My return to SoundCloud

https://www.instagram.com/jdsguilt/
formerly shrapnel interlude
an adult talking to a kid

will you listen to yourself?
theres a voice in your head telling you what not to do again

will you get somebodys help? or will
you just bleed out like you always do because you’re on the fence

are you not embarrassed of yourself and what you bring around??
theres somebody that needs you to get home safe
are you not embarrassed of the people that you bring around??
do you even care about showing(saving) face..

would you even get it?
no you wouldnt
you couldnt ever focus on anything but yourself
you just an embarassment to me and your mom 
you make me wish we were fucking alone 

and i 

wanna spit up everytime i see you but I dont
do you ever notice the fucking eyerolls
or how we talk behind your back to all your aunts and uncles
we got 
jimmy doing smack and timmy blowing bubbles
and they’ll never be as bad as you
all because you gave us attitude

I dont care
i’m just like every1 else i’m so scared
but dont call me for comfort I wont pick up the phone
just like you left me. alone

shrapnel

https://www.instagram.com/52_jd/

drop prod @oaelis
special thanks to rob max bugs and heaven cord

sometimes I put acid in my eyes
cause I can’t bare to see who you chose to be with tonight
and most times i know its on me so I dont get the right to cry
but I can’t take accountability and that wont change tonight
u dont communicate where you come from
and i’m sorry for yelling I think that i’m on one 
theres a bunch of things that wont get fixed like last time
you need a friend and I need a home 
maybe theres ways to not feel so alone
i swear you dont care anymore but I do 
and id like to hide it


would you look at me when you lie to me
I feel like 4 the time being
u can take a break or switch sides with me
if its way too much then alright wit me
fuck another night then get rid of you
lets do things that we shouldnt do
rolled dollars and bold moves 
I can’t get over
you

u 
u 

recently I know I think too much
and i just stole ur car then fucked it up
i pick a fucking fight with everyone
i’m burning every bridge that I built up
and honestly its hard to give a fuck
I feel nothing and like everything at once
ima die so fuck my phone dont pick it up
I never wanna hear u out i’m done

@yyuuujinaaa @sprr00w
been making music for almost a year now TT
thank u to everybody who fw me i appreciate u all <33
follow ujin !!!!
///
j:
flashing lights i see cameras everywhere i go
and we aint slid yet on yo mans its a miracle
smokin good gas pack its not medical
i cant even fake a smile u alr knooo
x2

y:
i j wnt u 4my own
i cnt even stand the thought of letting u go
so pls lmk,, if u gon fold
bby that look in ur face it’s so cold~
all these fucking pictures in my phone
but i know,, im on my own
put a needle in my arm and a gun to my dome
yeah i needu 4my own
i cant even stand the thought of letting u go
yet i know,, yet i know..,

miracle ft ujin prod sparr00w

fuck december, shout out my friends
guitar by ttthou 

I fear that i’m not too good at music
and its frustrating because I have eyes on me at all times

I get a little power and I might abuse it
so I do better, at the bottom, you understand why I try?
I try too hard at everything put a camera on me
and 
watch me switch from the boy I was about 5s ago

I try too little at everything that matters
like when you put hot water on cold glass

wallflower clip

if you told me a couple things what would It be?
if I could read into your mind what would I see?
back to a time where we were doing shit that mattered 
right before I dropped the ball and then it shattered
 
and 

do you remember when you asked if I would drink?
at 5am picking your orders up from peets 
i dont think you owe like anything to me,
I just keep thinking bout shit I shouldnt think 

a big fan of your new friends and your blue hair
we didnt get a prom though call it loose ends 
like do I want a girlfriend or a bestfriend
like do I want a front seat when the world ends 

like do I want a small break or to give up
or do I wanna chest pass 
or to mean something to you
I never mean nothing to you

and would you try to stay up to see the moon fall?
i’m the biggest faker, take my mask off
I wrote a couple few songs, but they’re all wrong
I try to turn my shortcomes into someones

how I’m scared to live and both die?
I aint never brawled but i’ll go fight
something in the stars make me feel right

