idonr wanne tgo ti schzool

you kiss my open sores, love soaking through my pores 
i've lived a thousand lives, this one is my demise
the day you leave my side, come thoughts of suicide
im riding shotgun in a car 
 going nowhere but we’re getting far

Substance abuse

Monte Carlo

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

There's nothing special about you
I do this to everyone I talk to
I'm immature and have bad trust issues
One day I'll ignore you out of the blue

I think you really need to understand
I'm totally incapable of romance
if you hear me giving you compliments
it's just me trying to get inside your pants

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

I don't have any actual friends
I treat people as a means to an ends
I don't care if my words offend
Forget about me ever making amends

I'm narcissistic and I'm borderline
You see people I see dollar signs
If you ever see what I'm like inside 
It will send shivers down your spine


I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
I don't get along with my father
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

OH SHIT YOU WEREN'T MEANT TO HEAR THAT

Baby I'm just joking; I would never gaslight you
I swear you know the real me, and I'll always be true
I promise i'm not a psychopath, I don't wanna see you hurt
And when things get tough you know I won't leave you in the dirt

I Don't Play Well With Others

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind 
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you 

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I feel like a fish up on land 
Im out of control, I don’t understand 
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever 
I can never talk to you 
Cuz I can’t take the pressure

Please Be Patient I Have Autism

i've lived a life of despair
so please don't take my hair
it's all that i have left
it will leave me bereft
the norwood reaper cometh

the coming years look bleak
for the suffered freak
ascend the widows peak
what makes the brave man meek

the norwood reaper cometh
its here today and its
gone tomorrow
the norwood reaper cometh

oh fighting back is folly
he culls the hedges wholly
sowed by melancholy
betrothed with just the holy

the norwood reaper cometh
its here today and its
gone tomorrow
the norwood reaper cometh

Norwood Reaper

@skyla-165786307 cover

(listen to the original too)

Substance Abuse

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
i just can't take it anymore
wanna slam my head against a door

why do i hate being awake?
guess my life was a mistake
why does everyone have to hate me?
i'm getting sick of being me

i'm sick of waking up
everyday's the fucking same
so sick, i've given up
i've only got myself to blame

it's hard to believe that i'm still here
and it's getting worse with every passing year
now i don't like anybody that i know
they're all just better at letting go

Sick

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide

3 am

POV: you just drank 3 cups of red cordial and are literally seeing through space and time

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt

Falling

GIRLS GTFO!!

giving up and getting stoned again
it’s too much effort to crawl out of bed
I’ll do it tomorrow or not at all
why’s everything gotta be so fucking hard

I can’t stand being alone
but I hate other people even more
showing my dick off to girls online
nobody gives a shit and then you die

this thug life is too fast for me

straight edgy

drinking by myself in the dark
its easy to see, im pretty fucked
wishing i could be happy but i guess i forgot
to snort up the good times and blow out the snot

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

relationships always come down to simple economics
when you figure out why youre not wanted
nothing will even matter cause reality is fake 
a 2d projection on a 3d holographic display

idontdodrugs at least not that much
i'd rather be doing you instead
im fucking ugly, nobody loves me, 
at least i can still get fucked in the head

idonr wanne tgo ti schzool

meow