The Upload

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: Cypression x Hazenova x Nkno x Madisyn Nichols
Mixing: lil XipZ x Cypression x Hazenova x Nkno 
Production: lil XipZ
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(Lyrics)
[Intro:lil XipZ]
all black benz
i want it
diamonds 
all in my pocket ya
i got you in my wallet
that polaroid from forever ago oooh 

[hook:lil XipZ]
sad but wont say shit
im fine but im jaded
i cry every night in bed under covers 

all black rover 
shoutout james colt there
gonna drive by myself since i am a loner 

[Verse 1:Cypression]
oooh oooh
im a loner but i dont wanna be lonely
you dont know me but i promise im not phoney
i got tears in my eyes but its fine
(look at my hearts but its gone)
my hearts been jaded but its alright
(its alright) 

[bridge:lil XipZ]
all black benz
you to hold my hand
you and my friends
and we travel like a band
live like rockstars
fucked up like popstars
end up in cop cars yuh aye 

[hook:lil XipZ]
sad but wont say shit
im fine but im jaded
i cry every night in bed under covers 

all black rover 
shoutout james colt there
gonna drive by myself since i am a loner 

[verse2: Hazenova]
im a loner
and no one even knows me
i dont really talk much
im chilling by my lonely
i wont tell you how i feel
until you tell me if its real
like tell me what the fucks the deal
i keep my emotions sealed
you dont even want me at all
you never answered my calls
youve been watching me fall for so long
(you dont even answer my calls)
(watching me fall for so long) 

[hook:lil XipZ]
sad but wont say shit
im fine but im jaded
i cry every night in bed under covers 

all black rover 
shoutout james colt there
gonna drive by myself since i am a loner 

[verse3: Nkno]
you keep fuckin with me like i have no feelings 
sippin on lean high off the codein 
you lie to yourself  when you say you love me 
what is this feelingwhat is it i need 

im just gonna say it im fine but im jaded 
i cant make no friends  whove gone thru the same shit 
i really fucking hate this miss me when im faded
i dont wanna hear this from you a lame bitch 

you sit there watching me fall and you dont pick me up 
sitting here at a loss thinking of the pointless battles i fought 

I fought for you I wont keep the truth from you 
I wouldnt lie to you what am I to you 

[hook:lil XipZ]
sad but wont say shit
im fine but im jaded
i cry every night in bed under covers 

all black rover 
shoutout james colt there
gonna drive by myself since i am a loner 

[verse4:Madisyn Nichols]
jaded, im jaded
im jaded, im jaded yeaaaa 

Jaded! im jaded! 
i think i may cave in
everything you said and did, i really believed it
am i just blind? (blind)
i thought you were mine (mine)
everytime that i write (write)
i catch myself writing about you everytime (time)
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh ohhh
the heart in my chest
give it a rest
lay me in my coffin
i dont wanna be here, i just wanna be dead
i am depressed
i feel nothin im a mess
layed here in my bed
i dont wanna be here, i just wanna be dead

Jaded (ft. Cypression x Hazenova x Nkno x Madisyn Nichols)

prod. @user-397100824 x Seph

lyrics: 
so keen in my endeavors 
to seek out mindless pleasures
I'll ignore my impulse control
then make this bad decision
next day wish that I didn't
wait for it to swallow me whole
there's no caution within me
I'm a danger to myself
a danger to myself
give in to this sensation
instant gratification
it's been draining all of my health
and soon I'll have no more
always impulsive, reckless
thoughtless of consequences 
guess I'm just a danger to myself
and one day I'll go too far
I try to be farsighted
see over the horizon 
but it's way outside of my scope
because life is a battle between good and evil
and I chose the latter where outcomes are lethal 
I just can't trust myself anymore
and I would suffer a lifetime of torture for a moment of pleasure
cause I don't know any better 
give in to this sensation
instant gratification
it's been draining all of my health
and soon I'll have no more
always impulsive, reckless
thoughtless of consequences 
guess I'm just a danger to myself
and one day I'll go too far
give in to this sensation
instant gratification
it's been draining all of my health
and soon I'll have no more
always impulsive, reckless
thoughtless of consequences 
guess I'm just a danger to myself
and one day I'll go too far
and O.D. like a rock star 
I'm a danger to myself

Stream on Spotify

danger to myself (prod. @skgotthesauce x Seph)

prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0oGcZfAZaOby4FVubPcrFQ

not my greatest work but I needed to make this b4 I exploded

take me back to last july (prod. skellington)

Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

spotify.

