what part 3

its hard not to cry when im all by myself
and its hard not to lie when i lie to myself
and i hardly can try even with all the help
being me everyday's slowly killing myself
and i say that im fine but its far from the truth
and they push me away so i push on them too
say that you feel the same i dont think that you do
and i dont want to change but im changing for u

it's funny how this happens so often

cover of car seat headrest's "my boy (twin fantasy)"
song originally written by will toledo

my boy (cover of car seat headrest)

its hard to put into words but ill try
and i feel discouraged every night
im feeling the worst in my life
cause i cant be her if i tried

i put on a smile for my friends
but i dont know whos there in the end
i hope that youre glad ill pretend
that im not even mad at what you said

how can i love you i dont love myself
and how can i trust you i dont trust myself
i spend all my time fucking screaming for help
you spend all your time fucking screaming as well

cant help but get jealous of people in love
i wish i had someone to give me a hug
i wish there was someone who knew what this was
i used to be close to my friends yeah i miss how it was so much

no matter how hard i try

produced by yungspoiler
LISTEN EVERYWHERE - https://ffm.to/lumina

Lyrics

it's not that simple
I keep on getting crippled by my own actions
tip over the lid, let it trickle 'n cause a reaction
I'm barely getting by, I can't keep on taking up no action
I can't process the feeling, my brain is under construction
constricted in this body I don't feel right
and maybe that's the reason I don't sleep at night
maybe I'm just getting by, I think I'll say my good bye
so long, I'm out

every second's way too long 
I know that I'll miss it when it's gone
I don't feel at all, many days that I've spent ill 
still wait for the fall
and I can't recoup from all the shit I've done
so let me start the burial process
I know no one is upset but me, it's true

it's a process. I'm always digging up a grave
and I don't wanna touch that shit!
It always makes me feel grey
and I don't wanna take the hit
why don't you put it through your brain?

constantly biting off more than I can chew
you always run your fucking mouth say "I know what's good for you!"
shut up, I'm fine. I don't need your help!
and I'm tripping over everything, I swear I'm in good health
taking everything you say with a grain of.... "Oh well!"
no help! can't rest, I'm dead!

every second's way too long 
I know that I'll miss it when it's gone
I don't feel at all, many days that I've spent ill 
still wait for the fall
and I can't recoup from all the shit I've done
so let me start the burial process
I know no one is upset but me, it's true
put it all to rest! I know it's in my head
cause everything I've said are stories I've not kept
I know it will be fine without me, you doubt me.
start the burial process!

burial process

Stream

burial process (yungspoiler)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh we don't feel the same
like what we used to but we'll be okay
2 hours delay
part of me could never push u away
see i still love you, it'll never change
i need to lose you, i wanna keep u safe
but i'm still waiting for u to come home
u reside somewhere else now
oh kay i'm losing sleep
i think about u every day and every single week
but i'm still surviving this deep
we talk like once a month just know i'm working on me
and when i go to bed ur on my mind
and it effects the way i dream
waking up isn't a good time
u know we made a decent team
driving away u want me to stay
the minute i leave i'm missing your face
i don't understand, u were all i got
i'll piss through my pants if u got a guy
baby i know u could do better
she hates to be used, so why do u let him
if i was you i'd say to him,
"i'll no longer continue to put up with this"

can't keep looking back or else i'll slowly die
but i'm already dead i can't really decide
to open up the gap and better up my life
i want it bad but you'd hate me to try
do ur thing i know it's over
dead boy like being a poser
bad terms couldn't care about no closure
dive into exposure
i don't drink, so i stay being sober
oh man i should've closed her
cut it off but now i wanna hold her
so come a little closer
i told u everything now can u keep it on the low
cross ur heart and promise me that u won't tell a soul
you'll do anything
to keep it closed
i don't wanna say
the less u know
studying ur face
zero flaw
all the details
so beautiful

spotify

closure

produced by heylog

lyrics:
laying in my arms u look so cute under the stars
your father comes outside and sees us laying in the yard
focus on the coral sky and threading both our hearts
n every time the sun sets i see u from afar
notice how i ask u things it shows i truly care
don't know what u feel i am completely unaware
well after loving you i realized no one can compare
you're the only thing i want but life's just never fair
but everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but all the things in life feel like they're falling
but i'll be fine, i'll make it through but when is it over
i spent a couple years with u and now i want no one

the evening carries little wind that travels through ur hair
u move it off ur face and put it back behind ur ear
and u caught my expression but i couldn't help but stare
the civil things like that well babe it makes it hard to bare
i'm praying for u, hoping all ur dreams come true
and i wish everything goes right for you
but i don't care if u want the same for me too
just know you're important to me, am i too?

well everything's gonna be okay, i promise
but why do all the things in life look like they're falling
but don't u worry, i'll be fine but when is it over
we spent a couple years together, now i want no one

everything's gonna be okay, i promise

joe biden freestyle (georgenk)

