vibes 3! <3

answer

this is an album about the fears and tremors that come with love, and the crisis of not knowing your own identity as yours.

enjoy.

fog & obscure

download

worse

fine

apathy

Ｖ．ＡＳＴＲＡＬＳ　（ＦＥＡＴ．　ＣＨＡＳ　Ｍ）

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＣＨＡＳ　Ｍ

ＡＳＴＲＡＬＳ （ＦＥＡＴ． ＣＨＡＳ Ｍ）

feelin' gross & morose

lyrics:
don't love an artist
if you don't love yourself
'cause they'll paint all your flaws
and they'll make them look beautiful as hell

and don't love an artist
if you like what they make
'cause you'll be immortalized in thousands of notebook lines
and splotches of paint

and when they leave
you'll be stuck with a hole in your chest
with the scent of their skin
and the feel of their bed where they rest
and you can't forget
'cause you live in their works
and when you see those pieces
they just make you feel worse

'cause they knew who you are
oh, they knew very well
but the truth is that now
what you're left with is only a shell

so don't love an artist
'cause they'll take who you were
and they'll hide you in acronyms
bury you deep in the shapes of their words

and when they leave
you'll be stuck with a hole in your chest
with the scent of their skin
and the feel of their bed where they rest
and you can't forget
'cause you live in their works
and when you see those pieces
they just make you feel worse

they just make you feel worse

dont love an artist

don't love an artist

ＢＵＴ　ＴＨＥＮ　ＷＥ　ＣＡＭＥ　ＡＢＯＵＴ　＆　ＴＨＥ　ＳＫＹ　
ＲＡＩＮＥＤ　ＤＲＯＰＳ　ＯＦ　ＣＬＡＲＩＴＹ

//あなたは私の日差しです//
//あなたは私の月です//

i was gonna wait & release this when we hit 200k total plays, but i felt like you guys deserved something for reaching 2k followers. thank you so much for every single ounce of support. i don't know what i'd do without you guys. also a huge thanks to my love for influencing a vast majority of my writing & always pushing me to do better & keep going no matter what. i love you more than this music could ever express.

https://genius.com/guardin-clarity-lyrics

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ＹＯＵ　ＫＮＯＷ　ＴＨＡＴ　ＹＯＵ　ＭＥＡＮ　ＴＨＥ　
ＤＡＭＮ　ＷＯＲＬＤ　ＴＯ　ＭＥ

//私たちは奇妙です//

thank you guys so fucking much for the endless amount of support
we're reachin' milestones i never thought were possible
it's only uphill from here
i love you ♡

https://genius.com/guardin-guardin-x-yung-van-lets-just-keep-walking-lyrics

cover art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
https://goo.gl/asxd7w

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＹＵＮＧ　ＶＡＮ

guardin x yung van - let's just keep walking

yep. still miss u.

lyrics:
the beauty that i once saw in the world
must've transferred itself into you
'cause i feel your precense at every moment
your voice in whatever i do

and i'm tired of trying and laying awake
wishing death would come take me at last
to think i exist is a fable to me
i'm unable visit the past

so i'll rot
in this grave

and soon you will find someone better than me
with a beautiful smile and a daily routine
and they'll take from your heart what i placed when you left
and they'll toss it aside like stale cigarettes

AND YOU'LL BURN ME ALIVE AND INHALE MY INSIDES
AND I'LL TURN INTO SMOKE AND I'LL FLOAT IN YOUR EYES
AND YOU'LL CRY LIKE WE BOTH DID EVERY NIGHT
AND I'LL FINALLY KNOW WHAT IT FUCKING FEELS LIKE

to be free...
to be free

to be free

thanks a million
cover photo shot by alex aka soupisnasty

you were a savior to me
a break in my aching routine
you picked me up, put me back on feet
and now that you've left, i'm breaking

i'm glad that you're doing well
it's a sight for sore eyes, can't you tell?
nothing makes me feel my missions complete
like knowing you smile where you dwell

chameleon boy
chameleon boy
you're blending in
just like everyone else
in the wreckage
of all i destroyed

chameleon boy

@imtiffany

go check out the original:
https://soundcloud.com/imtiffany/nothingspecial

art by https://twitter.com/cattactoe

tiffany - nothing special cover

ＡＬＬ　Ｉ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　ＡＢＯＵＴ　ＩＳ　ＹＯＵ

//あなたは私のサンシャインです//

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-evergreen-lyrics

waking up every day & seeing how much love you guys give me is truly amazing. i never thought i would be able to reach this point. knowing i'm helping you guys through your problems all while you're helping me out through mine is such a blessing. we're in this together & i promise i won't let you down. i love you.

