Lyrics

I got a million problems
Fuck bout a million followers
That shit won't help me with solving 'em
All of my thoughts I get lost in 'em

Don't know where I am, don't know where to go
The man that I am is not one I know
Can't figure it out, don't know why I'm cold
You hearing this now but this shit is old (x2)

Because when it's new and I'm feeling the weight of the things that I write, I don't wanna be judged
What do I do? I'm not healing the pain that I hate and I hide
Am I really enough? I never know and it scares me, I wish that I had the answers
I got this pain and it tears me, can't run away from the cancer

What I had made a mess of it, I know it's evident
I'm just a demon, don't tell me I'm heaven sent
I know the reaper is my only medicine
I don't like people, I know that I'm reticent

I cannot get out the loop till I'm dead again
I should of known you would leave me on read again
They at the door, I'm unsure if I let 'em in
If pain was a sport, I'm a letterman

Voices inside of my mind
Scream when I know I can't keep it inside
We had a flame, I can't keep it alive
Screaming your name until I don't like mine

Until I don't like myself, I can't look in the mirror
This message can't get any clearer
I'm just a mess, I'm a quitter, I'm so fucking bitter
I know that I'll never be with her

1M. | Produced by sorrow bringer

Lyrics

Nonchalant not numb, I still feel it fucking all now
Smoke next to my gums I’ma put it in my lungs now
Near me is a gun, I might really need to calm down
I ain’t seen the sun, I be sleeping when it comes out

Can’t move on, I’m not ready
You got one shot, keep it steady
If you miss, you will not have a chance again
Don’t look so but I am pissed, I don’t think I can make amends

Keep on keeping on, heart so heavy
Hate been leaking on, it’s so deadly
I don’t wanna run for the rest of my life
Feeling like this isn’t fun, made a mess of my life

I don’t wanna know where I could be
I can never know where I would be
Till it’s too late, only when I look back
I can really see the way that old me should of could act

Every time that I wake up I wish I didn't
I know I should open up but I'ma keep it hidden
You won't like what you see inside me
Will I ever learn how to keep it all behind me?

You say don't look at it like that but I stay looking at it like that
Will it end? Should I really even fight back?
Don't like where I been, how the fuck I take my life back?

Keep on keeping on, heart so heavy
Hate been leaking on, it’s so deadly
I don’t wanna run for the rest of my life
Feeling like this isn’t fun, made a mess of my life

I don’t wanna know where I could be
I can never know where I would be
Till it’s too late, only when I look back
I can really see the way that old me should of could act

nonchalant. | Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

The American Dream turned into an American nightmare
All these meaningless things that I got
when I don't even like here
I don't need anything, all I need is inside
I can't even start to think about when I learned the lie

Was it when they told me what they thought was right, thought was wrong?
When I should of taught myself what was right all along?
I'm the only one that's gotta live with all my fucking thoughts
So fuck did I even care you what you thought?

Bout what I should do, bout the way I live
Bout what makes me blue, bout what makes me livid
There's a fucking difference between breathing and alive
What's the fucking mission? Am I only here to die

Have I lost my mind? Have I found it all?
I can't draw a line, it's too close to call
Building all these bricks, just to fucking fall
Don't give a fuck bout being rich, I might burn it all

Don't wanna survive, that don't mean not be alive
All this fucking time, I been living in a lie
How do I get out? Should I even fucking try?
Cause I'm lost, what's the cost? If I wanna be alright

Should I work a 9-5, marry when I'm 25
Get a house, obey the law, climb the ladder at a job
Pay off all these fucking things that don't really mean a thing
Putting more into the psychical to mask a mental pain

the american nightmare. | Produced by wxrst

Lyrics

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

I'll never get back the way that I was
Full of hope, full of love, but do I give a fuck about anything else other than myself?
Anything else other than my Hell?
That I'm gone deal with all by myself
I only heal when I'm by myself
Making these songs, screaming what's wrong
I don't feel right if I'm not feeling wrong

I'm always right, I ain't ever been wrong
This is my life so is shit really wrong
If I don't think so? If I don't say?
I fucking can't go no other way
Except for the way that I want
I don't care if I'm not
Getting to where everybody else got
Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

*auditory agony*

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

Don't wanna talk
Leave me alone
Bitch I am detmer
I'm not unknxwn.

Scent on my sweatshirt
Weeping alone
Can I forget her?
I do not know

Maybe I won't
Maybe I will
All that I know is that I'm gonna feel
Like this for the rest of my life till I'm still

Is anything real?
Is everything fake?
Are we all a piece
Of a stupid ass game?
I'm searching for peace
But I keep finding pain

Don't know what I need
How am I gonna change?
I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

why? | Produced by saint mike

subside. (snippet)

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

cyclone.

juice

Did Wrong

"BÆBY STEPS," the debut EP from independent artist DIPITOW, is a captivating exploration of the multifaceted nature of relationships, presented through a dynamic fusion of pop, rock, and dance rhythms. As a multi-talented and multi-influenced artist, DIPITOW showcases their versatility and creative depth, seamlessly navigating through various musical genres while maintaining a cohesive and compelling narrative.

At the core of "BÆBY STEPS" lies a thematic exploration of the intense and often intriguing dynamics that arise within relationships. Through poignant lyrics and emotive melodies, DIPITOW delves into the complexities of love, desire, and vulnerability, offering listeners a deeply personal and relatable glimpse into the highs and lows of human connection.

Each track on the EP serves as a snapshot of a different facet of the romantic experience, from the exhilarating rush of new beginnings to the heart-wrenching ache of separation. DIPITOW's songwriting prowess shines through, as they expertly craft narratives that resonate with authenticity and emotional depth.

"BÆBY STEPS" not only showcases DIPITOW's talent as a performer but also marks their emergence as a fully-formed artist and storyteller. With this debut project, DIPITOW invites listeners on a journey of self-discovery and introspection, while also providing a vibrant and exhilarating sonic experience that is sure to leave a lasting impression.

BAEBY STEPS

TELL ME

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run