u think im so heavy metal until i fall apartt one sweet time and u never knew me at all

lyrics:
now i have bad memories of my hello kitty hair clips
why tf you have to do that to me
i loved you like a thousand times but it doesn't even matter
all you ever said's i'm sorry
n you broke my switchblade
you said you wouldn't n then you did
n you broke my heart
you said you wouldn't and then you fucking did fuck you
couldn't you see it broken ballet in the kitchen
dancing barefoot on the counter
you could never have me figured out
checking my lashes in the rearview mirror
n i see your face n you were never here
but its impressive, admit it i'm the best you ever had
tiara tangled in my hair cuz im a mfing princess
and i get it, i'm gorgeous look just like ur perfect fuck doll
so you use me for a while then drop me off on the sidewalk
now i'm standing in the rain again
don't wanna feel this pain
only angels to protect me now cuz u broke my fucking switchblade
i know my heart is like a lion, u let me down just like the drugs did
and now i feel ugly when i know i'm fucking gorgeous
and when i said i hate you thats the only lie i ever told
i thought we were forever boy
the earth's the only thing i have to hold me
my heart is like a lion soft fur sharp teeth soft eyes
i thought we were forever but you broke me

((not anymore i'm fine lmao)))

switch blade </3 ((ihy)

i love my world 333

lyrics:
i don't believe in the devil i see better in the dark
you think im so heavy metal until i fall apart one sweet time
then you never knew me at all
and didn't i look so pretty playing the organ in the back of the party
i was the coolest thing that you had ever seen
so memorous so out of reach
and now its autumn again you know i like to pretend
that i'm still turning 16 in my parents basement
sometimes its nice to feel that way
feeling young, making mistakes
but i blew out my candles and all my friends had gone away
it's a ceremony for everything that happened
abortion for a baby, i never got thru to you </3
i blocked ur number and i blocked theirs too
i threw my phone into the ocean and i never said sorry to the water
but when im walking thru the forest i can hear her singing
she wraps her arms around me, she's so sweet
she calls me her baby.....
and i'm not mad at u for not coming to see me when i was in
the hospital i know that you were hurting
but i blocked ur number and i blocked theirs too
i scratched ur name into my arms and i never said sorry to my body
and now its autumn again here i go changing again
someday ill be 21 in my new apartment
and ill be so pretty ill look just like an angel
told my mom im getting better idc if its painful,,.....
its a ceremony for everything that happened abortion for a baby
i never got thru to you,,,...
i was just a baby
i blew out all my candles
i wished that i could fly awayyyy
</3

autumn is my favorite time of year / abortion song

remember me (cover)

lyrics </3 :
i wanna be their baby their heartache
pink tiger stripe, black garden snake
they never cared about me, only cared abt them
and again close my eyes n i’m useless

its always raining here i don’t mind taking the train
remember when we would be on that shit so late
gettin drunk, gettin bags from the dealer
still readin books written by spiritual teachers 
it was almost biblical the way i fell to the floor
after crying and begging them to want more
from the world but they still didnt get it
just slept in til 4 nd hit the 7/11

i wish i could turn into a raven, so i could follow u
around all the time
i know there’s no point in saving a part of me that’s not mine
but its fine
i still drink pink wine
still smoke cigarettes in the moonlight n i learn to let go sometimes
wear party dresses to train lines, pretend nothing ever happened
pretend i like my body, pretend that i’m still 15……

n it all comes back to that yellow room
that high dream sunday afternoon
ya it all comes back, to silk scarves draped over lampshades n pink slip dresses n kitchen messes
i didn’t care about any of it
i drive my own car got a new apartment 
n if i was a raven i’d follow u home and i’d steal people’s money, drop it off by ur window……

</3

raven

lyrics;

alley cat, little girl
such a mess, you belong to the world
wet cement, nothingness
i move through all of it
over and over again

when i go crazy, will u stay here
will i float away, come back in a year
when everything goes away
i'm small, shy,  me
when all of it is here to stay
ill sleep under the trees

you're my favorite movie
stay here, move through me
it's not like it used to be, it hurts
record repeating
a hundred years spent sleeping
will someone please turn it off

alley cat, sleepy head
it's okay to be sad, you don't have to pretend
just find some peace and make your bed
the moon will always rise again
just how you like it to, i know you do
when everything goes away
i'm small, shy,  me
when all the lace begins to fray
you'll know it's time to leave
because ur wiiiiiiild(x2)

alley cat, little girl
not everything's so bad
let the breath be undisturbed
when i talk no one listens
but they're not even real people
i'm alone in this world, the only real girl
and i'm wiiiiiild(x2)
ur so wild <3

alley cat

lyrics:
triple goddess, locket luvr
little starlet, fallin over
nothin makes sense anymore...
i wanna be a witch
i wanna kiss you in an alley way
clary sage burns up my days
you got high and i got faded
n i remember may in beltane
we got drinks from the bar
the bassist asked for my number
n i broke his heart
you shine so bright my baby
you're a shooting star
when i sleep i float up to heaven, then i fall...

you could never tell me its worth it being lonely
with a heart like mine
i'm a stained glass lover, you adore my colors
gonna love you hard tonight
you could never tell me there's nothin to hold on to
you're not in my mind
my holy demons see me leavin, now they holdin on too tight...