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loneliness consumes me
all i see are spirits i'm abusing
i feel like a ghost am i translucent?
life is getting old
should i just do it?

every night i dream about a perfect end like hemingway
i got nothing left to say
i'm always drawing a blank
feels like i'll never fit
abstract shape
can't look in the mirror cuz i hate my face
i been drinking so much
cuz without that i can't depend on anything

i feel like a ghost

loneliness consumes me (prod. taylor morgan & caspr)

i wish the pain left when u did </3
.
.
.

this aint no drug problem
yeah this just me fallin
inside ur love
i got it
yeah do u think about it
1:50 am
i wanna kiss u again
if u hate the old me 
i'll be ur new boyfriend

if u hate me then u already half-way love me
dying in ur arms
i guess im half-way lucky
im alive 
but for how long
this aint goodbye
baby so long
kiss me goodnight
kiss me slow 
kiss me goodnight
kill me slow 
if u hate me then u already half-way love me
dying in ur arms
i guess im half-way lucky

can u look me in the eyes and say u hate me
can u look me in the eyes and say im crazy
u can tell me i was wrong and yes i know
but i want u to myself 
its all i want
and i wish the pain left when u did
but its love baby 
nobody ever wins
and i wish the pain left when u did 
but its love baby 
nobody ever wins
.
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<3

-emo fruits aka young fruits basket

I WISH THE PAIN LEFT WHEN U DID (2K6)

Teenage Dirtbag (Prod Splashgvng)
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Teenage Dirtbag

big papi [prod. taylor morgan]

fallen leaves beneath your feet

MIXED: ARI 
MASTERED: ARI
PRODUCED: @jtpark & @kuroimetsuyu
WRITTEN: ARI 

Stick Up: Produced @jtpark

Baby lift your hands this a stick up
Maybe when I die ima miss her 
Little lover boy cry a river
Ima shoot my last shot like a pistol 

Lay your head on me
I got nothing to lose
Take a shot with me
We got nothing to do

Lay your head on me
I got nothing to lose
Take a shot with me
We got nothing to do...


Hate Me( 8th Key) Produced @kuroimetsuyu

Now I know you hate me
Lately 
Ive been singing cuz I’m down bad
Since day three
Now I Sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
Now I sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
My 8th key 

Now I know you hate me
Lately 
Ive been singing cuz I’m down bad
Since day three
Now I Sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
Now I sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
My 8th key 

Im on my eighth key
Im on my eighth key
I know you don’t care
I know you don’t care
I know you don’t CARE
NO ONE GAVE A FUCK ABOUT ME
I KNOW YOU HATE ME
I KNOW YOU HATE ME 

Now I know you hate me
Lately 
Ive been singing cuz I’m down bad
Since day three
Now I Sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
Now I sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
My 8th key 

Now I know you hate me
Lately 
Ive been singing cuz I’m down bad
Since day THREE
Now I Sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
Now I sniff another line of blow
My 8th key 
My 8th key

STICK UP (HATE ME) PROD. JT PARK X KUROIME

prod. @metlast
🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

Lyrics:
Sometimes i get so fucking cold
All i know, all i know
Its etched so deeply in my soul
My soul 
Yeah i got ice inside my bones

But i dont mind its alright
Baby stay with me we got all night
Its alright, its alright
Those memories make me cry

got my eyes closed
Ill never go home
Im getting high tho
Everything turn slo mo

Im in this ride hoe
I see the end grow close
So would u hold me close
And never let me go


Let me go
Let me go
I know u let me go
I let myself get low
Pick up my self, cry alone
Wipe up the blood, check my phone
I just cant take it anymore
I just cant take it anymore


got my eyes closed
Ill never go home
Im getting high tho
Everything turn slo mo

Im in this ride hoe
I see the end grow close
So would u hold me close
And never let me go

Never Let Me Go (prod. Metlast)

i gave u another fkin hand to hold 
then u put me in a fkin chokehold
talked to u inside the fkin hospital
i might be a asshole
but i really care tho
i jus count my racks n mind my business
u got lucky there wasnt a witness
i been tryna find it in my heart to find forgiveness
WE BOTH KNOW
THAT U DID THIS
and in the end u will be all alone
i dont really know what else to say
fucked up mental states 
theyll put u inside a dark place
ik im the bigger man
ik u were never rly my friend
i hope that it haunts u for the rest of yr life 
i hope that yr struggling to sleep
yuh
even when the suns bright

Even When The Sun's Bright

[lyrics]
tired of trying getting nowhere everything goes to shit despairs been on my ass so i live my life and don't look back but its so hard when i got so many regrets tears left to shed oh another headache from another fucking lecture why cant i learn my fucking lesson

losing all my friends and feeling depressed but I'm just growing up but I feel so young feels like yesterday I was just fifteen skipping class skating with friends not a worry in the world

tired of trying getting nowhere everything goes to shit despairs been on my ass so I live my life and don't look back but its so hard when i got so many regrets tears left to shed oh another headache from another fucking lecture why cant I learn my fucking lesson

rain falls from the sky I feel more alone at night almost eighteen don't wanna grow up feeling so numb I don't wanna move nah memories make us alive but they hurt so bad at night

The Upload

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