https://www.instagram.com/52_jd/

fighters

(◍╹ｘ╹◍) tyy @lilac  

had a hard time postn dis,, updatn lyrics latr im knda sicc (。_＋)＼

rippd sweatr ❀❀ lilac

prod rab


mainline
you called me at the same time i’m reaching for my phone
I wont pick up we’re on the same time
like like
no one knows but they all get it
its all said without a mention
somethings wrong here
you can feel it in my songs, hear

the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dont know where id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

she calls it off, shes like “ive had it, you’re a monster wreaking havoc, they were right. i’m not sure why I thought they lied..
like yeah we both fuck up but you got issues, I can’t be the one you misuse any longer
you can’t get any wronger”

and now you’re staring at your feet
because you gave it all you got
making lefts at every turn
doing shit you just should not
and every shot you get shot down
no emotion but a frown these days
you’re going down but hey

the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
the things i think about I dunno whered id be without you
id fix my face and then breakdown 3x a week without you
probably be better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you
probably better off I feel like I can’t breathe without you

doing just fine

one of these again.. ben a minute


this bracelet that i've come to like
has been keeping me up
more like keeping me right wont lie....
im reminded of you, and that's silly to say because you're too far away
its a crush or a fall, not a like lol
and the bracelet broke last night
and i wont replace it, i wont go remake it i think i deserve this

and they see me hurting, so they're reaching out
their arms are so long its crossing 2 thousand miles
going city to city, really feels like you're with me
but i've still never met you, and thats kind of shitty

ill see you in february :)
my fingers are crossed
rather be in the cold
than out in the frost

oh yeah good luck on your finals
i doubt that youd need it
i call you a nerd
but im sure youre a genius

just make it to february

@prodmichael
@glassxhotel

(one&two&fuck u)
w8stin time  
& losin mind
 always alone 
should I collapse? 
takin drugz
 forget the past 
the skin is grey 
then so am I  


(immm losing myself)
(& nothin is well.........)

(ya kno it)always breaks my heart 
...anything you say 
and u always say what hurts the most 
so im so close 2 break*

so much for my happy ending 
bleeding out, burning out & then...
understanding...

happy ending?

Spotify

happy ending? (michaelwarren)

prance around
until we get figured out
the buildings seem bigger now
and you still dont like home

start a new year with no friends
it took some getting used to
shoes a little big, and that’s fine.. 
I just hope they fit to me

snows a little warm this winter
you say you’re at the bottom ive been there
a couple times
watch your steps 
count your cries

because you sport a big gun
and a halo and a wishbone
you were just like me 
till ya fucked up and you lost it
like the cute girl in the plain white tee
do you think of her everynight?

we can all tell when you lie 
stay truthful

she kinda had her whole life
in her left hand
not her right though.. that’s for ecstcies
she liked hotel rooms and looking at the moon
she liked little things
she loved anything with you……
now what will you do?

and now she’s off and meets a nice girl
with the whole word
laid out at her finger tips 
and you both just split from your old guy
whos an asshole and he drinks that shit away
but its ok, you never needed her no way

prancer (heavn)

i'm worthless

posted...

🔮🎲🔮

@1yeezo

always go the distance
u know me
when u come around babe
I cant breathe
gonna fuck around make me break my creed
ur just like Ecstasy to me

i tried it all
baby
ur just like Ecstasy to me
maybe
an apology is what I gotta do now
cant break my heart its versatile
if I'm to die I'm gonna die with style
and I stay posted up with @trialx12

there's nothing left its all my fault
gotta learn my rights from my wrongs
this life aint nothing what I thought
this life aint nothing what I thought

i tried it all
baby
ur just like Ecstasy to me
maybe
an apology is what I gotta do now
cant break my heart its versatile
if I'm to die I'm gonna die with style
and I stay posted up with @trialx12

Ecstasy

@heavenindaclouds

@littleduders

just know that I mean everything
when I say you’re everything
u’re perfect and I mean it
morse code clicking you talk to me 
like you could bury me 
from freezing on this stage like i’m anemic

dimensions switching fast now days
things that used to hurt bad barely ever leave scratch 
es 
and moms still mad but I gotta go out then i’ll go ask dad

got caught kissing lips with a poster
hands up head down I didnt know her
knee back on my back i’m the ground
I hate the way this feeling comes around

play along if you hear me
curtain call play is done loud in the semi
dance infront of everyone
and just know i mean everything when i say you're my everything

heavn: dont come my way
dont come my way
dont want to stay
dont want to stay
just go back home 
just go back home

