Thoughts

produced by @notmorgn

im cold as a mf now
glock in my dickies 
dick all in her mouth
your bitch in my section
load a smith and wesson
put it to her skull 
its the best suppression
she wanna fucking die
she pop anti depressants
but i aint gonna pull the trigger
bitch i learned my lesson
i fucking learned my lesson last night 
in the rain switchblade on my face 
i got blood in my veins

BLOOD IN MY VEINS IM INSANE....

she told me that she wanna die

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//私の軌道の悪魔//

i can't thank you guys enough for the endless amount of love & support you've given me since the start. i never thought in a million years we'd be where we're at right now & it's crazy to me that we still continue to grow. it's always been a release for me to let loose on a track & hear what you guys think of it. it's always been for the people & for myself. i love waking up every morning & reading every single comment, every single message, etc. you guys put the biggest fucking smiles on my face & i hope you all know i'm here for you as much as you're here for me. i've struggled with my anxiety & depression for years & to know a lot of you are going through the same things is somewhat comforting. we're in this together. i couldn't do any of this without you guys. we're gonna strive & do great things, i promise. don't let your demons get the best of you. i hope you enjoy this one. i love you

check out the music video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtv87HVgnpo&t=1s

art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
goo.gl/asxd7w

music video

demons in my orbit

they can never understand
how i really feel inside
i smoked some weed to feel alright
but look at how it changed me now

for better and for worse at times
it doesnt even get me high
should prolly take a break sometime
i light it up and go offline

yeah i light it up and smoke for now
i dont give a fuck if i break down 
she suck my dick to help me up
her knees are bleeding from the cuts

i know that people really hate me
my phone is blowing up like crazy
if i go no one can replace me
so i stay cause all these women crave me

crave me (prod. kuroime)

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

@xam @lilhappylilsad @pastnight

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5F0CjNQii37YUkykNiElVl
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/less-than-three-feat-lil-happy-lil-sad-single/1464242497
YouTube: https://youtu.be/Ul6ZhefinsE

[Verse 1: XAM]
I really thought that I found what they call real love
I really thought that you were the chosen one for me
But I was wrong and now you are gone
So many girls on my mind, but I dont see you anymore

I’m going crazy, I can’t take this no more
I’ve been feeling so low for so long
Ever since you walked out the front door
I’ve been sleeping solo on the cold floor

I can’t sleep when I’m alone
I can’t breath when you are gone
You’re on my mind everytime that I’m on my own
Wish you were here right now but you are gone

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

[Verse 2: Lil Happy Lil Sad]
I always thought you were the one
I can’t believe I’m nothing to you
Bless my body with your hands
It was a world that I was new to

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

I wish you needed me
But now you’re leaving me
I need to smoke some weed
I need promethazine

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

LESS THAN THREE (feat. Lil Happy Lil Sad) [Prod. pastnight]

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

pain hit
when i feel alone
when im on my phone
and i play my songs

draining
when im feelin low
when im smokin dope
and i miss u too

tryna stay lowkey
girl i just gotta stay lowkey 
fuck you dont think that u know me
i dont want no one to know me

im walking round like a zombie
drugs in my blood and they on me
i got some blood on my body
girls on my phone they all want me

woke up feeling dizzy
from the night before, im tipsy
need to rest but im too busy
fuckin cryin
x2

i dont deserve you
im sorry im fucked
you think ill hurt you
and maybe youre right
i dont deserve you
im sorry im fucked
you think ill hurt you
so maybe youre right

draining (prod. lilhappylilsad)

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//ごめんなさい//

lacuna

just breathe (feat. st. silver)

Lyrics:
I have no one that's proud of me 
no one listens to my songs 
all alone I cant stay strong 

how can I keep on grinding 
when everything feels wrong 
u can hear it in my songs 

if you'd listen, you'd hear my pain 
I'm too deep into the darkness and too deep into my veins

if you'd understand, u'd give me your hand
I'm way more broken than you think how much further can I sink?

I never thought, you'd hurt me so bad 
somedays I want u gone but you're the best I've ever had 

I don't wanna lose u, but u cut me too deep
you broke my little heart and left me when I was weak 

why do I keep on getting hurt 
by the people that I love 
damn I wish you'd treat me good

tell me when will u show me love 
in the way u should
cuz I know I treat u good 

I can't write any lyrics cause I can't get out of bed
I really wish u'd save me baby 
from the demons in my head 

I'm holding on my blade n nothing feels right 
I might kill myself tonight i really wish you'd hold me tight 

if you'd listen, you'd hear my pain 
I'm too deep into the darkness and too deep into my veins

if you'd understand, u'd give me your hand
I'm way more broken than you'd think how much further can i sink?

