a thousand miles with gas and douse it
May the bridges that I burn light the way
Everything I've hidden has a turn to escape

Let it out inside, you're no longer mine
You ain't down to ride, you gone see the other side
This ain't dark, this only what I am
You gone only think it's dark if you don't truly understand

"and i don't think anyone does"

Every time I was in love, I don't think they really was
Even if they really were, I couldn't feel it enough
I'm missing something and I don't know what that something is
I get so downbad the only up I want is just to give

Give in to the pain and the bad thoughts
It won't go away and I don't think it stops
The only peace I know right now is too much of a cost
So I'ma walk around fucked up until it's not

drown. | Produced by kubsy

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I'm conflicted, I can't make shit
I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it
Got this feeling I might break shit

I'm losing fucking patience
I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room
And I been trying not to take it

But I can't hold on
I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working
And I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger
But I'm not a peaceful person

All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest

Fucking up everything, yeah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it
Got a lot of the pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus

It's a never ending cycle
I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did

Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think, if you knew that then you would fail

If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit

So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low

I'ma fuck it all up again
I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is
So I'm not gonna pretend

I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now

Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden
I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this
I'ma give myself a reason for it

eeyorish. | Produced by ERLAX

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Felt the love for a bit then I lost that
Was on the path for a sec then I lost track
Not alive inside, yeah I got death
Smoke in my lungs, I don't breathe this is not breath

Not great, not a goat and I'm not next
Want to so bad but I'll not text
I'm a bore, you don't wanna be around me
SOS ship sunk I'm drowning

I got h a t e in me
Everyone I'm not I envy
I don't need your fucking pity
Wanna help? Just fucking end me

I might help myself and fly off
Of the bridge that I just caught sight of
Did I do you wrong? I might of
Did I love at all? Well kinda

I can't put this shit in words but it fucking hurts
How the fuck did I get worse? Am I really cursed?
I just wanna be in dirt, put me in the earth
Leave myself murked if I'm too turnt

Wake up in the same old cylce
How's life right now? It's lipo
If I write a happy song it's a typo
Tryna find death like moth at a lightpole

I don't know if I wrote that correct
I don't care right now so fuck that
I don't know why I get so sad
Fuck bands, fuck cash, I want toe tags

I got h a t e in me
Everyone I'm not I envy
I don't need your fucking pity
Wanna help? Just fucking end me

I might help myself and fly off
Of the bridge that I just caught sight of
Did I do you wrong? I might of
Did I love at all? Well kinda

HATE. | Produced by kubsy

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*auditory agony*

Tried to fall in love
Tried to make it right
Tried to hold on
Tried to save a life

But the shit's too much and it's not my problem
You the only person in your life that can solve 'em

I am not what you need to be okay
And if I am that's a sign that you're not okay
I am only here for me, this is my life
So I'm sorry if I made you have a bad mind

And I'm sorry that I can't commit to you
And I'm sorry if I was a bitch to you
But it is what it is, this a speed bump
Shit it is what it is, I don't need love

Fuck a bitch by my side I don't need that
Everything was all a lie and I see that
Everytime I close my eyes, all I see black
Every single time she cried, I would feed that

Put my heart up on a rocket, sent it to the moon
Leaving us was not an option but it was to you
Now I'm stuck with the pain that you gave to me
Now I'm fucked, can't change, ain't no saving me

I be stuck in this room all day
Do me wrong forever and I'll love you always
I ain't got no better cause I'm still thinking bout you
Feeling love don't feel right if it's not you

Tried to fall in love
Tried to make it right
Tried to hold on
Tried to save a life

But the shit's too much and it's not problem
You the only person in your life that can solve 'em

I am not what you need to be okay
And if I am that's a sign that you're not okay
I am only here for me, this is my life
So I'm sorry if I made you have a bad mind

i tried. | Produced by kubsy

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This is my spell
I'm a wizard
I made all these songs
And now I can't forget her

This is my Hell
It's getting bigger
All I do is wrong
The right I don't remember

Take me back to when I wasn't thinking bout the end of this
All I feel is fucking nothing, how did I get into this?
I've gotta come up with something other than me ending it
But death is always fucking coming ain't no way we missing it

Life is what you make it, I been making more mistakes
Oh baby my heart is breaking, don't know how much more I'll take
Soul inside of me is vacant, I been sleep when I'm awake
I think I've been way to patient, now it's time for me to take

This is my spell
I'm a wizard
I made all these songs
And now I can't forget her

This is my Hell
It's getting bigger
All I do is wrong
The right I don't remember

Everyday is just the same as yesterday am I to blame?
Yes I am cause this is my life I'm the only one can change
Where I am, how I act, where I end up
Oh god damn, it's coming back, it's getting clever

I ain't choose this, it chose me
I don't even know what's happening
But it feels right so I guess
I'll keep moving, see what's next

Take me to the better places
See souls, I don't see faces
I don't know how I'm gone make it
But I'm closer than I was

This is my spell
I'm a wizard
I made all these songs
And now I can't forget her

This is my Hell
It's getting bigger
All I do is wrong
The right I don't remember

wizard. | Produced by slayingibis

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Went to Hell but I got colder
Got the Devil on my shoulder
All I ever wanted was to be older
Now I wish I never even got much older

