The Lonely King/Circus Ollay

ay girl we had made a life, but now that life is nothing special
we had promises, and fairy tales, late night conversation wise
always stuck around, and always got together
remseming about our childhoods, same ass elementary
aint that crazy, u had seen me, i aint see u
guess my eyes was kinda fucked, in the past we had some exs
damn ur ex was crazy, kinda bitchy, i hope that nigga never push me
if he does its overdue, were young, were dumb, u were high
and i was drunk, guess that makes us quite the pair
heard ur parents arent the best, i heard ur dad dont like my skin
its whatever, im just here with u, im just doing me
but one day i can do u too, valentine, coming up
our time just to shine the light, im happy u know pussy aint the only the gift, its kinda rare to find that shi, bitches think their pussy gold
onlyfans is kinda old, asked me what i wanted, kinda stunned 
cause no one ask, thats the secert to my heart
yk what i want, so u just get it, you and me just think alike
and that just makes me want u more, fuck these diamonds
fuck these perals, i want you and that is true
christmas day, we had open presents, and our love was something speical, my heart racing with excitement, that new coffee mug was cute, and the picture of us too, man that blew right away
like the wolf to all the pigs, and that day was something else
that was one of our big moments, it was our time to get closer
all our clothese were on the floor, u and me were locked in focus
and the bed was shaking crazy, u was pullin i was grabbing 
holding u like were fallin, i was deeper in the river
of the love that we had made, were scared and super risky
but that made it more exciting, in the end, were happy weds
3 months later we get comfy, our whole family likes each other
but our secerts start exposing, like my jealousy is showing
it got worse when school had started, when u said u made a friend
that shit broke, my reality, and all the possiblites, starting flushing out
like i didnt trust u, but ik deep down that u were better
i was bitter, that my issues starting poppin, left and right
like uppercuts, ik that made us kinda strange, only worse
when i found out, that i was never number one
someone else had took ur V, why cha u lie, i do not know
nowadays i have ideas, that i wish i thought of first
instead of being so damn pointless, that we lost each other interest
wish i gave u space, wish i made a couple changes
in the end its way to late, all our special acts and days
fall apart right in the rain, and all the pain
bottles up like all the drinks u drown in sorrows
too bad sorrys is too over, and these days are getting over
in the end we said its over, we just wanted happiness
but payed the price right in the end, now its way to late 
to start it over

a simple life(prod. giamma)

what was we expecting since day one, it was a fantasy dream
and to this day, thats where it stands, havent talked in a while
matter fact i dont think we can even speak, lets just say
were not on good terms, i made it worse when i went off
one night when she wanted to patch old scars
instead of takin the pain and accepting that i was the bad guy
it went back all around, my anger got out
and that lead us to never speaking again, we went from everynight
to no longer, even paying attention, how tf did we go 
from painting pictures, to being lil petty bitches
even my niggas dont get it, i mean a couple got heartbroken once
but they cant get it like me, they dont know what really happen
hell most niggas cant relate, it must feel great
falsely being heart broken, to fuck women
and how dare some bitches pretned they know wha i feel
burnin my old pictures, damn she was cold hearted
but i cant blame her, i cheated once, something i wish 
i never did, honestly i regret it, cause honestly
i was blinded to even see her flaws, i think thats the best
part of being in love, u cant see what kind of person they are
sex confuses ur brain, and now u got a imagine of perfection
when u look at their face, but reailty check
its just the face of depression, daddy issues, and money trouble
which leads her to meet bad man, who will only use her
but she takes the money anyway, she takes the bad shi to heart
and lets the money heal the wounds, fuck therapy sessions
apparently that still isnt enough, meds help but she says fuck it anyways, she rather die than clean her room
its a mess from start to finsih, how she expect to move out
when she burns her money, on pointless shi
that was the shi, i couldnt see when i was deep in her guts
im ashame half of the things she did and said
forced me to be apart of something i didnt know
i was a virgin and new comer, i miss the old me a lil
but he dead inside already, time to say goodbyes
i never got a second chance, of becoming a better man
now i look where iam, funny me and her aint see it this way
its problaby better, she moving on, finding new friends
cause god knows she cant keep a ground
i mean last time i check, it never works, jealousy and inserucity 
takes over and leads to friends groups, becoming fake sessions
with other bitches, who scheming, and talkin bad behind ur back
if u got shi to say, than say it to the face bitch
puff ur chest out, ur the big man now, i wish i was the bigger person
in all these types of siuations, when i was deep in relations
with couple of women, who were badding a eye
when it came to my part, cause i wasnt the best
my words were scattle all over, never found the right word or phrase
which made us a phase, our old faces aint recoginzeable
our conversation arent talkable, and everybody jus telling us 
the same thing, that only brings us closer together
if only they knew, the biggest picture inside, that was tearing apart
every night we decided to fight, the first thing we did was decide 
its best to cover our problems, in love, that quickly started to fade
when her attitude started to change, shouldve heard the things she said, left me broken inside, do yk what its like to wanna cry outside
but cant break ur imagine, ur ego will never, so u pretend ur ok
friends and family only get the jist, but never the twist

