1-2. insecurities
3-5. realization
6-7. obession

Heart Strings💔

who are u really cause u acting shady
i put on my shades, to cut out the bull
i cant see a thing, like stevie damn wonder
u wonder why i can not stay, just look at the facts
baby im out of states, my mental is dying
but i do not mention it, she keeps on lying
to find out the truth, theres nothing to say 
im dying away, keep by myself
because we do not trust, all the homies turn straight into strangers
keeping my distance, ur making me sick
run up a check cause friends are just friends
hoes are just hoes, pain is forever, but love is a game
playing like bingo, tell me ur number
i got a new tricks, so flip me ur card
i read it like manga, u really cant find me
she trynna just be with me, but i can not see it
i gotta just lose it, before it gets risky 
ik that she looking , cause iam her favoirte
she says im the best, well baby come show it
yk that im glowing, thats why u keep going
she calling to see that im doing so great
her ex looking mad, i wonder why that
i bet after sex she talks about me
saying why he never hitting like me, he never doing like me
walking to banks, cause love is not everything
but money my sercet admier, cooking and whipping like chefs
check on the list that bitch not with me
she keeps on lying, her nose gotten bigger
i can tell by the way that she talk
give me a reason why i should just stay i really cant find it
i tell u my weakness and ur gonna use it
ur not acting safe, so i can not trust u
u tell me put faith, but ur not a godness
u got the flaws, like all of the others
stop acting better, cause u getting bitter
i gave support, and u lied to my face
i asked if ur better, she said that shes better without me
thanks for the pain i never gave back
u stabbed in the back, where i was so vulable
probalby cause i was gullable
following ur leads, to lead to my end 
i think thats over but really cant tell
life is a maze and im stuck
dont give a fuck, trying so hard, but aint getting far
tell me ur feelings, dont tell me what i wanna hear
u keep on making it clear, i gotta end it before it gets worse
turst issues is my problems, but i can admit it
u sleeping so peacefully, while im in bed, still feeling pain
trynna get over it, gotta switch lanes, been chaning games
so i can not stay, she said im the one, but more like a two
feeling a bond, but iam not james,
switching these lanes like im lil wayne
working so hard to cut out the debt, u want some new shoes
but bitch u a fool, play on these bitches like this shit was chess
using my name in vain, babe u should watch
keep it right up, and u might be dead, just keep my word
dont worry about it, i gotta do it so dont even trip

doubtful (Prod. Con)

u told me all these lies, got me tangle up in webs
trynna find out wheres the exit, i can never fucking find it
play a victim if u want, thats the best that ur good at
feeling trouble in my stomach, knew this shit would fucking happen
gotta wait a couple days, before these bitches show their fake
all the make up that u put, can never hide the real truth
i just wnana know the deal, why u make me feel the worst
when i tell u how i feel, bet it makes u feel the best
when u say i dont trust u, even tho im always there by ur side
shear a tear ill pick it up and clean ur face, would u ever do the same
if i didnt have this fame, girl ur riding for a reason
i dont wanna sign a treaty, please dont act like youre better
i was crying out for help, like a kitty who went limp
instead u pushed me off aside, didnt even give me time
when i talked about my problems, u just told me u were tired
didnt even listen to me, now im stuck between two pillows
crying out my whole feelings, ive been trying really hard
even sadness comes in everyone, but u dont really care
u want the spotlight to yourself, never thought about the middle man
or how about u show me love, telling me wont be enough
when ur doing something else, trynna find my patients
but its really at it limits, breaking slience just to find its place
i wont be here any longer, better love me while u can
when im gone, dontcha call my phone, dontcha even say my name
all these girls look the same, making promies they break
man just give me a whole break, i was trynna be happy but u ruin my whole mood, im surround by the fakes, so i stay up in my whole room
i just wanna be alone, but i dont wanna say please
im trynna live my happy life, but ur just dragging me down
i got hopes and dreams but u dont wanna hear abiut that
u trynna put me in a box hoping i wont get out
ill change my life and make it better, if i only had time
lately youve been quiet, and im struggling out
im stuck inside a little well, and u wont me to leave
i gotta fend for myself, otherwise ill be dead
i cant rely on u no more, baby thats just the whole truth
thats just something u already know

