deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
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Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

so long. (unmixed/snippet)

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

Lyrics

Substance at my bedside, I can't get away from it
I like how it makes my head right but I know can't live like this
I'm a fucking addict, this connection parasitic
But I just gotta have it, it hurts so good every time I'm with it

"I'll be good when I'm older"
Say that over and over
If I don't drop this dead ass weight
Then this wall I won't get over

Then this cave I won't escape
Then this pain won't be replaced
By the things that I know are better
Than the tears all on my sweater

Do you see me?
Can you save me?
God I'm callin'
But you don't hear me

Still waitin'
For you to free me
Still craving
Shit I'm not needing

Life's a puzzle and I can't find any peace
I just wither in the rubble, I can hardly even breath
I been stuck inside this bubble of my own fucked up beliefs
That I don't ever have what I need, That I won't ever amount to the person I wanna be

I don't wanna be strong no more, I just wanna leave
Tried so hard to belong to someone but now I see
That the only one on this piece of fucking rock that cares
Is the one making all these fucking songs I share

And that's not me, no it's not Ken
It's the energy that he always held in
When he felt bad every time he got pissed
Till it turned into whatever turned to this

Substance at my bedside
Like how it makes my head right
I'm a fucking addict
I just gotta have it

spotify.

sitic! | Produced by ERLAX

Lyrics

I don't think I belong here, I don't think I belong there 
I don't think I belong on earth, I think I belong in hell 
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head
No one should go up in there, I get so damn fucking scared

I don't know where I should go, I wish I could let you go
Say I do but know I don't, know I could but guess I won't
Cause I want you and I can't have you back ever again
Wish that I could go back so I could never send you that

First text I ever did, fuck you and fuck your man
Fuck him and fuck that kid, I wanna disappear

I don't think I belong here, I don't think I belong there 
I don't think I belong on earth, I think I belong in hell 
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head
No one should go up in there, I get so damn fucking scared

Losing focus, I don't think I belong here
I'm so worthless, I don't think I belong there
I don't think I belong on earth , I think I belong in hell
Hold on, wait I'm already there cause I'm stuck inside my head

i don't think. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

Alcoholic tendencies, shit that ain't new to me
Look at what she did to me, she know just what she do to me
I've said hateful things, I know
But I could never let you go

Sorry I can't let you leave
I need you right here with me
I won't ever let you be
You should of never shown me that you see

Everything I say about you
I'll make sure that I abuse
Every power that I have
Cause I won't ever get you back

Alcoholic tendencies, shit that ain't new to me
Look at what she did to me, she know just what she do to me
I've said hateful things, I know
But I could never let you go

Sorry I can't let you live
I can't stand that you're with him
Why'd I ever let you see
How much you mean to me

How much that I would do
So I could be with you
I should of never fell
You made my life a living hell

And I won't ever leave
And I won't ever be
That person that I was
I wish that I was gone

sorry, i can't. | Produced by jewelerbeats

curse.

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

Think I'm losing my hope, think I'm losing my faith
Wish you could see my soul but you just see my face
Heart cold, I'ma fold, my life only a waste
And you can't change my mind girl, I don't care what you say

No I don't care what you say, yeah I don't care what you do
Cause my life ain't much if I can't live it with you
If I can't live it with you then I won't live it at all
Look what you made me do, could of avoided this all

If you had cared at all, we wouldn't be on this path
If you had cared for me then I wouldn't be this bad
Now I'm more than bad, now I'm more than sad
Now I'm more than evil, you gonna feel my wrath

Want back what I had
I don't care what's next cause I still miss my past
And I don't wanna move on, no I don't wanna do that
I wish I could go home but I don't know know where it's at

Girl, I don't know where you at and you won't call me back
I just need one sign and you won't give me that
You just wanna forget, you don't want me back
I can't let you go, I miss what we had

Got a heart so cold, who's gonna get through to that?
Oh you think this a joke? When I die will you laugh?
I don't like where I'm going, I just wanna go back
They think this shit a song but this is all that I am

i want you to see my soul but you just see my face.

Lyrics

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of these songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

It's okay, don't carе, I just want you here
I just need you back, pleasе don't disappear
Baby, please don't let me go, you're all that I know
If I was Superman and you were Kryptonite, I still would hold you close
You're all that I love, I don't care what you become
You don't wanna come back but I don't wanna run

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

if i was superman and you were kryptonite, i still would hold you close.

Melody's In My Head

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run