finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

slipshot! (freestyle)

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

slumber.

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Produced by sockedrock x KATASTROFA

Lyrics

I tied my heart to yours, I don't think I can live without you
And I say that I don't but we both know I think about you
Every time I crawl back, you hurt me but I don’t doubt you
Why in the fuck you ain’t call back?
I need to move on but I don't know how to

I want to love but I'm not allowed to
Everything you want, I can’t amount to
I'm just a loser, I'm just a poser
You just get farther when I get closer

Everyday without your love, my heart just grows colder and colder
Tryna move on but I'm stuck, I need her, I don't need your shoulder
You don't understand how I feel and you couldn’t find out with a decoder
I don't really like how I feel, it don’t matter if I'm drunk or if I’m sober

When she told me she loved me
I guess she thought that we were playing poker
She don't want nothing to do with me
She don't care how I feel, so imma provoke her

I tied my heart to yours, I don't think I can live without you
And I say that I don't but we both know I think about you
Every time I crawl back, you hurt me but I don’t doubt you
Why in the fuck you ain’t call back?
I need to move on but I don't know how to

I tied my heart to yours, I don't think I can live without you
And I say that I don't but we both know I think about you
Every time I crawl back, you hurt me but I don’t doubt you
Why in the fuck you ain’t call back?
I need to move on but I don't know how to

i still think about u.

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

I'm so fed up with myself
I'm weak, every week I just weep
Why'd I let her in my heart? Let her in my soul?
I can't stop, I can't let her go

I got love around me but not in my soul
Please, don't ever ask me why I feel so cold
Romeo and Juliet but you ain't want that role
Where'd you go? I been on my own

This is not a trend or a genre or a style
This is who I am, I been like this since a child
Always in my head, always had a heavy heart
Always holding it in, always falling apart

And I'm tired of it, I don't wanna do it no more
Break down in tears then end up on my floor
All of these years...what the fuck were they for?
I'll never know

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

inconsolable interlude.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Pills, weed, alcohol and cigarettes
Took too much now my heart beating fast and I don't know what's next
Even if I did OD, nobody would notice me, nobody except my fucking mom
I'm a fucking bum, I live like a slob

I just met this bitch and I don't even care about her, I just wanna get some top
I'ma do her wrong, woke up with her next me, I asked her could she leave so I could make a fucking song
What the fuck is going on? She said I'm a piece of shit and I can't prove her wrong
So I'ma prove her right, hope she cry at night, hope that I can make this hoe rethink her fucking life

I can't be the best she ever had but I can be the worst
I can't show her love but I can break that bitch heart first
I don't care if I'm your enemy aslong as you remember me
I know all I'll ever be is just a fucking memory

pitiful performance.

Produced by 6astard

Lyrics

I been up all night long, you're in my mind but I'm on my own
Get off of work and I go back home, sit in my driveway way too long
Close my eyes and I pray everyday but a part of me thinks that we're all alone
Part of me knows that that part is wrong, part of me knows that I'm more than bone
Part of me knows that this body is part of me, pardon me if I may come off strong

I'm not the person you think that I am
I'm not even a person to begin with
I know that most of you won't understand
But if everybody has diamonds then what are they worth anyway in the end?

Where'd you go? Why you ain't think that you could of took me?
I'm so cold, if I got cut then I wouldn't even bleed
I'm so cold, I went to hell and I ain't even leave
Where's my soul? I know I got one but it ain't with me

I'm not yours anymore, don't give me love I don't know what it's for
I learned to live off pain, something is wrong in my brain
Already tried won't change, damage is my only aim
This is the part where it gets hard to leave my bed like a graveyardwraith