Hear My Pain (Prod. Deathgaiden)

produced by @notmorgn

@guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(guccihighwaters)

where my friends?
all i see is ghosts with drug addictions
im floating well but i will sink with this affliction

and that night they found u dead right in the kitchen the sharp needle pushed like a piston

come feel come feel

(9TAILS)

come feel the beat of my heart
is it fast and should i be scared
bitch i been falling apart

ur friend hit a rough patch
bitch i BEEN falling apart
i could teach em how to deal with that
i could show em where to start

it really isnt that hard
put the work raise the bar
i treat the game like a football
kick that shit all 53 yards

catch up to me thats a trek
far trek no picard
u aint really been thru enough
take a look at these scars

im falling
through the cracks
back breaking
under the pressure u had put up on my back

love bites purple onto my neck
with no love its boring
wish i could feel something

(guccihighwaters)

i wish i could
i wish i could
i wish i could
just a fragment of my heart
is all that u left me
how many times
cus girl i been stressin

no friends just vices around me
they only help me block out my surroundings
19 but my heart is in fragments
now every night i just sleep in the casket

(9TAILS & guccihighwaters)

im falling
through the cracks
back breaking
under the pressure u had put up on my back

love bites purple onto my neck
with no love its boring
wish i could feel something

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - scars (prod. notmorgn)

@guccihighwaters

produced by @notmorgn

lyrics:

9TAILS:

ill be 20
next year
but i dress like im old
sitting down 
12 hours
i could swear im 
growing mold

kraft macaroni
cooking up
on the stove
i got no where else to be
but ill say i gotta go
everytime she tells me i should stay some more
ion see no drugs so fuck it gotta go

gotta go
gotta go
i gotta go

not a single hour lately i dont wanna roll
not a single meal i wouldnt finish with a smoke
never touch a bogie and i put that on my soul
but i light so many woods its like a bought a pack of smokes

like i bought a pack of newports
living life like its a crash course
living life like theres a second try
i know u will but i dont think ill die
so im giving everything a try
whered u get it and how much it cost
how much of it cause an overdose

i dont wanna die but ill get close
how much of it gonna numb my soul
intense emotion make me curl my toes
fuck love i feel it getting old

guccihighwaters:

ill be 20 next year but i feel like im dead
i look like im 12 and my hair is a mess
flip the stack just like a tech deck
i ain’t smokin gas but if i did it would be septic

im fuckin ballin’
they tryna intercept it
they just get crossed up
like an intersection
y’all my sons
like i broke the contraceptive
she lackin vitiman D 
so she swallowed my erection

must be my aesthetic
shawty gimme neck
but it feel like anesthetic
i can’t feel my chest shit
my heart beatin fast
think it’s cardiac arrest bitch

woah big words i think i need a dictionary 
words inducing images but this ain’t pictionary
write in the morning
record in the evening
day in the life
but i breathe for no reason
by the way girl i gotta go
i just get inspired from the feeling of your throat

plus its cold out i think i see some snow
hopefully it sticks so i can stay inside alone
but

BOTH:

how much of it gonna numb my soul
intense emotion make me curl my toes

9TAILS & guccihighwaters - gtg (prod. notmorgn)

@lilmoonlet <3

hello?

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them, i hope you don't think i'll resolve them

sometimes its just not that easy
(not that easy)
sometimes its just not that easy
(i wish that it could be)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i wish you could see what you're doing to me)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i need you to be, all that you can be, i'm sorry)

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

i am only human, how do you expect me to react when you're abusive
i get that you're hurting but i'm not deserving of being your way out 
if i'm such a burden then why don't you leave
hoping you'll stay but its hard to foresee, if you will ever be happy with me
i can't keep doing this every week, i'm growing too weak, 
i think this relationship has reached its peak, i'm growing to weak
so sad its bleak

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

problems w/ moonlet (prod.hkfiftyone)

