im not falling in love (snippet)

album posted to overtonights throwaway spotify account

living to pay off vacation

lyrics:

ahh, went outside, 72
i cant stand to look at you
i cant stand to look at you
im warm as shit but your heart is cold
whos gonna tell me when its gone?
i love someone but its not what it seems
i dream of you while im taking pills

screaming murder, tattoo on the wall
im screaming murder, kill them all
screaming murder, screaming murder
bloody sunday is over

i cut on my own behalf
i dont wanna cut with glass
i grab my razor from the kitchen sink
i- i slit my wrists saying i bled out
and im shouting out for help but

i walked alone to the edge of the earth
blowing up bombs like the end of the world
let my blood curl, its the end of my term
i be damned that you dont love me anyway
im moving away, im running away
inside of my brain, im full of mistakes
artillery taking its aim, blow up a place
bloody sunday is over

bloody sunday is over, not in my head tho

staring at the ceiling, feels safer than your eyes
you always found a reason to dress up all your lies
i’m choking on apologies you never wanna hear
you left me with the silence, now it’s all i fear


every time i tried to fix it, i just made it worse
maybe i was always broken, always fucking cursed

it’s probably my fault anyways
you got sick of all my deadweight
if i disappear, would you even care?
or would you just smile while i’m not there?

i’m tired of pretending i’m worth anything at all
you watched me crumble slowly, never tried to call
maybe i deserved it, maybe i’m to blame
i’m nothing but a burden you were too polite to name

its probably my fault anyways

Every time you’re here
You lose yourself

I don’t need your lips girl
I need your help

I’m distracted
By your features

I’ll be in sickness
or in health

You’re ignoring all my calls
Ripped the photos off your wall

You know I’m starting to think
That you never bothered to care at all

You said I’m stupid
You don’t think I’m human

Don’t you remember
Our old nostalgia 

You said I’m stupid
You don’t think I’m human

I need a reality
Check through myself

Oh
I don’t know here to go
Do you really hate me so
I still remember all the times we had
Now I’m mad

reality check through myself

(prod.dead yami) we miss you (song is satire)

we miss you soul<3 uh yeah

collab wit fan/new hb nobody will be here in the end

i swear im not okay w/ wifeaghost

m/m by debbie 
this is going on the album . just something to drop for now
#ihatebirthdays august 20th

its probably my fault anyways

lain. @blindbylain