so long. (unmixed/snippet)

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Produced by vertigo x centrlx

Lyrics

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

All I feel is anguish, feel like I'm corroding
Nothing could extinguish all the flames when I'm exploding
I'm on a new level, I think you're still loading
Im not saying that I'm better, I'm already where you're going

I can't let you stop me, I cannot let you delay me
Please don't waste yo time, I'm out my mind & you can't change me
Girl, I appreciate the fact you tried but you can't save me
I never wanted to leave june in july but now you hate me

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

bitter ballad.

lyrics 
im so at peace with it
i got this blood on my hands
with dirt on my boots
something is wrong with me
i wish i could figure out
but im on the move
i got a seven inch blade on my belt
i got a 9 milli round in my head
im seeing shrapnel from all of the shells
i got a first class ticket to death

anthrax and ricin inside of the water
i thought it was safe but its making it worse
and the gentleman i saw two weeks ago
is getting his body locked up in a hearse
things are the same
oh these things never change
and thats what i thought fore they landed a curse
i wear this uni to cover my burns
and i grab my rifle and put it on burst


theres tears inside my flesh
but it got easier to breath
im barely still standing 
but unchecked is still their greed
ill fight until i cant and when i cant then i can sleep
think about this clearly so that you could find peace

im so at peace with it
i got this blood on my hands
with dirt on my boots
something is wrong with me
i wish i could figure out
but im on the move
i got a seven inch blade on my belt
i got a 9 milli round in my head
im seeing shrapnel from all of the shells
i got a first class ticket to death

at peace (wraith x ne'erdowell)

Produced by Yami's Sin

Lyrics

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

Tears filling up and they falling, I keep myself from calling you
I need to change but I'm stalling, everything that I did, it was all for you
I'm still in pain no consoleance, I went insane, can't control it
My heart was beautiful but now it's molded, all that I wanted from you was to hold it

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

I love you more than you ever could know, I'm alone, I got nowhere to go
It's my fault, I'm not blaming you, no, I don't know why I can't let you go
I don't know why I do this to myself over and over again, need help
I'll be okay when I kill my...I'll be okay when I kill myself

Already told you in cold, all of this music a note
I'll leave it all before I go and I don't think I'm gonna make no more
I give up, I can't take no more, I don't wanna feel this hate no more
Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn., I don't even know my face no more

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

i give up, i'm sorry.

Produced by reactance

Lyrics

Please don't talk to me, don't want you in my mind
I don't wanna do this, wanna end my life
You're not even real, don't fucking waste my time
detmer talked to garrett and they both said "fine"

What's the fucking point? I still don't see that shit
Nothing that I do won't undo what I did
I hope you don't see all of the things I hid
I knew I would be here ever since I was a kid

I wake up and I'm already over it
I don't like how I feel when I'm sober
I used to think "I'll be good when I'm older"
I don't think I'll get much older

Next year I won't be here, please don't cry when I'm gone
I'm already long gone
I'm just living, I'm not alive
Death ain't as bad as going on with no heart

Going on with no soul
I don't really know what this all for
I said I'm okay but I'm not though
I said I'm okay but I'm not, no

what i built now crawls with everything i tried to escape.

adorer.

PROBLEMS FT. YoungXrisK & Yung throwaway

Written in blood, signed by the reaper. Every bar hit like a killshot, every line another body dropped. This that late-night demon shit — cold heart, black hoodie, eyes red from revenge. No mercy in this notebook, only names and memories erased in ink and smoke.