we never could work(Prod.iamfrizzyvazquez & dwnld__)

fingers down my hair, u and me was such a pair
we had swear, that well be great, we had such bond
too bad you are gone, its just me, on my own
acting like my lifes movie, can we go on break
all these arcs, are turning me, to a villian
and i aint feeling, all these bitches, turning sides like REM
told me u a dime, i swear ur name was penny
back on topic, u had stopped me, in the halls
and told me things, that you will only see, inside the movies
baby u was acting, i admit, u caught my eye
like a fisherman u pullin, but this shit is too addicting
love is something u cant fake, and if u do than fuck you too
honestly why even brag that u dont lie, but live ur life
in such a lie, like we aint met eye to eye, we had bonded
it was 12, i was bored, so we called, made a joke and broke the slience, we was talking, tension started building, any comment,
and we blushing, thats what made it so exciting
when u do not put a title, it can lead to anything
we made time, to see each other, we had told our folks
we had a date, they were willing, to let us,go, ofc they met me first
they had expections, ik that they did, they saw ur exs 
thought their daughter lost a brain, i was different both in looks
and personailty, i think thats why u stayed, u had saw a different way
baby u saw something, that was nothing, turned it into soemthing nice
maybe thats why it was nice, no damn fights, no damn jealousy
we had trust, and thank god that we took a leap
lost insurance, gain experaince, now im teaching lessons
to the youngins, telling them, yea enjoy the single life
but when u find somebody, who aint just another body
cherish them, cause itll be over in a flash, i promise that
sadness comes in happiness, accept the pain and good
when it comes ur time, you will sit alone, just thinkin
we was such a pair, i knew forever had a ending, i just wish u was included, now im isolated from the public, went to see another
she was nothin, aint no goals, aint no bills, thats why i got chills
she was boring, how tf she ruined dinner, in just 30 seconds 
if u was there, wouldve got me through the night
hell we couldve gone home, went a few nights
without even leaving each other, and these bitches that i meet
cant meet my expections, u bitches think, u can walk in
just cause u so pretty, i think thats so funny
whatcha you bringing to my table
please dont mention ur pussy, please dont talk about bodies
please dont mention how u get into clubs, how u pay for ur weed
how u get what u need, i already know, trust me your insulting my space, with ur presence like that, yea im picky asf
u should too, when you make a apperence, i expect the best
thats me thinking of my exs, bar could never be so low
ik that sounds rude, but listen girl, i cant give u the whole world
if your polluting the space, making face, cause im disgusted
by the way that u talk, leave the door, and take a walk

such a pair (prod. giamma)

