a slightly obscured fall from faith

( a year old song >.<)

prod @chewy @dreamno7e
everything else me :p

Your face was lodged in bark
sifting dark brown, a new font I opened up
Don’t know where to start,
(Don’t) keep your eyes closed when the sky is cut
Can’t hear my bones shuffle when I’m near you
1 minute turns me to jelly & I’m fucked

I never thought I could see you, or be you, I could be you
I never thought I could see you, I never thought I could be you

It’s (is that) not far off
I’ll break my own bones
To win ‘gainst time
I fucking know
It’s a losing game I’m playing
Cut out for suffering, pro bono

Shein only I’ll cut u off
Don’t lend trust to them
Mama told me don’t love
I can’t give up that
I’m in deep but I know what it’s for 
I’m everything she can’t stand for

Your face was lodged in bark
sifting dark brown, a new font I opened up
Don’t know where to start,
(Don’t) keep your eyes closed when the sky is cut

when the sky's cut @heroine @dreamnote

this song is actually called minecraft for free dot com

lyrics:
stick to the plot i made
wont you tell me something new so the time don't waste
i been known to miss every shot i take
wont you spare me your euphoria

feeling like my luck ran out
every time my lines get crossed im foaming at the mouth
wasnt looking when it came from the ashes of what i built
will i ever feel the same again?
when you pass by you're blurring my sight

wont you spare me your euphoria
wont you spare me your euphoria

stick to the plot i made
wont you tell me something new
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sorry that the mix is so saturated and sharp, that was totally intentional, blow your fucking ears out!!!!

@luca_marin

think i saw the end
tweaking out on research chems
didn't wanna have 2 think
but i couldn't go 2 bed

& i sat n thought about it after
n it rly wasn't worth the effort
but sometimes it just happens that way
even if i didn't want u 2 stay

oh no
my bro tweaking off that oxycodone
i miss seeking out them xans in seldom
if i freak out @ u it's matter of fact
id be happy if i told them @ last

feel like i been gaslit but dn't care 4 asking
2 much instability 2 reasonably mask it
tryna b more careful w/ putting eggs in 1 basket
cn't tell if u hate me or if ur js moving tacit

back 2 getting blasted
u been fake like plastic
lately most my actions
semiautomatic;
melodramatic
& i wish they rly weren't
her perception wld rly
hurt 2 bubble burst

think i saw the end
tweaking out on research chems
didn't wanna have 2 think
but i couldn't go 2 bed

& i sat n thought about it after
n it rly wasn't worth the effort
but sometimes it just happens that way
even if i didn't want u 2 stay

oh no (x2)

resEARCh ᶜʰᵉᵐˢ @luca

parked outside, i'm alive
i was so sure my blood was blue
+ i was sure i'd go out on my own time

i feel different different different

my peripheral was changing like the seasons
my peripheral was changing
my peripheral was changing, changing like the seasons
 my peripheral was changing

7. perifra

choke enough

logue prod attic

A lot of bad things happened this year. I can't deny that. A lot of good things happened. I also can't deny that. 

My feelings about the way I live haven't changed. i've had a lot of negative feelings on myself to the point that I've turned people away, denied help, and have even isolated myself in my room for days. It got really bad. I'm forever grateful for the amount of support I've gotten from everybody or just anybody. I've accomplished a lot, and I don't plan on stopping.. ever really. I feel like I've embedded myself so far into music that I just don't see myself doing anything else. I'd rather not do anything else, you know? I just wanna do this forever. I told my mom I would. I told my friends I will. It's going to stay that way. I am just simply so grateful. 

Thank you to my heros, friends and fans. 
@plinkohouse @isolat3d @cdreserve cdjsnipers and yuknow

If you feel hopeless, please dial someone close to you or call the National Suicide Hotline.

Album number 2 is my goal for next year. It'll be more beautiful than Hiraeth. I promise. 

- Serena Avery Liars

if you love me ill make it right

Leaving You

كتر-خيرهم⁩

"the marks on your head look like stars in the sky"
the end of Carrophobia. thank you for these wonderful years, i love you all.
thank you @mangodreamgirl for permission to sample your song cement on track 4, "greeᵉn"
thank you finn @odinlite for your work on track 6, "selfish!!!", i will never forget the week in PA.
thank you jackie @gr0lth and syd @ixosyd for your contributions on track 7, "passiflora".

7. perifra

𖣂 Carrophobia