it happened _outro (wraithontheporch)

w/ @breckenford
produced by cxrter & chrismarek
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(brecken)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
what i been workin for if i can't ever feel like its allowed
i been fighting just to sleep
got me foldin’ all my sheets
i swear i don't feel like me
why’d they wonder why i leave
i tell them this everyday, but they still seem like its a scheme
i don't wanna feel like this 
i swear that's up in my dreams

(will i get there?)

please god, tell me that it's gon be over soon
everyday i get home, and i don't wanna move
every bone in my body feels like it’s been bruised
and i can't take this no more, but lowkey it's been a mood
that i been stuck up in so long that i can’t attempt to prove
no more lies about the the way that i hope i'll be feeling soon
i promise that i’mma change every single thing overdue
nevermind the fact that i can't even speak on what i do

i’m tryna get to sleep without waking up spinning in my room
i know you hate it when i tell you what i did, but it’s all true
i can't go outside to take a walk without thinking of you
yea maybe that's just what i’ll do
i can't tell you that love life is like everything i knew
if i gotta act like everythings okay, then it's not cool
i just wanna be myself when i'm around somebody new
(yea talkin about you)
it’s not cool when you act like that
and if i had the chance again i would never go back
I know it's hard to believe from what i did in my past
but lemme open up the curtains tell you everything i lack
it's a lot
sit back relax
lemme tell you how i feel about my past

street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em (proud)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
i can't even choose my own outfit, it’s navy blue
take off neon colored t shirts every night before i snooze
and that's what i been used to 
how i take off my shoes
it must be time to let loose
of what i do

everything i do (cxrter x chrismarek)

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

i dont know how im still freezing
blunt came with the pharoahs curse
breathe it take the edge off
im so drunk right now cant even close my mouth
3.5 inside of this blunt im fried
shit might take me out
and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like
oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

dont go tweaking
i know that
these things tend to fix themselves
im bleeding on your porch
and we both know
you shouldve asked for my help
watch me break through as im burning up loud
and i wont fill my hand if you just gonna bite down
its a bummer and its way too much to talk about
now im flicking ash off everytime you turn to pompeii

you hate the lyrics but girl i know you love the sound
a tragicomedy it feels like i been stepping on a rake
this broken heart's another foot inside the ground
you took the cast off and didn't even find a heart to break, like how
ironic how the marijuana breaks me down
it hurts my lungs like ow, like ow, like how
if i keep on going down this road then you won't follow, right
baby did i get that right
visions blurry but i think i see the city lights
you said you really want this for my life, right
now amiro in the party like

oh my God
i know that you said that just to turn me on
my heart shedding layers later ill be gone
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying
im slowing down
i can feel the hold inside my chest grow to fit the shape of your sweet smile
but if nothings getting better then whats the point of staying

and i dont know, baby where you going
feel the blood in my face just falling down
i hate myself when youre not around
and now im in the party like

feed u w/ kiddamo (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics//

most ppl don’t know the reason
you left that night

i’ll eat a mouthful of words
you wont hear me right

each time i try 
its for my family line
hope that when i die
that youre there waiting on the other side


when you left i never felt the same
when i go out now i hide my face

youre taking years off my life, im bleeding red
you saw right thru my lies and went to bed

im sorry about it
still mad about it now
one day youll find that, in more ways you let me down

bleeding red

ididntwantthis. (mackk x spaceboyry)

raindrops on concrete w/ cray (cxrter)

Kurt (prod.fetrowdemo)

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

raindrops on concrete w/ cray (cxrter)

kaiso.