Tangle Webs (Prod. beatsbytristan)

listen my heart dropped faster then a liquir bottle after 50 sips
got the text and felt like shit, everything became numb
u can bet i forgot my name, worst case senroio she called my phone
i wanted to be alone and tried to think of a way out
aint no way of talking out, when u get caught 
and thats fact, she had the pic and texts
man fuck sex, i wanna go back, slap myself and tell myself

dont ever do it, it was stagged, u got tricked u blind nigga
5 mins later u gonna get karma, and under stand what her father went through, all i gotta say, im ashamed of how it eneded
i looked her in the eyes and i can tell that it was over
heard her voice and my heart dropped, legs were shaking like leafs
heart was pouncing like tigers, and my head, man it was spinning
like cotton candy, heaving breahting i couldnt control my senses
everything was nauseous,if only my dick never took over
i wouldve been sober, i wouldve been taken, i would have the best 
saturday, and everyday after that, if only i listen to my conoius

instead of porn i went to a bitch
who i thought i could trust, the fake imagine in my mind
got me fucked up already, i really shouldve saw it
when she asked me how my day was, im so fucking annoyed
i had the dream i had the girl, why did i waste it all for one nut
its like a nightmare i can never wake up, i knew fucked up
when she told me to fuck off, shes sad and her bsf mad telling me to fuck off
i did enoguh damage, like i didnt mean it
i probalby sip too much pina colas, i wanted to nut so bad
i ready to risk it all, she thinks i hate her, but really i hate me

i think about her every night, my whole brain is a fight
i need to say goodbye, but my memoires stopping me
i remember her smell, but i remember the time
we fell i caught her, and told her ill stay no matter what
i wish i kept my promises, and never broke the trust
like rusty chains, still think about her lovely smile
she was the world, and i had to go polutied it
ill make changes and switch faces, just to get a another chance
but fuck it im late, i need to let go, and find another 
who will never live up to what we were,ill always judge them
and tell them there not enough

im lost i need help, but no gudience around
i messed up, wish i can go back and fix this
my problems are stacking, my love is dying
i gave it my all, and in the end i broke it all
fuck my stupid lust, if only i gave a fuck about trust
if i had the chance, ill go back and fix this shit
but then wheres my lesson in this, 
ig it was meant to be and if wasnt i was sure to see it

i wanna go back(Prod.Scarim)

look at the mall, straight into the facility
i had it all, gun holster and an attitude
ready to sprite anyhing that strikes
wouldnt u know, i looked to the side
i see my ex and her new boo 
together on a date, it was a sight to behold
so i tuck my gun beneath my jacket, jean jacket lots of pockets
went around following their steps, kept my distance
so suspicousan doesnt arise, they went to a store
i was waiting outside,like the stork i was ready to drop a body
or like camping faggot from call of duty
heres my chance they went to the alley
back side of the mall near the parking lot
follow behind but cut around to meet them their
he must be anne frank, cause i was ready to shoot like a nazi solider
and if he survies he can write a book about it
so i stopped them from walking, kept my distance so we can do talkin
gun out of the holster, but dead in his face
i think my ex noticed my voice, no time for chitchat
i gotta let my 19 do the talkin, he asked whatcha u want
wallet watch or hell her purse, nah im the grim reaper
im here to take ur life, let ur life flash before ur eyes
or before the bullet reaches ur skull
it aint about money or fame, its about love
the real killer of the game, but dont worry well put white doves
at ur funreal grave, this is revenge, but no tokyo gang
im ready to be done and leave it
ik i cheated on her and i admit it were done
but if i cant have her its done, ill kill any nigga or btich who tries
so i shot his head, left a hole of lead in his head
she started screaming like crazy, like stfu before u die like hailley
blood splatter, all over the concrete walls
her legs shaking like leafs, numb cold fingers like dead niggas
is what shes feeling, i cant get caught lackin
and i dont wanna see her happy again
i aim the hot pipe gun up to her head
and said, lights out bitch i will forget you
this would have never happen if u just stayed with me
cant u see we were meant to be