Artists:
@vislyn
@ghosthandsmusic

Produced by
@johnnyfriend

Lyrics:
yeah i'm standing in the mirror and I see my reflection
gasping out for words, I just need more seconds
why don't you tell me how you've been, yeah I just wanna check in
I just hope from our story yeah I've learned my lesson

cause I've been so tired
I don't wanna fight but you're a liar
I need your help cause the situation's dior
I'm so sick of using people to get higher, higher
yeah we can take a picture
cause it'll last forever
just like broken glass yeah my mind is severed
and this shit ain't feel the same since like last december
and you can pull my strings, but don't you think that you're clever

You don’t even care if I tell a lie
I’m tryna do what’s best is that such a crime
Staying silent for a while
We’re watching every minute pass us by now
Life isn’t a movie, guess you think it is
No fairytales, no endless bliss
It don’t last forever, no time to kill
Like I’ve been saying

Over and over
We’re running backwards
Falling asleep now
‘Cause I’ve been

cause I've been so tired
I don't wanna fight but you're a liar
I need your help cause the situation's dior
I'm so sick of using people to get higher, higher
yeah we can take a picture
cause it'll last forever
just like broken glass yeah my mind is severed
and this shit ain't feel the same since like last december
and you can pull my strings, but don't you think that you're clever

vislyn - last forever (ft. ghosthands) (johnnyfriend)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(hair)
i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

hold what i have learned from u and leave everything else behind
wonder if she notices i'm distancing and tryna hide
burning all the passages and that includes both you and i
fighting on this field for u but i think you'd rather me die
face plant
in the soil
the water comes
to a boil
now it's hot
take my shirt off
got 8 bumps
between my torso
old ones keep in touch cause they see that i'm doing something right
think about how far i've come, it honestly got me surprised
u say we're the same but man that hurts cause i am not ur kind
more destruction, come prepared, the blood is real and well defined
missiles coming from the heavens, everybody runs with fear
think i'm deaf from all the bombs, i just hear ringing in my ears
the voices are embedded, i be battling for quite some years
don't know what they say, i just know they like to interfere
PACK MY BAGS OR CONTINUE FREEZING
I HATE MYSELF AND YOU'RE THE REASON
BUT I PROMISE I'M GETTING THERE
LESS HEAD PULLING, LOOSE STRANDS OF HAIR
SHE DETOX WITH A GLASS OF WATER
I MAKE SMART CHOICES, THAT'S WHY I'M WISER
I SMELL THE BOOZE COMING OUT ON YOUR BREATH
I GUESS YOU NEEDED TO TAKE SOMETHING OFF THE EDGE

i heard what u said but now i'm past it
getting tired of you talk ik u cappin
i'm p good at sitting back behind the action
i never even know, force of habit
gotta hold me back and my aggression
fists hurt from doing all this clenching 
you think i'm pissed off, i'm just upset
i'm tryna see the light, wanna end this

don't know why u up
like what do you want
i'm not here to judge
do u feel forced in love
i needed help as my skin tears
i would really like to know why u weren't there
whom i love, i'm in despair
can u hear my voice, are you here

hair

stream <3

it gets lonely

one time (kkei3)

recovery mode

mona lisa

underscores – your favorite sidekick (feat. 8485) [wone flip]

pinkpantheress - just for me (austyn remix)

Baby Its Okay ft hoshie star

Re-upload, had to fix something on the track, but yolo

<a href='https://theartistunion.com/tracks/baba1f'>Download for free on The Artist Union</a>

free download

ya u

cover art by Gabe Howell

how to dress as human
what like a skirt and.. like some heels?
now i look stupid...
is this how every human feels?
better go with vans
im never gonna pass
i should stay home
why did i make plans?
drunk in the bathroom
messing with my skirt
ive got hair in my tights and
nothing in my shirt
if i paint on some lips
will they come off with a kiss
and tell?

how to dress as human

@fraxiom
Recorded Live at the Convergence of Art b2b Technology

Saturday, August 15, 2020
PC Music Takeover, Cue Stage

Tracklist:

umru — ID
umru & fraxiom — So Hot You’re Burning My Items 
Silver Sphere — Crowd (umru edit)
umru — Sorry Bro I Griefed You 
Gigi D’Agostino — L’Amour Toujours (Small Mix)
umru & fraxiom — ID (Big Mix)
Bladee — MERRY-GO-ROUND (umru edit)
fraxiom — Scawy Monstews and Nice Spwites :3
DJ Fresh Finds — I Rly M3ss3d Thing5 Up
fraxiom — ID (prod. umru)
fraxiom — ID (prod. umru)
fraxiom — Mushroom Stew
8485 — 4real (ft. Petal Supply) (prod. umru)
six impala — FARAWAY199X/TAPE 2
Riley the Musician — Nineteen
umru & fraxiom — Unblock It
umru — American Mine
umru & fraxiom — ID
Hannah Diamond — Minecraft Every Night

DJ Tags by William Crooks & ProVoiceWorks

umru ♭⒉♭ fraxiom at Lavapalooza

@skybleuu
https://soundcloud.com/seamoretheseal/goldfishpants

what part 3

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