i can see you got a lot on your mind
but you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
to be going on this way
when i taped my windows shut
i knew i'd gone insane
but i let things get so bad
it all made so much sense to me
you made things so bad too
should i express it all for you?

19 years passed by quick
there's alot inside my brain
this might've been long enough
it hurts to go on this way
when i taped my windows shut
could you tell i was insane?
you let things get so bad
that makes so much sense to me
cuz you made it so easy to
express it all for you


20 years have passed in a flash
do you even remember
the little boy i used to be
mom do you remember me?
when i taped my windows shut
it wasn't much to me
things hurt so bad all the time
and that makes so much sense to me
it's gonna be so easy to
express it all for you


express it all for you

dumb and stupid song
reuploaded cause it was so bassy that it was barely audible on phones

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lyrics:

always hear "youre not alone,
you cant afford to leave"
but youre not listening
not listening to me
get it through your thick skull
i dont wanna be here
if i wasnt so scared
then maybe id be gone

"stop coughing up weed
and go to therapy"
dont wanna hear it no more
my mind's too sore
i think im losing it
all the goddamn time
i need to take a break
i need to fucking cry

i cant escape myself
wish i could run away
dont need a nicer life
just not feel this way
i wanted everything
i need someone again
fuck your religion
it wont save me anyway

please just stop
youre hurting yourself
please just stop
youre hurting everyone else
"its not the only way out"
thats what they say
but the alternatives are pretty fucking gay

you tried your best
its all you could do
but its not
what you wanted

always hear "youre not alone,
you cant afford to leave"
but youre not listening
not listening to me
i wanted everything
i need someone again
fuck your religion
it wont save me anyway

how to be an hero

TECHCLUB2K24

everything you do is toxic 
everything you do is fake
think that you’re relatable but turns out no one can relate 
i made you who you are today
but you just choose to run away
leaving just to watch your relationships decay
you think you’re hot shit but all you do is talk shit 
if i see your face again i think that i might lose it
told me to “get over it, were in high school for gods sake”
every time i hear you talk i swear i get a head ache

did you hate me? think that i was crazy? think that you could choose just anyone to replace me?
chew me up and spit me out, you couldn’t swallow
couldn’t make me cum, okay sorry that’s a low-blow
was it worth it? i swore i heard it,
that you’re just a washed up, misfit, burden
you were 15, he was 30
now i bet you’re wishing that you were still a virgin

everything you do is toxic 
everything you do is fake
think that you’re relatable but turns out no one can relate 
i made you who you are today
but you just choose to run away
leaving just to watch your relationships just decay
you think you’re hot shit but all you do is talk shit 
if i see your face again i think that i might lose it
told me to “get over it, were in high school for gods sake”
every time i hear you talk i swear i get a head ache

it’s crazy to think i used to trust you so deeply 
when in reality, it’s a new dude, weekly
too many times now, been here awhile now 
trying to remember how i thought that you were worth while 
remember when you cheated or do you have amnesia ?
i’m sure you’d blame it on the fact that you’re a libra 
what are you if i’m a liar and a bitch?
a super shallow cunt who can’t take back what she dished

did you hate me? think that i was crazy? think that you could choose anyone to replace me?
did you frame me? get all your friends to hate me?
did you fail to mention that you raped me?

everything you do is toxic 
everything you do is fake
think that you’re relatable but turns out no one can relate 
i made you who you are today
but you just choose to run away
leaving just to watch your relationships just decay
you think you’re hot shit but all you do is talk shit 
if i see your face again i think that i might lose it
told me to “get over it, were in high school for gods sake”
every time i hear you talk i swear i get a head ache

amnesia

i don't wanna go outside anymore
i don't wanna be a fuckin whore 
i don't know what i wanna be
and i don't know what you mean to me
feels like i've always been 16 
maybe it's just that amphetamine

turn to christ whenever i can
but i know my life is just a sham
when i die bury me
in a garden by a tree
after i die ill be born again 
maybe then ill make some friends 

i dont know just what do
i thought i could bet on loving you
but now my closest one is gone
i guess i sorta lead you on

but i dont wanna wake up this time

idontwnnawakeup!

https://soundcloud.com/1heelflip

staying up all night in my room 
i don’t get out much because i don’t want to
everyone fucking sucks except you 
i don’t wanna live unless you want me to 
but do you care about me like i care about you?
i’d let you watch me bleed if you asked me to 
all i could ever want is to talk to you
but i’m in the techclub hoping i see you soon 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 

you’re all that i want and you’re all that i need
when i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
guess i’m just destined to hurt and see shit through  
i’m in the tech club thinking of you 
destined to hurt
destined to bleed 
destined to break is my destiny 
i’m breaking down and falling at the seam
whether i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
i feel i’m too far gone to see my hopes and dreams 
i wanna fucking scream 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 
and i’m really hurt 
you’re hurting me
yeah you’re in my head 
yeah you’re hurting me

bleeding out in front of you (ft. heelflip)

recorded in 2022 with @Schwartzkoff (recording and mixing) and @user-459041128 (drums!) check their stuff out. I was sitting on these for a while, i'm working on something full length currently.

Old Scam

you lied to me
I watch you sleep 
stalk you online
dream about suicide

think about their deaths
take final breaths
Ill be there soon
camod up with nothing to lose

Im armed and on the loose
ill be the death of you

I know
I tried 
I’d much rather die
I don’t want to lie
Don’t want to live my life
I don’t wanna be 
trapped in reality 
Glued to computer screens
Driving myself crazy

everyone is passing me by
and there no going back this time
how could I have been so stupid
I should of just fucking knew this

Your Lies

xo_willow cover
prod heelflip.
thank you bro

KTR KYS

Feeling Like This

@wrathelection made the art


sick of all of it
humanity is overrated
makes me wanna slit
I grab the gun when I'm agitated

i'm a misanthrope 
and I'm reaching for the rope
this bitch is gonna make me pull the trigger
yeah she's such a stupid fucking ni- COUGH COUGH

everyone knows
they know my stance on things
Look at the world below
it appears to be set aflame

and there's nothing left
nothing but absolute regret
I think I rather do something
rather than living doing nothing

I tried 
and died
fighting
against life
this world 
is long gone
but people 
are clinging on

someone
has to
stop them
real soon
I fucking 
hate life
these people
need to 
die

I'm gonna make it so
I'll leave their bodies red and cold
just watch as this unfolds
another Russian school is trolled

I tried 
and died
fighting
against life
this world 
is long gone
but people 
are clinging on

someone
has to
stop them
real soon
I fucking 
hate life
these people
need to 
die

my motivation's 
too convoluted 
people will make up
bullshit that sounds diluted

nobody knows why
so they just say I wanted to die
but I wont even say goodbye
aiming my gun in between my eyes

everyone knows
they know what I am capable of
they read through my notes
and I stare at them above

now I'm finally dead
I left people filled with dread
and now I'm stuck in their heads
hoping that my message spreads

amnesia

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