suicide tuesday w/ heavn

hold hands with bands [Odece + Gauge]

conspiracy ♪♪ [paramore cover]

i know that ur not truthful
and i cry i know its not that useful
got no drive atleast u looking cute tho
dark skies burning i got too close

should i even ask u why u want me to call
why always act like i dont love u at all
thinkin bout ur letter put a frame to the wall
u say u wanna end it too much pain in it all

everytime i wake up i can sense it
i can give my whole heart i can lend it
i can give everything i have and send it
man i wish u knew i was thrembling

i know that ur not truthful
and i cry i know its not that useful
got no drive atleast u looking cute tho
dark skies burning i got too close

should i even ask u why u want me to call
why always act like i dont love u at all
thinkin bout ur letter put a frame to the wall
u say u wanna end it too much pain in it all

i know that ur not truthful
and i cry i know its not that useful
got no drive atleast u looking cute tho
dark skies burning i got too close

i dont care what we are i just want u to stay w me
u made me so sad girl dont play w me

i know that ur not truthful
and i cry i know its not that useful
got no drive atleast u looking cute tho
dark skies burning i got too close

i dont care what we are i just want u to stay w me
u made me so sad girl dont play w me

u tell me what i said but i dont recall
i just popped a molly take a xan when i come off
u always say u love u forget about at all
all the things that u have done u say that u are lost

now u cryyy(garasu+morgann)

song frm last yr @kimzhel

[✮_✮⋰\]
pissd off,, i cnt say tht i want tht 
i can nvr go back cz im runn out of time
cz i dnt wna fl like that ✮⋰✮⋰
by tha grassfields lukn@tha lake thas my lyf

i dnt wna do tht all againxx
flowers in ur hed we turn a mess
whn i reach out u didn tk my handd
green lipstick onmy chest 💋 x

by tha lightpole try2breathe
everythn jus gts2me
tend my wounds i cnt tk heed
let it go need2b free | | | |

brkn glass whts mor2ask
cn u pls gt ovr tht ?
c on ur face right thru ur mask
movn way2way2fast

more or less,, i dnt wnt u2b mad@me
bt its nt my fault u cnt c it 
b it,, treat it,, like its sum u dnt wna c end
anothr ##seedling onmy hed
whts nxt ? in tha grass i lay2restt

i nd2go far awy,, might jus find me by a lake
do it4my only sake,, its not2late liku claim
u bring the worst out of me,, n u make it so hard2breathe
u push me awy,, wnt trust me,, evn tho no1helpd u like me,x,x

green lipstick ✮⋰ ##2022 [kimzhel]

this song is on my album :]

i promise you tonight that i'll be fine
i promise you that i won't let it get to me that much
and promise me you'll tell me that you tried
and wake me up tomorrow just to tell me that you lied

and i don't know how much longer i can take this
it's way to much for me and everything is changing way too fast
i know i told you that i'd change
but everything has stayed the same
so can you give me one more day

it's hard for me to tell you, exactly what i meant
and that i'll never ever let you pass me by again
im telling you the truth
that everything i do
has always been for you
it's always been for you

and i don't know how much longer i can take this
it's way to much for me and everything is changing way too fast
i know i told you that i'd change
but everything has stayed the same
so can you give me one more day

don't hold your breath
we're going down but you can let it fill your lungs
you're standing here beside me
and know that we're both trying
and holding on to fate while we both wait for perfect timing

if it were up to me, i'd tell you everything
that i wanted us to be
and how much that you meant to me

i stood outside on that night
that we argued and cried the whole time
and i wanted to die
and i wanted to lie down
and turn into stone so that i
i'll never
i'll never 
i'll never
i'll never hurt you again

promise

am i still

lots of unreleased, i just wanted our 2021 era to be out here to listen because i think we made some beautiful art
tracklist:
0:00 sin
2:32 last christmas
4:18 future self
6:21 before i fall
9:26 picture on my shelf
10:39 untitled
12:17 train pt 2
15:03 mom's alcohol stripped back
17:45 bam
20:24 sofastains
23:02 outro

[Rosesleeves x yungThom] CAT PARADISE MIX

cover of agony by yung lean, guitar and vocals by me getting more confident with my raw voice:)

My return to SoundCloud

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