Than 14 that's when I changed
Lost my dream and found my pain
Prayed to God to try and change
What I felt inside my veins

My dad died but he left me a sister
I don't know why God didn't let him kiss her
Even now sometimes, I look a picture
God I really fucking wish that we could take a picture

You were really great and you taught me a lot
Man I seen you in a dream and it was nice that we could talk
I won't ever let her not know how great you were
You were not my dad but I swear that you were

I remember when you sat me down
Said "Reizy, you cannot just keep on moping around"
Told me to let go, told me to forgive
And you let me know that it is what it is

If you out there somewhere, I want you to know
That my life went somewhere, did it on my own
I won't end up nowhere, I won't be a clone
And again I thank you for all of the things that you have shown

To me, to my mother
I believe you were like no other
I'm on this side, you is on the other
We still go see where yo body covered

Hope I can see you again
You were one of my best friends
I remember when we played
Your life brought mine so much change

I wrote this to let you know
I let all of that pain go
I moved on and learned to grow
You'll always be in our souls

a message. | Produced by krush

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Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

The American Dream turned into an American nightmare
All these meaningless things that I got
when I don't even like here
I don't need anything, all I need is inside
I can't even start to think about when I learned the lie

Was it when they told me what they thought was right, thought was wrong?
When I should of taught myself what was right all along?
I'm the only one that's gotta live with all my fucking thoughts
So fuck did I even care you what you thought?

Bout what I should do, bout the way I live
Bout what makes me blue, bout what makes me livid
There's a fucking difference between breathing and alive
What's the fucking mission? Am I only here to die

Have I lost my mind? Have I found it all?
I can't draw a line, it's too close to call
Building all these bricks, just to fucking fall
Don't give a fuck bout being rich, I might burn it all

Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

the american nightmare. | Produced by wxrst

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I ain't want no help, did it on my own
Fuck it if I fail, I'ma blame it on my own
Fucking stupid ways, I don't really wanna wait
For that door to open up, I'ma find another way

To get where I want, to get where I need
Ain't like where I was so I had to fucking leave
Ain't like what I was so I had to fucking change
I kept fucking up, I was bouta go insane

Almost took my life sittin' in the parking lot
Of a motherfucking kroger, stuck inside my thoughts
I let it blow over, then I had a choice
So I made a change, I was sick of all the noise

That I had in my head
I said, "I just wanna be dead"
Regrets flooding up my vision
I needed to talk, so I called her up, then my tears start to drop

I was fucking scared for someone to see me
But I didn't care I was sick of what was eating
Me up inside, opened my gates
I let the love in and let out the hate

I felt like nothing, I wasn't okay
I needed something to take me away
I wanted drugs, I wanted sex, I wanted money
But it wasn't what would save me

It wasn't what would make me
Know I'm only one could ever save me
I am the only one could ever break me
I am the only one could ever take me

Where I wanna, where I wanna be
I don't wanna sit here on my knees
So I'm gonna, get up off my ass
Leave it all behind & I'm never coming back

take me away. | Produced by wxrst

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You'll never know just what I am
I've got all these thoughts but I'm keeping them hidden
Cause all of the bad that I've done is not forgivable
But I hope they're forgettable

I lost, I lost all I ever known
I'm not, I'm not what you think you know
I thought, I thought I was on the throne
I got, I got left inside the cold

I lost, I lost all I ever known
I'm not, I'm not what you think you know
I thought, I thought I was on the throne
I got, I got left inside the cold

How'd I get so damn lost?
Can't forget what I thought you were
Even though you showed me what you really were
When you fucked me

Thought there was nothing above me
I don't think you ever loved me
All of that time you were fucking
Laughing at me

What did I mean to you?
Nothing I see
I couldn't see through you
I loved blindly
Why you wanna pop up?
You ain't call when I was locked up
Put my heart into a locker
Glad I fucking lost her

Hearteater, ate my fucking heart up
Now you wanna call me cause that niggah left you knocked up
Fuck you & fuck your god damn kid
I won't ever love the smallest part of you ever again

I lost, I lost all I ever known
I'm not, I'm not what you think you know
I thought, I thought I was on the throne
I got, I got left inside the cold

I lost, I lost all I ever known
I'm not, I'm not what you think you know
I thought, I thought I was on the throne
I got, I got left inside the cold

lost. | Produced by saint mike

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Don't know how to rid all the anger I'm in
Unless I let it out on a song
But lately I been kinda shit at that too
That's the point where I start feeling wrong

This is all that I'm good at
Not really good at nothing I know in this life
I never really like talking bout mine
I'm kinda always wishing I'd die

Don't take it to heart at all
If you know me, don't mention this at all
I make this shit because if I didn't
I'd end it, this music my witness

I'm losing focus, I'm losing control
Honestly broken, I'm losing my hope
Scream till my throat split cause I cannot cope
With every whisper deep down in my dome

Don't know how to rid all the anger I'm in
Unless I let it out on a song
But lately I been kinda shit at that too
That's the point where I start feeling wrong

This is all that I'm good at
Not really good at nothing I know in this life
I never really like talking bout mine
I'm kinda always wishing I'd die

Don't take this too light at all
If you know me, you know I'm bound to fall
Back to habits I left behind
Sinning, I missed it, addicted I'm itchin'

HATE. | Produced by kubsy

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