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things will never be the same.

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lyrics:
if you could just

understand whats in my head
im lost forever ive been mislead
ive lived ive died and i have bled
for all the words ive left unsaid

memories they cloud my mind
all of the people i left behind
at least i can say that i tried
its not my fault now let it die

if i left this place without a trace
no one could even recognize my face
why do i feel like a fucking disgrace
lay me to rest and cover my grave
 
i cannot feel
im only good at hiding and im
glad that you remind me of the
things i left behind me

this bed
that i lay in
only holds me back
and these walls just cant protect me
youre not the only one who left me 
[all alone]

why do i push away the 
people who stood by me
things are different now im better
at least thats what i like to tell myself

take my word
i know it hurts
forgive yourself
let it go



fade to black

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

produced by why loner at https://twitter.com/why_loner

lyrics:

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

the words we spoke
baby girl it like a knife to my throat
we smoking blunts that look like barrels on a rifle
all the games u play with me i swear u fucking psycho

got the sauce but im looking like a failure
imma boss but my compitition amateurs
ep drop better mark it on ur calender
bitch ill make just what i want and fuck the caliber

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
alone for 5 minutes and i smoke again
got some things i think id rather keep held back
or forget
or erase
fucking get rid of them

it was all
such a waste
of time i cant get back
throw it all
in my face
ur really good at that
even one
change of pace
could cause a heart attack
and if that is the case
well baby dont hold back

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again
im always alone in the end
my babys phone broken
but i hear it ring she just ghost again

alone again (prod. why loner)

video - https://youtu.be/9mTGTjh39Kc

mix/master - @youngburial

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that I'm sorry
and its all my fault
will you fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off 

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
maybe it's drugs I'm missing
really I'm numb to all this

outside I look calm
but in my head I'm fucked
like why you think
I always keep that bottle tucked

they talk about my life
as if they're living it
like we didn't crawl thru mud
to get to past where we been

nowadays i just am not sure
still giving everything
still need more

nowadays i just am not sure
I'm not sure
I'm not sure

nowadays I wonder
if you cared at all
I'm anxious from the topic
and the adderall

if I tell you that im sorry
and its all my fault
will you Fuck me when its over
and the pills wear off

lately I don't want no new friends
really I jus wan blow my head
mostly it's just drugs I'm missing
really I'm just numb to all this

anxious from the topic & the adderall

all for you 
production by cairo
mixed & mastered by fahl beats

sammy g & savage gasp - all for you (prod. cairo)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

i miss u w/ yungjzaisdead

i been off the drugs
for the whole night
pain it cuts me up
till the sunlight
i can't go to sleep
can't shut my eyes
fuck is wrong with me
feel so numb inside
what the fuck is wrong with me
i can't find my inner peace
i been lost all nineteen years
just fuck me up and let me bleed

yeah baby pour me up
i don't wanna feel anything no more
i just wanna lie down maybe smoke some weed in my room
let my demons in through the door
i know i'm a fuck up
i know i'm a waste
i know you don't ever wanna see my fucking face
and maybe it'll stay that way forever 
maybe imma drown in this rainy weather girl
keep my heart sitting beside your bed
let me in your dreams, let me in your head
you were my angel but lately you've been turning red
i've been feeling empty bout everything i'm alive but i'm still dead

wtf is wrong with me (prod. jakkyboi)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

theres no sympathy for the dead (escape the fate cover)

convolk - A Million Messages; No Response [prod. deject]

planet blackstar (prod. irby)

u are perfect to me (tom bailey)

i love you... (addict.)

a place where i belong pt 2 (feat. supachefm)

saturday night

lyrics:

does she even miss me i been gone for so long
i know we got problems baby can u come home
honestly i couldnt tell u what i been on
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone
can u look at me the way u used to i need it
sorry that i got this way i promise i mean it
sorry for the little things i always get wrong
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone

bentley doors tinted when i enter the home
driving while im spinning and i call it my zone
i could feed u liquid and they call it patrón
girl its been a minute since i aint got the tone
know u feeling feelings trust me u not alone
i just bought a beamer and i slapped on the fors
know u feeling feelings when i lift up the doors
i could whip u anywhere like im giving tours

i know she the one and i just wanna take her home
known her for a minute but i still got shit to know
living fast pace ion wanna take it slow
i might put balenci on the tip of her toe

do you remember what i said to ya
all that lovey shit i really meant to ya
not to mention all the roses i had sent to ya
all the clothes and all the weed that i had lent to ya
everything im making i want u to get a sum
i bought all the addy that she putting on her tongue
i bought all the tech that she been pouring in the cup
i just hope she playing when she say she dont give a fuck

does she even miss me i been gone for so long
i know we got problems baby can u come home
honestly i couldnt tell u what i been on
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone
can u look at me the way u used to i need it
sorry that i got this way i promise i mean it
sorry for the little things i always get wrong
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone

wide eyed 
i fall in love
i fall in love again
when i see u
heart break
let me make amends my love

now we talking like we talking bout the past life
swear to god i think that none had sound right
i just put all of my feelings into sound bytes
i just quit the percs it got me itching like its head lice
you know ill never be accustom to the spotlight
maybe id've sunk the shot if i had shot right
i hit my nowitzki pivot right before the chalk line
then she throw it back im getting blinded by the brake lights 

does she even miss me i been gone for so long
i know we got problems baby can u come home
honestly i couldnt tell u what i been on
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone
can u look at me the way u used to i need it
sorry that i got this way i promise i mean it
sorry for the little things i always get wrong
i been fiending for a minute can u pick up the phone

pick up the phone (jabarionthebeat)

Song title - Reflection
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics: 
I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

(X2)

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

I couldn't help myself 
you smiled and I was lost
in a lovesick world endorphins 
they can be toxic 
you played me for a fool
cause love was never an option

I want to wake up 
and feel like 
this life is a blessing 
instead I'm drinking whiskey 
loading bullets in my F-N
leave everything I own
to my family and best friends
and I know it aint your fault
I just can't keep on pretending 
that I love my life and 
everything is fine around me 
while I feel like I'm drowning 
demons they surround me 
talking very loudly
all inside my head
I know its all inside my head
cause

I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

Reflection

Just something to put out I was feelin bored

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