metamorphosis v2

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lyrics:

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets
I don’t think I’ll ever understand it
Why do we live just to die and that’s it
All that fucking time thats gonna be wasted
Honestly that thought is making me pissed

(unknxwn.)
I don't wanna talk about the things that I did
I just wanna stop breathing, I'm sick of this shit
Everything I've thought I wanted, I got rid of it
Ain't nothing what it seems in life, can't wait till I'm picked

To die, I don't wanna be alive
But I got so much shit to do with my time
I got things to experience, life is an experiment
And I am a mad scientist, I'm tired of the crying shit

So alone, like where should I go now
I don't know, I think I should slow down
Take it step by step, and don't rush it
Everything that I have felt is all rushing in

(cyzun)
Everyone dying got me thinking bout death
I’m only 20 and I think that I’m next
Losing everybody is making me upset
I just wanna grab the gun and put it to my head 
All this paranoia makes me wanna feel it
I don’t think that anyone would care if I was dead
Even if I tried a suicide attempt 
I don’t wanna live my life with regrets

paranoia w/ unknxwn. (lxvesick)

imma be honest I don’t even want this but I don’t wanna let go,
all those things I promised, had u in my pocket,
the demons the feelings, and the world, 


and I been giving you my love, and I fear that it’s not enough, they always told me growing up that life is going to be tough, if I woulda known it was this hard I woulda stopped it long ago, but I’m not weak in the mind that’s not the way my story goes

you can catch me in the night time with the demons,  
yea I’m hiding in the shadows,  I have my reasons. 

yea ur in my head i really got my heart up on my sleeve,
yea u said me u love me girl but next day you just went and leave, 
fall asleep, I’m dreaming but my fucking thoughts are falling weak 
I don’t wanna feel like this I got my heart up on my sleeve


I want it all to last but nothing ever lasts in life,
my life has been alright except from all the constant fights, 
just put on ur headphones, close the door shut ur eyes and you’ll make it through the night, everything will be alright just know I’m always by ur side 

imma be honest I don’t even want this, 
I might have to let go, 
if worse comes to worse then I’m sorry for this shit, 
I’m gonna let go

shadows.

GHO$TBOY- i Feel Dead (Ft.AXG Karmah)

Produced by flower x nihil2free

Lyrics

Despair, I'm too busy in, no more time for friends
I cared way too much and then I was left again
You hit me up out the blue, where the fuck were you?
When I needed it, fuck this life I'm leaving it

When somebody tell you that they love you don't believe in it
I gave her my heart and turned my back she started eating it
Reaper where the fuck you at? Yo purpose I been needing it
Weaker than where I was at, a purpose I been fiending it

I can't let you go, I won't even lie
Don't know how to cope when you're not beside me
I love you so much, I can't explain
You don't give a fuck always leaving me in pain

I love you to death, I don't care about my life
I'll always be there even if you isn't mine
I know you don't care though, you gone do me wrong
Fuck this isn't fair bro, I loved her all along

I don't wanna leave, you don't wanna stay
One of us can't win and I know isn't me
You ain't gotta do me like that
What the fuck I ever do for you to treat me like that?

You don't understand, I'm misunderstood
Every thing is bad, I ain't ever feeling good
I don't wanna play these games no more
You told me you needed space but you just wanna hoe more

Despair, I'm too busy in, no more time for friends
I cared way too much and then I was left again
You hit me up out the blue, where the fuck were you?
When I needed it, fuck this life I'm leaving it

When somebody tell you that they love you don't believe in it
I gave her my heart and turned my back she started eating it
Reaper where the fuck you at? Yo purpose I been needing it
Weaker than where I was at, a purpose I been fiending it

reaper.

Produced by kledyy x wowthissouzi 

Lyrics

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up
Aye I'ma pass out, you take my breath away
And I'ma crash out if you choose to go away

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

What did I do wrong? How do I move on?
Where did that girl go? I ain't have no one
I needed someone to save me
Here's my heart, don't break it, don't think I can take it

"Ken, are you okay?" Hell nah bitch I'm faking
Fuck all of these songs, please don't tell me I'm amazing
Your words stuck to me like a tattoo
I wish I could call you, I wish I could ask you
What did I do?

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up
Aye I'ma pass out, you take my breath away
And I'ma crash out if you choose to go away

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

what did i do?

(lyrics)

It's 4 a.m., but I'mma push it to 5 Lookin' dead, baby, but I'm feelin' too damn
alive Baby, give me some time and I'mma change
our lives they Ain't fuckin' with it now, but baby, give

them some time Every day, every week, nothin' new, no sleep
4 Am lookin' at the mirror Just a sad boy with some eyes of a killer
What you sad for, baby, I can't remember What she mad for, I'm always right here with
her Teen lovin', just some teens fuckin', baby

They say it means nothin', but baby, it means everything
Baby, keep it comin', that's just that teen shit I'm still a teen, bitch
Screamin' fuck the world, comin' off a little mean shit
Fuck the world, the world mean, bitch I ain't stoppin' till my mama wip foreign

I ain't stoppin' till I hate this shit and it start to get boring
I ain't stoppin' till the music dead and got me mournin
It's 4 a.m., but I'mma push it to 5 Lookin' dead, baby, but I'm feelin' too damn
alive Baby, give me some time and I'mma change

our lives they Ain't fuckin' with it now, but baby, give
on them some time Every day, every week, nothin' new, no sleep
4 Am I'm lookin' at the mirror Just a sad boy with some eyes of a killer
What you sad for, baby, I can't remember What she mad for, I'm always right here with her

