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Days fly by spent wasting time in my mother's garden green
My sister's speaking no poetry they memorized never knowing what it means
I could stay outside forever counting stars on summer fields fore' I bike to Dowlin' street
Its simple when it's over and i'm happy
Painting murals on the side but it's downtown in the scorching sun
I tried all summer but I hated the way it looks so I never got it done
I walked the train tracks with a boy that I loved but turns out I was tired of being alone
So when we reached the end and I said goodbye and I was by myself when I got home

Ethel Cain ~ Perry

lyrics:

I've been sleeping in the dead body
Of a dead deer out by I-40
I dragged it there as a bed
And consummated my love
In a purple stitch
Like a scratched out itch
I am ugly, I fear
I believe what I hear
And now the push has come to shove 

I wanna waste myself
And go take a drive
Take too sharp a corner
And probably take a life

In the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while til curtain call, call

I’ve been poking at the dead body
Of the man that I oncе loved in my garden
He was good to mе and I went and I soiled his love
I will not see heaven
Surrendered to the fauna
Am I a bad person
For not knowing what I wanted

I couldn’t face myself
So I avert my eyes
Take two shots in warning
And then take the dive
And I dive

Into the end of it all
When you can hardly move
And they say you’ve still got the world to go
Stay strong
It’s a long, unfortunate while til curtain call, call
So I call
Dreading the one
That one good morning
Will destroy me
When you’re gone
We’ve been young
Immortal, even
But now we turn and wait for kingdom come

You can leave the windows open
Here in our forever home
Bite down on your shoulder
And if you bleed, then I’ll know

a long, unfortunate while - ethel cain

Succubus (2018 Version)

Verse 1]
Baby we're all out of places to go
Now that home's all gone
We burned that old son of a bitch down
We smashed out the windows and we pissed in the lawn 'cause
Happy's always been the dream
But we need to start waking up
I could follow you out there, but just hold on

[Chorus 1]
(Wait, just stay)
Your face is all fucked up from taking the world by the teeth
And there's blood on your hands, you don't know whose it is
Oh baby, come back in

[Spoken]
I've always wondered why bad things happen to good people
But then you told me you know I'm a good person and you've always been a bad thing
So now I wonder if those good people are really all that good
And if these bad things are really all that bad
I mean, all I really know nowadays is I've got you and you've got me and everything else
I don't know
I don't know anymore
I don't know

[Chorus 2]
That white horse is long gone
But we're moving on
We just keep moving on

independence day - ethel cain

Crosscuntry (Sacrilege) [Demo] - White Silas

He’s Closing in on Me (Snippet) - White Silas

Infirmary - White Silas

Hitch Party (with Little Triste) - White Silas

Ethel - White Silas

lyrics: 
you work yourself to death
you beat yourself up til you forget how it felt
your blood inside your gloves
stains everything you touch, and everything that you forgot that You love

you breathe and you sleep at that table
until you learned to sew up your mouth
you won’t cry when i leave cause the smell is just too much
now who’s gonna pull you out

your food is getting cold
you told me you’re not hungry, but you’re starving and i know you know i know
but still, you never eat
you stay locked inside that room, and why i wait for you
is a mystery to me

you breathe and you sleep at that table
until you learned to sew up your mouth
you won’t cry when i leave cause the smell is just too much
now who’s gonna pull you out

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anna steele