produced by me
guitar played by acey

lyrics
here i am takin steps
stress for what curls to the edge
im running from whats inside of me
im being confronted by my biggest enemy
oh my biggest enemy standing front of me
blood between my fucking sheets, i hated you anyway

fictional or just a dream, its gonna happen anyway
look at me rotting beneath, demigorgen inside my brain
waking up from this lucid dream everyday feels the same
rotten smell from them truey jeans
back to reality
craving for attention  you fucking cunt
i dished out my love and you took the hunt

fictional or just a dream, its gonna happen anyway
look at me rotting beneath, demigorgen inside my brain

does that make us bad, people
not you
she told me she loves u, i wish you had said it
i wish youd had said it rlly i wish you had said it
(look at me rotting beneath)
I HATED YOU ANYWAYS COS YOUR A FUCKING CUNT

i suppose i'm not done
bury the noose it seems rather fun
destined to die behind the sight of a gun
you scared to die no it might be fun
keeping track of time tho my journeys begun
stay away from me you fucking cunt

i'm getting sick of that feed
now its time to leave
ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ
#jeremyclarkson

journey

produced by me (dawsin)
guitars by (michael warren)

I hope to take you on a trip with my pain ;l

lyrics ♡:
oh my god- 
im not enough
please-
leave me alone
save me
"dawsin"-
JUST A BLUFF
i cant do this anymore man-
god it hurts
"dawsin"-
ROUGH
ITS KILLING ME- 
"dawsin"- 
FROM THE INSIDE
YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK
"dawsin"-

oh no i know shes a narcissist
I know now that she cannot resist
me and my peakest form
its the calm 'fore the biggest storm

i would write a love letter but its not enough
cause I would know cause everytime she talks its just a bluff 
so dont compare our lives like you always had it rough
but when i tell you that you just say you dont give a fuck

I woke up and im ready tea-r-r shit down
your the only one that i want around
and no i am never seen
what do you want that's best for me?

I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY BRO BUT YOU NEVER EVEN SHOWED UP
NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD BE A PRICK THATS ALSO STUCK UP
I THINK YOUR RIGHT WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE A FUCK UP
ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT I GOT THE SHIT SIDE OF LUCK

*laugh*
I
AM
ATOMIC

IM RUNNING OUTTA TIME NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS FEAR
I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT IS NOTHING I WILL SHOW YOU THE DESPAIR
AND WHILE YOU SIT THERE AND CRY ILL MAKE A KNOT IN MY HAIR
SO YOU FEEL PITY WHEN IM GASPING FOR THE AIR

despair

Self prod :) 
Hira guitar op

Lyrics 

Im low Im lost
our feelings always crash the same
My eyes get low
I never feel your pain
guess my thoughts feels bad
I dont even need no stash
cuz my hearts too late
I know these feelings suffocate

Been stressed out
stressed out for a minute
my friend died
last year hasnt been it
sat inside
head tied I been spinning
fantasize bout a life i aint living

and if things dont go my way
break bones dont love with the things I say
My heart wont ever ache
I know things that il never say

are my years gone yet
I cannot find death
when it feels the same
Do my eyes know love
cant decide I fucked
everyone thats mean

Guess my choice in stuff it never makes me sane
cuz my hearts to loved and my thoughts too fucked
it will never stay

I know these talks that we have Il never give
You break my arm You touch my heart
Your such a bitch
You fake these thoughts you tell me things
Like what will fix

Iv never had anyone
you lay these tabs on my tongue
I take a trip
Iv seen this world Iv seen your face
it makes me sick
So tell me things
I Never BREAK

Suffocate

prod auden

lyrics:
i had enough, nough yeah
step outside to run
run yeah, yeah
get up, lungs, yeah
cold air in my lungs
lung, yeah

feeling like a failure
i just need to s-
all i needa do is talk to me
and ignore my gut, yeah, yeah
ignore my gut, yeah

i know i can do it
i just needa focus
you're not on my phone now
now i can fo-
if i said i didn't think about you
i'd be lying
but instead of missing you now
i hope you're crying, yeah, yeah
i hope you're crying, yeah, yeah
i hope you're cry-

you know what you did
you can't deny it
you are a little bitch
i hope you're crying
now i know your mom was right
i should have listened
you wasted all my time
i won't forgive, yeah, yeah
i won't forgive it, yeah, yeah
i won't forgive it

