I miss the old days when everything was ok

This song gets me everytime probably one of my favorite songs

Putting this back on repeat for the night

Lyrics

*auditory agony*

A lot of times I don't know what I should or should not do
And all the drugs I took back then, I know I'll never drop to
I hope you just avoid me, I don't ever wanna talk to you again
You were fucking with my heart when you were my only friend

So I stayed, thinking that you might just save me
But I didn't know that you would be the one to break me
I won't ever know just what I did to make you hate me
But it is what it is, I still fucking forgive

Cause it's not for you, it's for me
I can't talk to you, so please
Just stop popping up on my phone
I cannot care, bitch leave me alone

I was making songs bout being alone
Where were you then bitch? Getting a bone
Don't get offended, you know what you did
I won't ever say I love you again, bitch

I lost her, I'm glad so
I hate you, don't come back hoe
Dear past me, don't hurt so hard
She won't ever be there when it's hard

Why you do me like that?
Put a knife in my back
Putting lies in my head
I think you want me dead

I think you like how I
Keep on making these songs
Well keep listening bitch
I'm gone live off these songs

*auditory agony*

I lost her, I'm glad so
I hate you, don't come back hoe
Dear past me, don't hurt so hard
She won't ever be there when it's hard

she lost me. | Produced by ryini

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

desire.

Produced by p4ra x luffy

Lyrics

I'll let this song speak on all the wrong
That I never would say, that I don't wanna face
I'm just a shell without that toxin
I need a quick one, I need a taste

Thought I could quit but I'm not stoppin'
Don't think I will until I'm in a grave
I hate being alive I do not wanna stay
To the God I believe in I don't wanna pray

I don't think you hear me, I don't think you will
Don't fucking come near me, I don't wanna heal
You fucking left me alone for too long
I found my comfort with ghost in the walls

I found myself inside all of the shit you are not
Don't wanna be saved, leave me to rot
I used to seek change, now I'm not
I'm okay with the demon inside of my heart

Wasn't there when I fell down, I'm stuck in hell now
I understand that I'm hellbound
I see my skin getting pale now, miss when I felt down
Wish I could feel what I felt now

At least back then
When I felt the worst pain
I still the had hope
That I would be better the next day

Now I feel numb
Love, I feel none
Live, I did once
Another person, I ain't met a real one

I'll let this song speak on all the wrong
That I never would say, that I don't wanna face
I'm just a shell without that toxin
I need a quick one, I need a taste

Thought I could quit but I'm not stoppin'
Don't think I will until I'm in a grave
I hate being alive I do not wanna stay
To the God I believe in I don't wanna pray

I don't think you hear me, I don't think you will
Don't fucking come near me, I don't wanna heal
You fucking left me alone for too long
I found my comfort with ghost in the walls

I found myself inside all of the shit you are not
Don't wanna be saved, leave me to rot
I used to seek change, now I'm not
I'm okay with the demon inside of my heart

ghost in the walls.

Nomad is the debut album from Nick Nobody, an artist of Hyperbole Creative Media. The album explores themes of resistance to and refusal of love, relationships, and long-lasting bonds as a means of self-preservation, or so it may seem. Drawing on nomadic characteristics like wandering and a constant avoidance of settling in one place, Nomad takes a deep-dive into the concept of protection over connection, uncovering vulnerability, desire, disappointment, and longing hidden underneath fear and misunderstanding. Ultimately, the album is an introspective journey with winding roads leading to clarity and a hope for stability.

Nomad - Apple Music 

Wandering (Intro) (Official Album Version)

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

spotify.

i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

GREAF

i'm sorry i misinterpreted our friendship [prod. greaf]

lyrics

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all
4 AM and i've been tweaking off the adderall
demons in my head, i drown them out with alcohol
bloody in my cup, i'm snorting lines of ambien
i don't give a fuck about my life after all

she lick the blade clean, while my fucking blood drips
i choke her neck while our motherfucking tongues kiss
she say i got good dick, i make her cum quick
she got a boyfriend, oh well, fuck it
baby i'm a vampire, counting money up
gold fangs in my mouth, smoking on a blunt
black tee on my back, red cape now
baby tell me it's okay before i break down

REAPER

before i break down [prod. reaper]

@ivrii

Lyrics

Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up again
I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end
The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking
I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me

You promised that you'd never leave me
I told you this wouldn't be easy
I gave you my heart
When you gave it back, it wasn't beating

Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again
Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative
Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight
No, not tonight, I would rather die

Than to live in this world with the way that I feel
I miss the old days, when everything was okay

Why can't I be okay?
Why can't I just feel good?
Slipping back to old ways
Just to fucking feel good
I'm a fucking waste of space
Never did a thing good
Music is the only way
I can let this shit out
I don't like to open up
It's not like you can help out
I tried to let a person in
Look how that shit turned out
Fucking up my lungs again
Smoke until I burnout
Lesson wasn't learned before
Lesson won't be learned now

sedative. (w/ ivri) | Produced by ocean

lyrics: 

i dont wanna b alone tonight
my thoughts keep picking me apart
i keep saying ill be fine
but they keep reminding me im not
these drugs keep calling out my name
telling me to just let go for once
this blade has a grim look on its face
offering me its comforting touch

maybe i dont wanna die 
or maybe i do

maybe i dont wanna live this life
with you

maybe i dont wanna cry alone tonight
boo fuckin hoo

boo fuckin hoo

boo fuckin hoo

maybe i dont wanna die 
or maybe i do

maybe i dont wanna live this life
with you

maybe i dont wanna cry alone tonight

i dont wanna b alone tonight
my thoughts keep picking me apart
i keep saying ill be fine
but they keep reminding me im not
these drugs keep calling out my name
telling me to just let go for once
this blade has a grim look on its face
offering me its comforting touch

maybe i dont wanna die 
or maybe i do

maybe i dont wanna live this life
with you

maybe i dont wanna cry alone tonight
boo fuckin hoo


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boo 'fuckin' hoo (prod. blade901 x 5head)

prod. capsctrl x malloy x lukeXI x Eddie B x Valious x p4ra x Shrpnss

rip valentine

https://open.spotify.com/track/0NPrRpo8Z66KgBroH22hE2

produced by @fantom-instrumentals
featuring @seejayxo

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x2)

[@seejayxo]
why you act like you aint see thru?
thought i told you that i need you
i was steady bleeding
you were so deceiving
baby, i just wanna know if you believe him

i see faces on my wall
i still be waiting on your call
but i know it wont come thru
know that it wont come thru
why even i gotta love you?

im better pickin up a gun
smoke all up inside my lungs
baby i just gotta tell you
gotta tell you the one
fuck it, i just gotta run

[@lottaheart]
all i see is dead faces
in my room by myself, i can't take it
call my phone, say you love me but you faked it
i don't care anymore, im too abrasive
and bitch you basic
(x3)

sedative. (w/ ivri) | Produced by ocean

unknxwn.

Recent comments

nicky :(

Seefar

Im already dead

//panchoo

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