produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

spotify

i won't forget w/ heylog

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

hair

produced by xona, ruevi, & oc

big thank you to all individuals who helped make this song possible <3

@ruevi @prod-oc
@heylog
@hiraethsry
@sleepywater
@sinxi
@caspywaspy
@vilsynth
@valerii
@deadfishh

the lyrics were over 4000 characters and that's the limit for soundcloud ♥

-lyrics-
https://genius.com/Xona-avoid-ii-lyrics

xona

avoid II w/ ruevi, heylog, hiraeth, sleepwater, sinxi, casperrr, vil, valerii & deadfish

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

produced by heylog

lyrics:
fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
cause ur not receiving 
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
or maybe i should let it fall

my hair is getting longer and mom says i need to cut it off
today i'm gonna pull it back or maybe i should let it fall
i'm looking at the pane and see a kid i don't recognize at all
you think i'm in a crisis but this is my life inside a ball
but i am not the one to be crying over some bullsh-
i'm trying to be a man for a girl who is the purist
and i believe that's only achieved through work and purpose
but at the very end of the day it'll be worth it
so what'd you say you come tag along to a journey
i'll be your protector, you won't have to worry
will you believe in me if i focus and try
i'll do what it takes to give you a better life

i assume your brain still has developing to do
no one cares about my feelings and neither do you
only difference i don't post them, you fiend off replies
absorbing it like energy to mentally survive
you're fiending
oh you're always fiending
for something to catch a feeling
no, you don't take it easy
you're grieving
deleting
because you're not receiving
the guy who gives you meaning
it just ends up depleting
you need me
the letters i would write
could form into a book
when turning every page
seem to be overlooked
so when you read the words
imagine you are me
tearing paper
and grinding your teeth

oh i was always there
too bad i ain't here
go cry, well life ain't fair
it's not like i don't care
but oh my, i'm bad at saying no
but i don't wanna be a problem if i'm holding on
oh my, now you wanna complain
baby i'm not gonna put up with that for very long
for long

teeth II

produced by heylog

lyrics:
no one
no faith
spacing
as i lie awake
when i see you then
i promise i won't leave again
woke up in terror, i'm feeling confused
cover my mouth as i just heard the news
how can it be?
how can it be true?
why god, do you take the things i love most
why's it the people who feel like a home
holding back tears
until i let go
facing
toward green
outside, you're all i see
i miss your praise
no matter what, you'd always stay
with me
i need to ease on the brakes
i feel my heart in my chest
i can't control cause it aches
and no one's feeling their best
and i'm not taking it light
you felt like my only friend
who'd be with me through the night
and be with me till the end
and i have so much to say
but at the same time i don't
all of it hurts in a way
that i can't even control
it comes and goes in a wave
and everytime it's unknown
and none of this is okay
i'd rather break every-
following footprints and trails
sunlight shines right through the trees
see beauty in each detail
please say that you're just hiding
no one
no faith
spacing
as i light awake
when i see u then
i promise i won't leave again
facing
toward green
outside, ur all i see
i miss you a lot
one of a kind
and filled with love

footprints & trails

Written //// Produced by Magnavolt
Mixed and Mastered by Magnavolt //// Andrii
Story created by: M.K Magnavolt
Story written by Magnavolt

Character illustration by: leaking_colour
https://www.instagram.com/leaking_colour/


Contact:
magnavolt@outlook.com

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lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

xona

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