after 2 years still cant figure out what unwrym

been waiting for new emrys that's cool as hell y'all collab'd

Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

lyrics:
i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

stab me in the back you let me down
turn my smile upside down
the voice inside my head don’t bother me
but its so fucking loud
brain so numb put a bullet in it i know
leave me in the rain, while i bleed, it’s a cycle
break me down now i’m nothing, suicidal
i ain’t never felt the same since i wrote the suicide note

i don’t see the point of going on in a life
that i don’t even like
i don’t even wanna fight
i don’t see why i still try
when i know that i’ll meet demise
ain’t no one cared when i was close to doing what would make me die
doing what would make you cry 
if i went through with thoughts of mine
everyday i wake up in a cycle
i don’t think it spots the trigger i pull
i can see the bitch with my eyes closed
i don’t wanna talk anymore just let me go
you made me sick of myself
made me hate me cause what i felt
girl you played me for the last time
this the last time

i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

suicide note II w/ unknxwn (TXNSHI)

@ivrii

Lyrics

Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up again
I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end
The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking
I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me

You promised that you'd never leave me
I told you this wouldn't be easy
I gave you my heart
When you gave it back, it wasn't beating

Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again
Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative
Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight
No, not tonight, I would rather die

Than to live in this world with the way that I feel
I miss the old days, when everything was okay

Why can't I be okay?
Why can't I just feel good?
Slipping back to old ways
Just to fucking feel good
I'm a fucking waste of space
Never did a thing good
Music is the only way
I can let this shit out
I don't like to open up
It's not like you can help out
I tried to let a person in
Look how that shit turned out
Fucking up my lungs again
Smoke until I burnout
Lesson wasn't learned before
Lesson won't be learned now

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sedative. (w/ ivri) | Produced by ocean

@paineko

Lyrics

Lost what I had and I can't get it back
Cause I'm stuck in a mind that just always attacks
Every hope that I have, every thought that ain't bad
It just turns it around till my heart turns to black

So I feel like a body with no life inside
My favorite hobby is hoping to die
This hate inside me is waiting to fly
So I'll sit back and wait for the day that you lie

My only purpose is wondering why
Everyone that is happy could never be I
You wanna save me but don't even try
Cause I'll just fuck it up I'm not worth any time

Drag me to Hell that's where I belong
You prolly can't tell, I'm not really strong
I just do not give a fuck about life
I can't see any light I must be fucking blind

Fuck feelin' love that shit too hard to find
Lately my life ain't been feelin' like mine
I'm always upset but it's honestly fine
I'm just using excuses to go and get high

I like having reasons to not even care
I hate that I'm breathing so smoke is my air
Pumping my lungs full of poison
It's bad and I know it, the rush that it gives, I enjoy it

God if you hear me just fucking delete me
Stuck in a world that I know doesnt need me
I need it neither, I need the reaper
Don't get too close I might blow up like creeper

Fuck ups are my craft, how you been? I'm sad
Why am I here? I might dip out like my dad
Don't wanna fight back, I'ma give up
I made my life bad, I've had enough

Leave me alone cause I'm not what you need
There for you something I never will be
Happiness something I never will see
I'm broke as fuck, got a 10, buy a g

I might go MIA
You wouldn't care anyway
I'm all that's in my way
I pray for death everyday

(Backgroud)
Leave me alone
I wanna go
I cannot take this life anymore
My heart is sore
Brains I might blow
I might just end up dead on the floor

MIA. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I don't smoke for fun bitch, bitch I smoke because it helps
You think I'm the one bitch? Sorry but you're dead as hell
Livin' life with me is like livin' life in fuckin hell
Can't you fuckin' tell I'm unstable and bitch there's more under the table

Purposely pushin' away, I do not want you to stay (no)
All of my feelin's are grey, why is you callin' me bae, hoe?
Hop the fuck off my line, I'll only waste your time
Yeah we're both here but I promise the reason you are isn't the same as mine

Sorry I sound like an ass, honestly I really am
Yeah, you can come to the crib but you ain't meetin' my fam
Yeah, you prolly know why, I'ma hang up if you cry
I did not come here for feels, after we fuck, it's fuckin' goodbye

I lost all my feelin's on my way back from depression
Life is fuckin' Hell & when I die I'll go to Heaven
unknxwn. but fuck the "o", her favorite number was a 7
I spent 7 months alone so nobody gets the credit

For why I'm still alive, why I didn't choose to die
No comfort when I cried, all alone every night
In the dark where I reside, so I don't need you as a light
I'm the reason I'm still here, and I'm the reason I'm alive

I'm the only one I'll ever need in this world
My dick is the only thing I'll ever give a girl
I'm sick in the head, I don't like shit, shout out to Earl
Sippin' slow on some merlot in a solo until I twirl

I lost myself when I found you, I guess it had to end
I wouldn't snap till I found proof that it was all pretend
I hoped to come a dead end so I could be with you
But I found more than I wanted, so now with you I'm through

With all your lies, I can't believe that every time
That you said that you were mine, it was all just a disguise
For you to throw on and off when needed someone to call
I hope you play this song while driving by a cliff and slip right off

I'm not the bad guy unless make me
But you did me so fucked up that I been thinking lately
That every person that I meet I'll do 'em wrong before it's me
Cause every single time I don't it just leaves me more incomplete

But how could that work if I'm just passing my hurt
Around like it's not important that someone else has the curse?
Cause it won't seize to exist just because it's not in my grip
Around the world it goes until it's back to me when I'm picked