Obsession (Prod. Bleedn)

everyday i think about u, but ur not my side
thats just something on my mind, nowadays ur just gone
and i still feel alone, wishing u would call me
or maybe u can text back, i just wanna talk
even tho i fucked it up,i cant get u out my mind
feeling real time, i just wanna feel you
got this distance in my mind, i can barely just think
im too busy in my memories, why did i fuck up
i was so damn happy, yet i still fuck it up
everyday is pain, when ur not by my side, 
tell me whats the real time, how can i change the past
u were meant to be my future, now i changed u to my past
tears really falling, like rain drops on sad days
honey yea im sorry, i wish i never cheated
if i had to redo it, i would do it like that
if i fucked up again, u can lose me if u want
but baby im still thinking, maybe baby im in love
are u still thinking of us, do u miss us
u said its too late for us, but baby lets just give one more chance
see these diamonds dont mean shit, if i cant have my gem
u tell me that im wrong, but im telling u im right
we were meant to be together, even tho our presents seem rough
im still hoping for our futures, maybe one day well wake up from this nightmare
so u left me in the stall
looking dumb on my phone, thinking now iam alone
cause u blocked me on the phone, and im still waiting back
cause u still got my shit, if u touch it then ur dead
i wont hesirare to kill, thats just facts and yk it
and im ready just to show it, but u dont wanna risk it
so u told me that its over, and it really got me sick
to my stomach and my heart,cold shivers on my teeth
goosebumps on my body, everybody around me
looking dead like a zombie, 
but i miss the stories tht we told to each other
even if we gotta wait
ill still wait, for the text for the call, im still on the line
im still in love and yk, times getting crazy, everyday i still look at u the same, yea ik that u will change, trynna fill up the whole void
ive already done it so baby yes i know it

Not by my side (Prod. Con)

give me one more chance
i just wanna go back
change up every little thing
just to make sure that u stay

ik nothing last forever, but i really wanna stay
yea u say thats it over,but i think i want another
i just wanna see u, even tho i fucked up
can i get another chance, even tho i was weak
and i had u hurtting bad, promise i can make it up

i dont wanna cheat again, learn my lesson once or twice
but i still dont get a chance, baby yk i dont mean it
she was just a fuckin phase, baby ur the real truth

and when ur gone, i just feel alone
looking on my phone, i can see u moving on
dont cha u act like i didnt see, ik what u wanna be

remember when we went to sea, i was thinking about u
when i went to the beach, felt the sand on my feet
thought cha u were back in my arms, but it turns out i was wrong

thinking when we used to cuddle, and i fucking loved it
now ur gone doing 93 on the fucking free
and idk what i wanna be, but i gotta see 
ik u wont come back, thats why its so hard to go

and i wanna feel ur soul, but i really am alone
aint nobody on my phone, u were my best friend
give me one more fucking chance, and ill prove it back to u

dont need drugs, i need love, i need u, thats wassup
if u ever hear my song, 

this is something on my mind, can we stop and play pretend
like i never did it first, but ik im the worst
im in love, with the person that i hurt
i was trying finna the truth, but i end up hurting u
all my selfish behavoirs, got me acting like a fool
i wanna ask about ur day, but ik u cant stand me 
so i have to go and leave, give u space if u want
i wont go anywhere, im still loving on ur soul
ik it hurts to let u go, finally realizing all the pain that i cause
if i had one more chance, i would make it all better
if i could, i would do it, i knew it, i would stop it
ig its something on my mind, why i wasted all my time
should have realized ur perstance, now ur gone with the wind
and u aint coming back

Obsession (Prod. Bleedn)

XSTɎ.SAGE / LIL M.sage