"home II" produced by: ilyl1ght

lyrics:
everyday i wake up make a song and do it all again
everybody talks its so annoying you dont know a thing
just about year ago nobody even knew my name
just about a week ago your talking like you have no shame
lying on my name like tell me hey what are you doin
tell me im the worst but its okay already knew it
everyone's the same the double standards really stupid
you cant break my heart that part of me is already ruined

whatever, you can say anything you want
whatever
wow hey man thanks i needed that
wow hey man thanks I needed that
wow hey man thanks I needed that

its okay already knew it

home II

lyrics ⬇️

no i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
yea i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

you cant keep up w these options
left and right you be tossin these questions to me
dont expect itd be awesome
theres not much to see

like cordoroy im waitin here while feelin like a beast
out of my mind and down on my knees
you can tell me what i needed to be
gettin so cold out that i start to freeze
double the crutches get stompped by the cleats
u dont need nothin u wanted from me
ima be further away from the scene
i dont want nothin to do w the beans
im crossin my arms when you show em to me
turnin up everything before i leave
im makin my mark i want em to see
where i would be 
where i would be if i didnt have grief
ill put down my gaurd and ill make em believe 
yea i been to places that i couldnt reach

send me a shot 
hit witta bat
outta the park
not comin back
no time soon
yea thats a fact
a big monsoon
changing the current track

yea yea i wanna lay there but not on a mat
yea yea i feel the cold air surface into the flat
yea yea maybe its all i got maybe its all i have
racin until im gone baby i feel like a stag

comin up- a dry time
double up my life line
and i dont wanna tell a bad lie
but its hard with your eyes

and you were all i wanted
then you broke a promise
it wouldnt be too classy
if im being honest

a compromise dont seem much if it already seems overwith
put a tripod in the hallway then ill wait to see if the camera glitch
got phasmephobia fearin all the ghost thatll be comin in
walk far til im clearin my system and ill settle in

yea gentlemen
cold hearts spark adrenaline 
had a bold start but you tremblin now
old cards got me holdin my ground

i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

monsoon (yunnygoldz)

exit [dash]

Shout out my man wraith for killing his verse in this song, go check out his music and tell him swamp sent you!❤️

https://on.soundcloud.com/LmhrUsjh5Pws53rJ8

Lyrics:

I’m not too comfortable 
What made it obvious 
I could just tell by that look on your face 
And You get so nervous sometimes that you bite on your nails and forget what to say 
Such a shame 
But that’s ok I’m too youug to care or to dumb to realize I wasn’t prepared 
I can feel it, there’s a chill in the air we’re in the calm of the storm the void is here don’t be scared 

I tend to choke on my word’s they just never out 
Guess the cats got my tongue somewhere tucked in his house 
I’ve spoiled beyond all return so please turn around before I let you all down 
It’s too cold here in this realm that I call my head such a lonely hell 
The airs so thin throughout this shell 
Inthe catacombs of my former self 

Leaving my texts unread
Don’t even care what's said
Why even bother send
Baby it’s time this ends

I have my hands in my hair
I rip and I tear
I’m scared of a memory
Lost in the air
Deep in despair
It’s all into ashes
They fall off my blunt like a flare
I’m barely scared
But also
I’m barely here
I got an eighth
In my bloodstream
Feeling like nothing
Fuck up this body
I guess that I never was someone to care

I’m not too comfortable 
What made it obvious 
I could just tell by that look on your face 
And You get so nervous sometimes that you bite on your nails and forget what to say 
Such a shame 
But that’s ok I’m too youug to care or to dumb to realize I wasn’t prepared 
I can feel it, there’s a chill in the air we’re in the calm of the storm the void is here don’t be scared

comfortable w/ Wraith

song by evergarden
for a while - evergarden <333
@evergardens

for a while (evergarden cover)

I feel my bones crawl right out of my skin I am not comfortable 
inside this place which I reside inside this place which I call home
Ive grown so fuckin numb to this but yet I feel so vulnerable
please cut around my neck and make it quick it's not enjoyable

I tried to call a thousand times the line was unavailable 
I'm deep inside these trenches and my death is unavoidable 
I tried to play my part I couldn't sorry I can't play the role
I hope that you'll forgive me love I hope that it is possible
I know

that every day gets harder by the minute love
well if you said you did it and you didn't could you get it done?
I'm sitting in the living room at 3:02 wit my flashlight on
scrape reclaim out collecters holy fuck I need to hit the plug
i know

that everything gets better if you manifest it
I'm so hungry (hungary) for the cheddar fuck around in Budapest
get 80k off YouTube beats I made this on my own you bitch it's
nothing to me honestly it's just another days recessions

and it's just another dazed depression
I don't like to do this shit cuz Everytime get too aggressive 
passin out inside my jeans I'm too fucked up I'm past beheaded
could you get it done because you didn't when you fucking said it

I've been on the run
from myself for a while now
you don't mean a single thing you say it's best to pipe down 
I don't mean a single thing I say in lyrics typed out
at least that's what I say to prevent creatives right now

i prevent myself from writing
typing
I don't wanna talk now
hiding
fighting
suicidal thoughts in my mind 
behind these bright blue eyes
I write things
I see
tantalizing
sights
beyond reach
traumatized
my body
rotting
play my heart out like guitar strings
play my heart out like the ivorys

did you do it to spite me
or do you just despise me
can you be honest for once

I've been better off lately
hope it's driving you crazy
that I'm doing okay but I still don't wanna wake up
and it's fucked what we'll do for a paystub
you can hide your face but I see right through your makeup
you don't have to try anymore I'll walk away love. 


unavoidable (sorrowbringer)

no love ft camz (prod tiresss)

made a discord server
https://discord.gg/zSPcaVCM28
tunes eh
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my disc is “ilyaidxn.”