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WINNER

Sometimes - Alex g

Alex G - Not Anywhere

BREAK (prod. ERLAX)

Counting Worms (Knocked Loose cover By BrxkenBxy)

flowerbed 🌸 (prod. alicestickly)

everything hurts
MAKE ME FEEL PAIN I DESERVE IT ALL

MAKE ME FEEL PAIN, I DESERVE IT ALL. MAKE ME FEEL PAIN, i DESERVE IT ALL.
I DESERVE IT ALL.

BEEN IN PAIN ALL MY LIFE
ITS THE SAME EVERYDAY
IN THE RAIN
IN DANGER
PLAY DUMB FUCKING GAMES
ALL DAY ITS MY LIFESTYLE
MY LIFE BEEN DECLINE FOR A DAMN WHILE
EVERYBODY ACTIN SO FUCKING HOSTILE
IM BOUTTA GHOST & DELETE ALL MY FUCKING PROFILES
FUCK YOU ALL IMMA MOVE HUNDREDS OF MILES
FROM ALL THESE BAD MEMORIES THAT IVE COMPILED

hangin my life on the line, a sad time
everyone hurts on earth, its a long sigh
every day every night i hear us all cry
why does god let us hurt? why cant we just die?

WHY DOES GOD LET US HURT WHY CANT WE FEEL FINE?
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE JUST TAKING UP TIME.
SAME SHIT DIFFERENT DAY BUT I ALWAYS FEEL TIRED.
WRONG PLACE WRONG TIME THIS SHIT OUT OF LINE.
LIKE “OH MY GOD AM I A BURDEN” OR HAVE I BEEN FINE
WHY DOES GOD CAUSE THIS HURT WHY CANT I JUST CRY
WHY DOES GOD LET US HURT WHY CANT WE JUST DIE?
FUCK

PAIN(PROD.SHABAFLABYA)

my bad for being 2 years late on this one

HATE THAT i EXIST (PROD. SKOTSKR)

Save me

ceiling

lyrics
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baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

safety harness me into the mainstream
snip on these straps till i'm dangling
over the heads of the people who i put my trust in
trusted you but now even that's busted
adapting quick well adjusted
you make me sick i'm disgusted
functionality is vital when your future spirals
down a path you've been tryna follow
evidently i'll be hollowed out and placed in piles
it's the price that you pay to smile
they don't like it when i'm speaking out
here we go again you done freaking out
yeah this cold ass world got me freezing
i guess i'll keep dreaming now
it's like this huh

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

do not forget
it's important
things could be much worse
and surely time will sort it
please don't forfeit
it's important
life is beautiful
in time i'm sure you'll learn that
all we know is we're comfortable
at the rate that things are moving we in slow mo mo
take it with a grain of salt cause we still grow grow grow
planting seeds inside this garden
we ain't finish what we started no

baby don't forget
things aren't always certain
in due time i'll come inside
and hide behind the curtain
lately i forfeit
succumb to the surface
i've got quite the habit
of telling myself i'm worthless

forfeit (prod. anthony del grosso)

float by scruffpuppie

Im so fucking tired of how i feel everynight
I feel like im wasting my life 
i fucking hate how i write.
Just know that i tried,
To make it all feel alright.
Justt know that i tried, 
To make it all feel alright.
Tell myself i have to let go..
I cant do this..
My hearts so low..
You cut through me..
I cant feel none now..
That im without you now
That im without you now 
(How do i forget you now?
How do i stay alone now?
Ill never let go im so down
Now that i stay alone now)

I cant pretend
Im so damn tired,
Fed up with this shit ive dealt with..
Never  feel im relevant i dont care.
Let me rest ill end it.
Let me rest ill end it.
I dont give a fuck if i am relevant.
Bitch i fucking hate this planet,
I never asked to be on this planet..
I dont need help 
but im lying
i hate myself 
Wont stop crying
Feel i want to go back in time
Please stop asking if im fine…
All of this dont mean shit 
Because one day we’ll just die…
Through all this hell, i tell myself its alright..
Through all this hell, i tell myself its alright..
Through all this hell i tell myself that im fine..
Through all this hell im still alive,
Through all this hell ill be alright…

i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

alright

Laid To Rot

debut lp
recorded, mixed, and mastered by Tyler Gutleben

Brand New Shoes

Sav3M3FromMys3lf (prod. wolet x maestrowons)

24 (prod qazers)

Alex G - Cold

Alex G - Uh

ASYLUM

lyrics
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i fell asleep in the backseat
with my eyes wide shut bumpin backstreet
we arrived on time to the crash scene
i just stared as i saw my body pass me
could’ve swore that this shit happened last week
got a hunch it’s a reoccurring bad dream
had a bunch last year when they asked me
what is it that you fear in your passing?

what is it that you fear in your passing?
maybe death but it’s more so in the crashing
do i feel everything as it’s flashing?
do i care? does it hurt? yeah i’m asking
cause i don’t have a clue how to feel
why do all of these dreams seem so real?
would it change if i just took the wheel?
i don’t know till all four tires squeal

i’m stuck in a nightmare
scared by where my eyes stare
no clipping through my car door
my body will just lie there
reaching towards the skies stairs
you won’t make it i swear
the current is pulling me
i’m hoping i don’t die here
(x2)

floating to the surface
i guess life is worth it
beat the fuck out of myself
tell me that i deserve it
anxious is a person
for that i am certain
i embody all my fears
and wear them like a curtain

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