ive just been longing, for something thats lasting
too many exs, to count on my fingers
love has lose meaning when it comes to bitches
trying to build up a bond, but im lost with my words
too many hoes, and too many dates
sex is so empty, im already down, how do yall envy
cause yall aint get play, stand on the lines, u can see for yourself
so many times, learning a person, and feelin their vibe
only to feel like a drag, only to see on ur feed, couples are happy
and making a scene, it makes u look around, and think where is my girl, me and ex didnt work cause of me, now i put pressure on me
havin to be the best man, ex can come in, and say otherwise tho
relook our vows, cause they never came, we said that well stay
but that was a lie, more like a dream, shatter to pieces
like glasses when we start to release our stress
if this was the past, i would change something, cause i was a nothin
she was too good, but i was so bad
why is the best always given the worst, i broke her down
and i really feel it, a part of me, really does miss it
ive tried to find it with others, and soemthing aint clickin
i think that im fighting, cause i really know, that no one can beat her
even a clone, can never come close, no matter in looks
no matter in ways, u can have all of her habits, and still never beat her
youll never be perfect, cause she was so perfect
we all have our problems, but ill overlook it for her
ill overthink it for her, i was just wishing we fix it and move it
but sometimes the damage, can never be fix
no matter the calls, no matter the sorries, shell drink all her sorrows
and think that tmr, well be on our own, leave the whole story
straight on a clifhanger, cause sometimes u dont need a ending
i wish i had closure, but too bad its over, i still try to call her
even tho thats its over, and still hear a voice, but it isnt her voice
its tellin me, ill never connect, just like our sparks
its dead, shes moving on, happy than ever, if that is the case
i wish her the best, if anyone gets her, keep her and save her
cause she was a good one, if only i never let go, 
if only i knew, what was to come, i wouldve have gone different
maybe a route, that will leave me with her, even my words
never connect, if she unblocks rn, she can see all the texts that i sent
me in the night, despearate asf, looking for love, into someone who
lost all that feeling, and changed so much that i dont even know
2 years have gone by, shi she changed for the worst
but i can not say that im better, my life is a movie
the tickets on sale, my downfall aint coming, cause i keep on mkaing
i wish that we made it, instead we just gave it, a nail straight into the coffin

What do i want? (Prod. its easy)

things aint never been the same, ever since we said goodbye
everything has change, went from callin everynight
to her just hating on my guts, i can never blame her point
i see her view, and claim that shi, honestly i was the worst
lies and stories adding up, ill come right clean and say my flaws
it aint never went my way, this was not no eye to eye
i had problems, spoke about my secerts, told my life
and she was quiet, too much things for someone like me
she thought i was someone else, crazy she had stories
to this day, i do not know the rest, but let me tell u
im the problem in her future, she had plans, and where is she
not the best, honestly she dying in her pit, i admit its half my fault
but now shes choosing how it goes
she said love will come and go
when u let these people in and give ur trust to all these strangers
all ur hearts get into tangles, thats just something that i learn
and she hating me, to this day, i admit my problems
i admit i was the problem, i treat u like a option, u treat me like religion
holdin me, like i was sinning, i was young, i wish so many things
to this day, only one pop up, and it was me still doing good
life is different than we thought, u said love is nothing special
back than younger u would cry, if u thought i was never there
i had show u i was changing, but my past kept catching up
left me speechless, when u talked to me, when u brought it up
my two sense went away, its like my mind went in shambless
i feel shame when i think of me, how i acted, immature
how i felt, insecure, how i lie, pinnchios taking notes
my bad habit wasnt biting my tongue, it was me blurting the shit out
making it worse, cause i wanted my one sense, in a converstation
where i was the villian, still changing the spotlight, cause i wanted it to be different, i wanted my way, but with u, it only showed
to get the peace way, u gotta talk it before u walk it
to only get better, u gotta show it, and if u wanna grow, u gotta earn it
not just saying it, so she can take u back, i was on call with this bimbo
giving lessons and advice, like i was a instagram reel, but lets keep it real, it got back to me, and she asked why dont u go back
why dont u call back, apologize and make it work, maybe than u can be happy again, if only it was that simple, i mean to be honest
i miss the person i fooled, i miss the person i kissed, i miss the person i did, i miss the person who put up with all my shit, but if im honest rn
shes gone forever, shell never come back, she died right when she gave it up, it got worse when i let my top off and went off
when she tried to patch up, but too bad i wasnt giving a fuck
and its honestly always gonna be my fault

we never could work(Prod.iamfrizzyvazquez & dwnld__)

LIL M.sage