SPOTIFY

concussion ft. guccihighwaters (prod. caves)

i will never be a memory 2/14/18


i dont got nothin but time
i feel it burning inside
the ghosts of my past they berate me
the feeling just cannot escape me
hate me but you are forgiven
this is the point that youre missin
blind faith in apparitions
no way to lose inhabitions

shadows in the dark
ripping out my beating heart
wiping blood off of my face
there isnt much you could take from me
crying on the phone
feeling numb down to the bone
watch the world turn into ashes
as i suffer alone again

wasting the day
and im wasting your space
you told me to get the fuck out your face
sometimes i wish i could just fade away
the same way the ink on my skin turns to grey

scars on my body remind me of pain
reminding me that nothing will be the same
reminding me that nothing gold ever stays
and itll always be this way

violence in the purest form
we both know when it rains it pours

shadows in the dark
ripping out my beating heart
wiping blood off of my face
there isnt much you could take from me
crying on the phone
feeling numb down to the bone
watch the world turn into ashes
as i suffer alone again
(x2)

violence in the purest form (prod. charlie shuffler)

@guccihighwaters

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past
Me, I just wanna get better, I can't be like this forever
Call me a loverboy when I'm with you
You're my sun when I'm under the weather

It's late as hell and I'm up
Recording a song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

I been stuck in the past like I'm McFly
And I'm so full of shit like a pigsty
I can be good or bad depends on whos eye
Everyone that I loved I was used by
Now I'm broken, still hoping
I can breathe in your love without choking
That I won't regret what I've spoken
Hope the pain that I felt won't soak in

Lately I been feeling like shit, fuck this
I ain't never really had felt much bliss
Her lips, death stained kiss
I reside in my mind's dark abyss

Write songs just to cope with the pain
Broad day, still stuck in the rain
Different day, shit still feel the same
It's been a while and I still hear your name
It's been a while and I still see your face
It's been a while and I still can't erase
All the times that I used to embrace
I know you can't so don't say that you relate

I don't wanna start over again
Guess I'll cry about it, scream into my pillow again
Bleed more than I do when I'm using a pen
You know where to find me if you wanna see me again

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past

It's late as hell but I'm up
Recording this song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

| guccihighwaters |

Am I worth it, is it perfect
Do you feel the same as I do
Worthless, so cursed, with a mind like this
Do you mind if I die for a bit

To keep it honest, I would die for you bitch, yeah
Say fuck life, wristcry for you bitch
Never wanna make you sad, it kills me
Intoxicated every night from feelings
I got regrets in my head (x4)

unknxwn. - regret

regret.

spotify.

regret. (feat. guccihighwaters) | Produced by brokn

In My Thoughts

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

filling up the space

make sure you check out don daze and dee b on youtube cause they got some really good beats! <3

ima blast off
sorry gotta blast off
foot up on the gas 
no more time i gotta dash off

ima blast off
sorry gotta blast off
foot up on the gas 
no more time i gotta dash off

ima leave earth i don't wanna break hearts
brokeheartboy wanna live on mars
ima blast off ima get a head start
wait a couple months you gon know jus who we are

i've been breaking from weight i've got under my chest
call me titanic cause i'm finna wreck
you think you're right when you've always been left
mac on ur girl till she loses her breath

sorry gotta blast, i got lots of plans
everyone around me only use me to advance
everyone the same, blonde hair same vans
if you tryna fake you can catch these hands

ima blast off
sorry gotta blast off
foot up on the gas 
no more time i gotta dash off

ima blast off
sorry gotta blast off
foot up on the gas 
no more time i gotta dash off

ima blast off
sorry gotta blast off
foot up on the gas 
no more time i gotta dash off

blast off! 🚀(prod. don daze & dee b)

produced by george cauty aka boyfifty

lyrics:

wind blowin down city trees and shit
eastern white pines like 50 feet and shit
kinda scared to be inside my room
my vision on the limelight
tunnel sight

my concious going bye bye
new time
flys by
i want
everything
all star 
all time

getting high all the time
know i should be worried but im barely in my prime
ghost
i step safely out of line
caster with my problems i kite everything in site 
do the most
bad shit happen all the time
going bat shit all the time

craving action all the time 
soaking up ideas till im dry 
im not gonna lie feel effects inside

pick my mind to points where i might think it isnt mine
i got alot thats going on but ill just pause it for the night

i got alot of shit to do
and dont have nearly enough time
know id make the time for you
if you had joined me for the ride
ride 
join me for the ride
time 
guess it just wasnt our time

wind blowin down city trees and shit
eastern white pines like 50 feet and shit
kinda scared to be inside my room
my vision on the limelight
tunnel sight

my concious going bye bye
new time
flys by
i want
everything
all star 
all time

getting high all the time
know i should be worried but im barely in my prime
ghost

Thoughts

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