GHO$TBOY- 4:AM *prd.soprettyanxiety*

Produced by R3DQX & discent

Lyrics

You won't remember me when I'm a memory
I'm so in love with you, you're a facade cause you act and you only pretend to be
Thought I'd be better by now but I'm not, I was sick and I only was withering
You'll never know what you meant to me, you'll never know what you did to me
I can't let go and it's sickening

I can't get you out of my head
Maybe I will when I'm dead
Maybe I won't, then maybe I'll haunt
That bitch until she finds death

9mm of metal inside of my skeleton
Wish I could say that the state that I'm in
Is better than the one that you left me in

But I won't cause I can't
I only wish I could hold you
I feel the wall on my back
If it was cap, wouldn't of told you

That I love you more than anything inside of this world that we're in
I'm in a hole, can't get out of

memory.

my mind lately: 

please dont leave me to rot, all the things that i thought, finally coming through

its a lot to ask, but can i come round soon and maybe speak to you?

and i got this note, full of things in my head i can go on all day,

shit where do i start? im not feeling real and my mind is grey

and as the time goes and passes, sleeping on an old mattress, blunt ash on the bed,

and im not very productive, im just anxious, destructive, use to love this shit.

i step outside i feel like throwing up, i just wanna know whats up, do you have the answers,

cray there's something you're not telling me but i dont even know myself like am i really fucked

dissociation i lose all my patience, im feeling insane,

heaven gates waiting, far away from the satan, ignited flames

agoraphobia

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

You think I'm okay but
I won't be okay cause
I know you're not with me
And I just keep pretending

That one day you'll come back
But that won't ever happen
Why the fuck this happen?
I wish I could go back in

I don't know what I need but I want you
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm not
Dude what the fuck did I ever do to deserve this?
All I ever needed was you but I'm worthless

I said I don't know what I need but I...
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm...
Dude what the fuck did I ever do...
All I ever needed was just you

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

i don't wanna run.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I keep getting this urge that I know only leads to hurt
Sometimes I say I don't care but I know that don't ever work
One hand from the darkness wanna leave me heartless
My heart made of light tell me leave it all in Gods hands

But I don't know how to talk to him
And I can hear every thought from them
So when they try to steer me wrong
Where the fuck do I run?

Where the fuck do I go if the man in the sky
Don't ever try and leave no rope
How he expect me to rise above all these things?
I ain't ever had no wings

Every emotion I had, gone
All of my thoughts are a bad one
No father in blood but my father in love
Piece of all of us went when you passed on

Couldn't look at you in the casket
I wish it all was a bad trip
Thought it'd get better it hasn't
I just got better at maskin'

Every thing that's inside me
That I don't want no one to see

Why do I keep getting this urge that I know only leads to hurt?
Sometimes I say I don't care but I know that don't ever work
One hand from the darkness wanna leave me heartless
My heart made of light tell me leave it all in Gods hands

Feel like if I did that, I'd be so fucking hopeless
Cause I remember when that was all I put my hope in
I was left with fucking nothing and I ain't learn no fucking lesson
Except every connection & moment that you have with someone you love is a blessing

That could be taken away with no question
Turn every blissful sensation to stressin'
Death is door every one of us destined
Every breath you take gets closer to that shit

"Ken why are you thinking bout that?"
I think it's weird that you don't though
I mention grief, you get so sad
I think you might need an ear full

Of every bit of the hard truth
Stop tryna find a distraction
Focus on what you want to
One day we'll all be past tense

I keep getting this urge that I know only leads to hurt
Sometimes I say I don't care but I know that don't ever work
One hand from the darkness wanna leave me heartless
My heart made of light tell me leave it all in Gods hands

gaudse.

Produced by kewan x jaysset

Lyrics

Wanna heal but I can't
I mean I prolly could but I won't
What I feel isn't black
It gets darker than you'll ever know
I could talk but I won't
I can't ever let nobody know
What I have in my head
I won't ever be the one you hold
When it's cold, when it's dark
When I feel like I'm falling apart
This shit is old, wake up everyday
And I do the same shit and I play the same part
And I'm getting so tired of all the emotions
I keep to myself that are hurting my heart
Why the fuck did you let me get over you
Just to reach out to me? Now I'm back under you
Can't get you out of me

Leave me alone, I'm fine
I don't wanna be here anymore
I don't know why I try
I don't even have anymore hope
I'm a fraud, I'm a lie
Cause I know that I told you I'm fine
But I'm really not cause I know if I was
I wouldn't have to say that I am every time
I don't cry anymore, I used to a lot but I just got bored
I used to fall to the floor, screaming at God "Why the fuck was I born?"
Wanted to die, I tried but I failed, do I still go to Hell?
I barely care about my own life, you really think I care bout someone else?

emotions to mp3.

DADDY

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

vanished. (2021)

Produced by flower x fonkyfake

Lyrics

Holding on to nothing
I don't care, I just needed something
Drugs I'm off and drinking? Stopped it
Had to resort to another option

Don't know where I'll go from here though
I wanna save you but I'm not a hero
I need God, I need a miracle
I don't think my vice is curable

This ain't talent, this is pain embodied
Speaking through my body
I'm not alive, I'm a zombie
Pain is what I eat when hungry

Lost my heart, I won't ever find it
My mind's dark and I won't ever light it
I been battling my demons and I'm tired of the fighting
Fuck ken, detmer's who I can confide in

I don't wanna hide it
Yeah, I kinda like it
I don't wanna fall short
But I might really fall in

God can you forgive me?
For I know not what I do
Will it take away the pain?
If I give it all to you?

what did i do?

unknxwn.

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