I remember when I was writing this I didn't like it very much. Now I think it might be one of my favorites.

Come Back-Test

Prod. by Beatowski

lyrics:

Riding on the bus to my dead end job
I'm never paid enough I pretend no prob
I hesitate to ever take a risk I missed a lot
I'll never make the same mistakes I reminisce the loss
can never break it off
it's become a part of me
stressed to stay aloft i thought with heart I'll start to see
the path laid out for me
Been handed your disease and I have landed with torn feet I can withstand when most too weak
no man approached to teach
i never needed one to anyway
i stand alone to reach
my severed dreams awoke new many days
who can relate?
to having family give up when you break
turned backs to mask the fact that having you was their mistake
Been spared to waste

like living on is punishment
been done with it but keep on bleeding cuz they say they gonna miss your face
then piss away
no give just take
like I'm the selfish one to rid this pain
when you just wanted me to stay because you hate to change its safe to say

you're selfish
all of you are selfish
don't pretend to help this
when I've been locked inside of cells
I've fought and clawed outriding hell
I hate myself because I'm selfish
we're all a bit selfish

I'm grippin the wrist and i started adding in pressure
i did it again but the slit had just missed what could end us
apprehend the manic that has us bandaging fresh cuts
contain the deranged in my brain with a gallon of liquor
you see me so cheery believe me I'm acting pretender
when really I'm seething and dreaming of stabbing my neck to
erase the mistake of my place I can't take all the stress of
the multiple voices I hurt to destroy all the whispers
i miss her
Passing days still having cracks to fix up
laugh at pain, no packs today, outcast, I am a drifter

a vagabond, pariah
don't have a home or tires
abandoned all the lamb of god's i am my own provider
I stand alone to grab control I'm tired prior break
tired cuz I cannot sleep my mind will always rage
tired of this life my mind disbanded all to save
I find that happiness evades
when I try planning out my days
I cannot stay
I ran away
to find a life and mask the pain
designed the ice to craft on page
to fight the violent massive rage
inside I might still blast my brain
but pride decides that I can wait
cuz iicenii's still after greatness
I can say this yes for sure that I am

selfish
yes I know I'm selfish
I taught myself and dealt with
the fall of all I held
the boss prevails
to wall in help
will drop in hell
yes ya'll can tell I'm selfish

everybody's selfish

selfish
all of you are selfish
don't pretend to help this
when I've been locked inside of cells
I've fought and clawed outriding hell
I hate myself because I'm selfish
we're all a bit selfish

Selfish

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An ever changing style with rhymes getting tighter and faster. Follow my journey.
Also writing an album for my comic. Listen to ASM's the Jade Amulet album for context on what the comic album will sound like.

Selfish

iicenii

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