produced by xona ♡

-lyrics-
things that I do, you’ll place my on traits 
were you wrong too or was I the change?
will of my truth or am I testing fate?
nothing but clues it’s just twisting my brain
all of my friends that just spit on face
drag me in mud while they whisper I’m safe
these spiders that crawl through my walls still decay
and off of the things that you could’ve have said

so I crash
and it’s a rush to my veins I can’t deny
I’m blacking out but these images arise
smoke screen, I can’t see what you hide
Im nothing over you, why’d I have to lie?
yeah yeah
I’LL CRY AND END MY LIFE
It’s all blur that I can’t pass by
and so these spiders that stay and reside
they stay and watch till the day I die

yeah, uh, maybe if I told you what I like
I’ll set aside all the pills, I can’t suffice 
and all the words that you say is kinda right
I’m ‘nothing worth’ I can feel it through their eyes
and I’ve been losing my head
I feel the stress
I can’t body anymore, there’s someone I regret 
she marked me till I’m red
flowers that we carry
right into our bed
we’re fixing all amends

~there is spiders crawling in my room~

so I crash
and it’s a rush to my veins I can’t deny
I’m blacking out but these images arise
smoke screen, I can’t see what you hide
Im nothing over you, why’d I have to lie?
yeah yeah
I’LL CRY AND END MY LIFE
It’s all blur that I can’t pass by
and so these spiders that stay and reside
they stay and watch till the day I die

yeah 
I’ve carved my life in two
other days that I flow flawed through
all the spiders that crawl in my room
takes toll and it kills my mood

everything falls apart
everything falls apart…
and I don’t know what to do
but go back to the start.

I got
SPIDERS 
CRAWLING ON MY SKIN (x2) ~

I’LL CRY AND END MY LIFE
ITS ALL A BLUR THAT I CANT PASS BY
AND SO THESE SPIDERS THAT STAY AND RESIDE
THEY STAY AND WATCH TILL THE DAY THAT I 
die…

spiders

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prod: @0302004

@0302004:
cryin in a strip club, error in a dub
eyes going up, my face going numb
cryin from the terror, blood in the tub
u were liein to me, for u i don give a fuk

@x_unh0ly_x:
(Albanian)
babie babie
rri ketu me
mua mua
o sa shume te dua
shadows dance in front of me
in da darkness i hear da beat
my handz r tied
hold me tight

kasl: 
(Lithuanian)
baik taip ziauriai elgtis
mane per zeme velki
ar nori kad nusisauciau 
ir pragare as tave laukciau

stripake esu as taves nenoriu prisimint
kai tu ant ratu tave taip lengva uzkabint
kai akys taip juda nezunau kur dingt

saraunh0ly:
ur cryin in da strip club
am i not enough?

STRIP CLUB w/ saraunh0ly

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

www.instagram.com/soviet.emo/
www.instagram.com/sltted/

prod: me

@sltted:
baby you just sip 2 much
sip 2 much
yea baby im a fucking drug
she jus wanna sip me up
sip me up
yea my baby wanna pour me up
pour me up
fuck me in your double cup
you fuck me up
you talk to much
I wanna sip in my cup
cus i dont feel ur love
baby you just sip 2 much
sip 2 much

@0302004:
i remember feeling fine
do u want me to lie
is it okay if i cry
u dont talk rl nice
do u want me to lie
dont want to fall with u

i lost my control
dont want talk to u at all
i see it not my foult
you sip2much then u fall
smoke thousand pounds
cuz im a stone ure just a poser

sip2much w/ sltted

𒀱 w/ L30

7deadlysins

@inssekt @em0rave
prod @yumenikki @oaelis

bug:
push me right to the side
tell me i mean nothign 2 u while u watch me cry
cross my heart, n watch me die
1000 needles in my eye

emo:
30mg goodnight
off these drugs u aint know what its like
close my eyes in the sunlight'
3 percocets turn off my lights

bug:
lights off, nobodies home
they say home is where the heart is baby but my heart is cold
i know it gets hard i think i know that the most
yea i think i know that the most

emo:
my hands feel cold
way 2 fucked up dont enn know what im onnn
smokin loud it got the blunt singin notes
id die for you girl, come close

bug:
bb come close (x4)
come close
come close
yeah uh
ik did a lot of shit to u
ik im in the wrong
ik uh uh uh uh
our feelings collide
we clash and we fight
then we fuck all night
idk, this feels right

emo:
tell myself that its alright
girl it broke my heart when we said goodbye
nodding off i dont fw nightlife
im not suicidal just want day of flight

i need pills just to feel alright
i feel empty, nothing inside
zombie walk i dont feel alive
take too much cuz i wanna fly

need your skin u make me feel alive
smoking pressure im way too high
i wan feel good so jus lie
OC 40 im feeling right

7deadlysins

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