And then I'm back to my shit talking, explosive, I'm poppin'
Detmer's what I call my demon, I can hear it knockin'
He won't leave till I agree, if I don't cave it ain't stoppin'
Smoking weed is the only way that I know I can stop him

merlot. | Produced by khail

@notemrys

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

All of my chances I tossed up
All my emotions are blocked up
I wanna go back to lock up
What I thought I was I'm a mock of

I know what I am but there's so much to be
I like what I saw but there's so much to see
I think that I need but it's nothing to me
I thought that I was but I'm not really free

It was cold, got numb to it all
Thought my soul was really all gone
Like a cycle I turned to the songs
Maybe this wasn't it all along

I just needed it to save me
When I wouldn't let no one
Thought they were gonna take me
But I just needed someone

I just needed someone, Reck & Ruin, all of 'em
But they couldn't answer till I chose to call 'em
I fought through the others, got back to the mother
I don't need a father, he would never bother

| emrys |

All of this guap had me bossed up
All my emotions are gone, dust
I do not know when I lost touch
Those feelings you have you can not trust

I do not know who I'm trying to be 
Im falling apart but I can't let you see
The screw coming loose now I'm starting to bleed
When I needed help there was nothing for me

Its old I don't like who I am
I'm thinking now I need a xan
My bodies been covered in sand
Getting out is harder you don't understand

I've been feeling this for so long 
I don't think I'm someone
I don't think that often
I don't need these problems

unwyrm! (feat. emrys) | Produced by tundrabeats

Happy birthday to me.

Lyrics

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
Fuck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, I'ma be gone

20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like shit

19, wanted her to find me
Last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know
I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope

2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like tracy, toss that bitch I littered

I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died

Fuck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my shit
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me

I know that I'm a mess
So cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less
Getting close to my last breath

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

XX! | Produced by boyfifty

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

Lyrics

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

Can't take it I might just go meet satan
Not faking, I think I might need saving
Life I hate it, not what I meant to create it
I'm so sick of fucking waiting like when the fuck will I make it?

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

I don't feel like myself

I don't feel like myself at all
I miss the nights when you would call
You made me take down all my walls
Just to make me build more walls

I'm tired singing the same song about the same bitch
It's like taking pics of pain just to frame it
I made an album shit I might as well of hanged it
Every tear that I drop I should paint with

The way I'm going, I might as well live to be hurt
Cause I make songs about pain just to be heard
I'm not right in my brain, I'm a loose screw
Hate me or love me whichever one suits you

I can't feel neither, I'm numb anesthesia
Hate that I need her, I'm dumb, I'm no teacher
I spent my time when in school on a bleacher
Thoughts in my mind really making me weaker

I need a...
I don't know what I need in my life to believe
That I'm all that I need in this life to be pleased
I hate this place, I just wish I could leave

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

SOBER! | Produced by ERLAX

Lyrics

Hard to know what I feel when I'm out my mind now
I can't tell if it's real, I might just be blind now
Broken heart, cold as steel, life don't feel like mine now
I don't even wanna live, runnin out of time now

I don't know what did so bad to deserve this
I wish I could let you in but I get so nervous
Turned into a mess again, I wish I was perfect
Scrollin' through our messages when my life was perfect

God show me what to do now
Please hold me, I have stooped down
Lower than I ever even knew how
Failed so many times, now I just loose count

Screaming at my laptop, stupid fucking backdrop
I'm a fucking dropout, should of never slacked off
My teacher told me I would be nothing
But a statistic, honestly fuck this

That didn't help me, you didn't scare me
On to the right path, I just grew weary
Now I'm exactly what you said I'd be
I never got why people don't like me

I don't how to get out of my head
Pain is all I know now, I'll be good when I'm dead
Feel it getting close now, breathing down on my neck
Hands around my throat now, suffocating

You can't make me feel what I don't
Don't say that you'll save me, I know that you won't
Fuck up on the daily, you already know
They be tryna take me for my fucking soul

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dropout! | Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that somethings right, feel my nerves about to fly

Chest gets hot, I'm bouta fry
I can't stop, I'm bound to lie
Maybe I'm just a bad guy
I can't cry, don't ask me why

If I could figure it out, I would of never made a song
But maybe the way that I figure it out is breaking down and making songs

Stuck in a cycle, walk with my eyes closed
I cannot get out even if I do
This how my life go, die I just might do
You're not a good girl, fuck it I like you

I'ma regret what I said to you like I always have
Love is a thing that can turn to weapon too, I cannot fucking last

Please don't leave me, I'm really needy
Don't look up to me, you don't wanna be me
All that I do is just sit in a room
Thinking about all the shit I would do
If I wasn't sad & wasn't held back
By feelings that I should of left in the past
I know I need to do more with my life than just lay up all day being stuck on my ass

I don't know how to cope
Lost soul, don't know where to go
Getting old, growing cold
Life's hard so fuck it I'll fold

I'm a ghost in the light of the night sky
Try to cope when I try to write my
Songs, up all night long
I feel the weight but I try to be strong

I'm just a waste putting smoke in my lungs
Fuck everyday just be leaving me strung out
Hate on the tip of my tongue
You won't feel the same when my words start to come out
Friends of mine, used to have some
Life did it's thing and we don't get along now
Thoughts in my mind really wrong, so I try keeping myself always calm now

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that something's right, feel my nerves about to fly

unwyrm! (feat. emrys) | Produced by tundrabeats

unknxwn.

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