magick box, lock me up
i'm getting pretty tired of it
i've conjured something too gruesome to love me

wild roses grow where they please
n mother mary she brings me to my knees
i'm a cemetery, i'm sticky sweet
i'm deadly nightshade, dying elm tree <3
cigarettes on the church steps
painted hair like jet black
getting flashbacks to lilac, wolfpack
white pontiac, white rat race track

you could never tell me you really understand it
beauty's lost on you
i forget when but something changed 
n now i see the world 4 u....
you could never tell me you hear the organs playing
they don't sing for you
i'm the one who's real, you're the one who's painted blue

magick box, lock me up
black cat on the sidewalk,
crossed my path n i just went on walking...........
n now i've conjured something too gruesome to love me <//3

i've conjured smthng too gruesome 2 love me...

lyrics:
things just aren't as funny as they used to be
i hold on to every word
i'm quiet when i'm supposed to be
so quiet that it hurts
wrap me in lace curtains, bury me
grow a garden where my bones live
nowadays i don't see the point in being sweet
when it just over complicates things
candles burning on the table
angels said i need more time
i'd fly away if i was able
down to california, back to way before this
cause i've spent my whole life in a dark room
saw myself the way i see you
thought it was a ghost but it was just me
honey, darling, tell me where did the time go
i was a barefoot child, now i'm barefoot in a black coat
don't you try to save me, don't be such a baby
i'm here but you can't see me
lost in the veil, please don't tear me away
my whole life thought i was condemned 
saw myself the way i saw them
done being their china doll, i don't miss it.. not at all
what's one more sad song to sing
what's one more apology while i ask the moon
to save me from my body </3
i've run out of nice things to say
i slip further, further away
just leave me here, go away
maybe i'll see you tomorrow, just not today

i saw myself the way i see you

lullaby

you could never hold me together
lyrics </3:

cross my heart and hope to die
stick a needle through my eye
unstitch my skin and then you'll see
im not the girl you thought i would be

nothing but bugs im dead inside
you look so confused well so am i
cut out my heart replace it with cotton
this old ones gone rotten and ive almost forgotten
if ive ever been alive
they say baby why are you so sad all the time

you'd be sad too if you were a rag doll 
something so fragile something forgetful
leave me to hide with the dust in your basement up against the cement wall
do you think of me at all
if my arms weren't made of cloth and cotton id pick up the phone and call you

one loose thread is all it takes
for bugs to start crawling out my face
you don't like seeing what's inside of me so you cover it up
with some more pretty pink lace
and now im falling apart you broke my heart
im so easily replaced

nothing but bugs im dead inside
you look so scared well so am i
you put me together just to tear me apart
you held my hand just so you could break my heart
i told you ive been broken from the start

im sure you'd be sad too if you were a rag doll
something so fragile something forgetful
left to hid with the dust in their basement up against the cement wall
nobody thinks of you at all
would you even answer if i could pick up the phone and call you

(do you even remember leaving me down here? its been years now, do you ever think of my face? if you wanna stop by i could introduce you to the maggots, we've gotten to know each other pretty well. if not its okay, i know that you're busy i know you don't miss me i know you couldn't fix me)

you could never hold me together
you could never hold me together
you could never hold me together
ive been broken from the start
you could never hold me together
you could never hold me together
you could never hold me together
you could never

so ill fall apart

rag doll

lyrics </3

I wake up everyday a different place a different person
I wanna run away my fragile legs are never learning
I think that people probably like me better when im crying
my mother tells me about her nightmares where im dying

she says im attracted to the light like a moth
ill get killed tryna be strong 'cause im so soft
but the middle of starting over seems like a perfect place to be
you thought that you were worth it, nothing's worth it to me
but the mud in my body

would you still love me if you knew I was alone
that I burn forests to the ground and steal peoples tomb stones
I was in your hair for half an hour and you followed me around my city
broken street lamps paint my eyes a different shade of green that makes you feel like you know me
you could only ever know this place if you dissected my rotting body, and climbed inside me
I bet you're scared
im doing just fine but lets see how you do breathing with no air

stupid fucking little girl, be my bloody valentine
ill slurp up all your organs all the blood you have is mine
i'm always on the run
does it look like so much fun
im always on the run
and I always wanna cry

but the taste of my nosebleeds are so sweet
im fading away but im happy like hello kitty
and isn't the middle of starting over such a perfect place to be
you thought that you were worth it, nothings worth it to me
but the mud in my body

(chorus)

im doing just fine here, im doing just fine
my bugs don't mind it here, we're doing just fine

<3

i bet ur scared!

lyrics:
amethyst on my bedroom floor
every license plate reads 444
he fucked me so good i almost said i love you

evil eye for my childhood home 
rose water steam on the telephone
he slapped me in the face and i said thank you

i stay up in the middle of the night
thinking of delilah rose and telephones and
dandelion wine
and i think I've seen the light
there's no point in being less alone if he 
only loves me for one night

i'm everybody's favorite until they get to know me
then every flower on the hill looks like an old tv
i guess it all comes from how much i like honey
i'm sickeningly sweet no one will ever love me

so i i guess this is why i cry
been looking for my yellow bird but he's only heard of
bands that i don't like
and i don't even know why i try anymore
my teenage dream turned to a wasteland
broken apart on my bedroom floor

i'm everybody's favorite until they get to know me
then every flower on the hill looks like an old tv
i guess it all comes from how much i like honey
I'm sickeningly sweet no one could ever love me

...</3

the honey song

ALL OLD MUSIC WILL BE BACK UP SOON
climb inside my brain, Earthling! my goodness its dark in here!

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