Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart - Mitski

I’ve fallen in love with dangerous man 
I wish I’d realised before it began
He’s listening to every breath I take 
Hes watching every move I make

But I can’t help the way I feel 
I’ll just romanticise it and forget what’s real 
I should be more than terrified 
What happened to my sweet little girl... our love is just a lie

I’m not ready to die, but I said from the start 
I’d do anything to make him happy, even if it tears me apart
Soon he’ll decorate our rooms with our teeth and our bones 
Pink ribbons adorn them, so frail and delicate to hold

And I can’t keep saying I’ve fallen in love 
If one day I’m gonna end up
As just a pile of bones above the fire place 
Under that framed photo of my face
Him loving me was a felony and even though I fell for him deep
I know someday hes gonna be locked up for eternity 

Do you think this shall ever end
I don't know how much longer I can pretend
I wanted death all the way from the start
It is what it is, til death do us part 

Until death

Til death do us part

Reach down my throat
Take my heart 
tear it apart
Dig your teeth into it, look me in the eyes as the blood runs from my mouth 

Kiss me
Show me the taste of my own poison

When you’re done with my heart 
Give it to the forest
I don’t know how to use it
My blood runs black, and I’ve infected you 

Take me back, take me back
I wasn’t ready to die
But it’s time to say goodbye

I see your morbid beauty in which I fear
“You’re mine now
I own you
You own me
And together we belong in a universe that does not exist”

The taste of my own poison

"and I'll never see you again if I can help it" 

Night shift - Lucy Dacus (Shortened)

Lyrics:
I’ve accepted that I’ll only find 
Peace when I die
That’s just the way it is
In the end nothing matters 
So why am I here?

I no longer fear death
But I fear life 
If nothing matters why should it matter
If I die? 
Commit suicide
I try my best to stay alive 

You tore me apart
You broke my heart
You used me
You abused me

Yet still, I do not matter at all
Nothing matters

Hopeless

Lyrics:
Never truly alone
I talk to the ghosts
(she doesn’t know that we talk back)
There’s not a single secret they don’t know

Supernatural 
Delusional  
Not rational 

It’s not a delusion 
Or an illusion 
Or is it my mind that I’m losing

Delusional 
Unusual 
Not rational 

I’m surrounded by pairs of eyes 
Watching me sleep at night 
Stare at me, paralysed 
Watch me til the day I die
I should be sleeping, not weeping 
I keep believing all the lies
Paranoia keep on torturing me all 
All the time

When I step into the shower
I feel their gaze and I cower 
My delusions overpower
My control 24 hours
This feeling I’m being watched
Why, why can’t it just stop? 
Why, why can’t it just stop?
Why, why can’t it just stop?
I haven’t showered in two years
I can’t get past this fear
Delusions (taking over my life)
Delusions (taking over my life)
Ah, ah

Delusional

Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror
What does real life really feel like?
I don’t remember what I’m supposed to feel

Am I dead?
Or am I in a dream?
Am I a ghost watching what my life would’ve been?

I can’t feel
Times not real
Life’s not real
I’m not real

Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
Nothing is real, ohh, ohh

(I don’t think I belong on this planet
This galaxy, this universe 
I don’t think I belong at all)

What am I here for? 
What is my purpose? 
Or am I even here?
What can I trust?
I don’t know who really exists
I don’t remember who anybody is

Do I know them?
Can they see me?
Can they hear me? 
Can they feel me?
Do they know me?
Do they know who I am?

I can’t feel
Times not real
Life’s not real
I’m not real

Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
I can’t feel, time’s not real 
Life’s not real, no I’m not real

I’m lost
I don’t belong, no 
I can’t do it, I don’t know who’s real I don’t know what’s real 
Anymore, ha
(No more, no more)

The taste of my own poison

Bambi Baker