lyrics

evergreen

Ｉ　ＪＵＳＴ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＣＲＡＷＬ　ＦＡＲ　ＡＷＡＹ
ＦＲＯＭ　ＷＨＥＲＥ　ＴＨＥ　ＭＯＮＳＴＥＲＳ　ＬＩＶＥ

//私の声が聞こえますか//

i'm gonna take a short week and a half break from everything to sort my mental health issues out and focus on myself. i'm sorry. i hope you guys understand. i love you

i don't wanna feel like this

seasonal depression is kicking my ass, so here's some music
cover photo taken by corey "deko" gilbert

lyrics:
the fan beside me's humming at a steady a# 
i can just make out the note on my phone screen 

it's 6 am again and i'm still crying over things 
that i've been crying 'bout as long as you've known me 

eternally unhappy 
i'm alone 

severing the cartiledge 
and bone 

i want to be rid of every 
piece of me that's left 

until i float 
i am a ghost 

the world around us spins as we wait for it to end 
hey, guys, do you think that we could do that sooner? 

waking up's a chore, i walk the labrynth on my floor 
and realize that i'm a fucking loser 

eternally unhappy 
i'm alone 

severing the cartiledge 
and bone 

i want to be rid of every 
piece of me that's left 

until i float 
i am a ghost

winter

download <3

fan (ghost)

seasonal depression is kicking my ass, so here's some music
cover photo taken by corey "deko" gilbert

lyrics:
laying up at night 
no concept of myself 
i'm lost inside my head 
you're lost inside, as well 

i'm breathing in fresh air 
on my grandparents' front porch 
while you're laying in the grass 
or you're staring at the floor 

and anxious like i am 
i'm panicking again 
'cause i'm losing touch with all 
the people i call friends 

you're losing in a staring contest 
with whatever's in your mirror 
you are me and i am you 
but we're not one and i'm inferior 

i'm three beers past five too many 
i'm two bowls past too high 
i'm one forehead kiss away 
from falling asleep when i realize 

that my whole life is up in the air 
my heart is out on a tightrope 
and my mind is so unaware 
that the safety net was cut a long time ago 

so why should i remember 
when good times come around 
if the deafening silence of anxiety 
will drown out the prettiest sounds 

at the bottom of a riverbed 
my nightmares are coming on 
they feel like my favorite song 
if i didn't know the words whenever it came on

a conversation about identity

S/O https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes for mixing my part :)

Kixsu X Flowars - So High (Prod. Syndrome)

when it's raining in the morning 
and you smell the petrichor from your bed 
know that i'm with you, there in some way 
like a fly on the wall in your head 

when the bad thoughts and the nightmares 
keep us afraid of the things in our minds 
know that it's alright, life keeps moving 
just don't let it leave you behind 
when you're exhausted and you're lonely 
and the sadness begins to appear 
know that somewhere, there are people 
who love the idea that you're here 

and when the sky dims, turning pitch black 
and the clock reads 3 a.m. 
hit me by phone call or text, calm or panicky mess 
and we'll go out for milkshakes again

cover taken by https://twitter.com/Queen_of__Hades

petrichor

thanks for getting "up for days" to 20k!! I'm still blown away on a daily basis the amount of love and support i receive from you guys, i seriously don't have words for what that means to me.

go show @tyshead some love!!! this song would not exist if it weren't for him, and he's someone you're definitely gonna want to watch going forward.

i hope everyone has a wonderful day <3

never gave up (prod. scarri x kenny)

cover photo taken by mads

chain smoke the hunger away
only eating one meal a day
on a good day, but the good days
will never come

i got so used to loss
that is sort of became part of me
i lose myself in my head
i lose my patience in the agony

i lost my youth in the fallout
of somebody else

who took advantage of trust
and left me hating myself

it's always there in my dreams
i put myself through your hell

why did you do those things to me?

sit down on the side of my bed
and contemplate the endless nothing sat inside of my head
it's such a slow burn, but the candle
is always lit

i got so used to fear
it learned to manifest in me
i fear the ending of it all
i fear your reckless apathy

i fear that everything's boring
and nothing will help

it's like it's all in a cycle
my dwindling health

i feel the breath of the reaper
on the side of my neck

why do i still get out of bed?

reckless apathy

i'm singing songs you've never heard
about a place you'll never go
i'll wear your fragrance like an accolade
and bleed out in the snow

i've got your fingerprints all over me
imprisoned like a ghost
inside some empty little nobody
who's sobbing on the phone

i wanna know

your favorite color
and the ways you like to sleep
i see your shadow on the window
when the day slips into evening

you're the caffeine and the nicotine
i need to leave my bed
you're the sickness in my head
you're the reason i'm not dead

i wanna know

vibes 3! <3

noah